Iphone camera - Self-Help

Someone asked me - who took your pics?

No one! Just me! It's true.....unless my dogs can hold my iphone still.

Iphone App -LemeLeme - best ever for me, anyways.

Self-pic tips:

1. Hold the camera button first - decide what angle to take, release it (actually, I once met with Eason at his concert, he taught everyone that)

2. take multiple, as for surely some r blurry

3. use your knee, feet, arm-length, etc etc...................

Rarely post pics here, as I want to separate  my alienated personality with the reality, but well, once in a while is an order, I assume. :)

Clarification of terms - Princess

Right. Yes, I know. Someone asked....:)

Thanks for asking.

I luv questions. I have obsession with questions....one of my sickness. I luv questions.

Is there a medical term for it? hehe.

Somewhere in my blog I did say I HATED being "labelled" as princess, as in HK - HK princess means air-head, retard, demanding, look-like a japanese doll (my version of it), brat, etc........

Honestly, I am all of the above so I dont want to be "labelled" as one, hehe. But well.

Yet, I also said, I wanted to be treated like a princess. I guess, I have to thank someone I met few months ago, he called me princess, and I actually luv it. While, once a fortune teller said, I should live like a princess (which of coz if I rejected my "fate" of being a princess, hence, since I rejected it, I could no longer be one - and it's very true, too, in a way....). And now, to be more precise, since I luv the book "Little Prince" as I just esp luv the 1st page of the boa hat analogy - since reading this book, I determined to keep the childlikeness even more than ever. And lately, someone has recognized that - hence I would like to be called "little princess" by my special someone ONLY.

Other pple, pls dont call me princess. Angels, sweetie, darling, or asshole (believe me, many men call me that!!!), bitch, brat, yuck...............yah, all fine......not princess, as it makes me goosebumps, man! hehe. Below is another funny version of how men see "HK princess syndrome" in youtube, check it, maybe U could learn something about us HK galz. :)

How to please a man

Mr Writer sent me a list he stumbled on some site, and he shared with me. hehe.

Inside the list, to please a woman needs 54 techniques while men just 2....(being naked & bring food)

Then U should know this list is written by a man or collectively by some men

Yet, it makes men sound like a retard, I mean worse than a retard. In my head, it's like U just bring someone standing in front naked, bring food to feed them, while they would be drooling all over....isnt it worse than ONE?? hehe.

Ok, below is the list, I think for women, it's somewhat true, but I just demand to be treated like a princess, and I will make U KING! :)

HOW TO MAKE A WOMAN HAPPY

It’s not difficult to make a woman happy.

A man only needs to be:

1. a friend   2. a companion  3. a lover 4. a brother 5. a father 6. a master  7. a chef  8. an electrician
9. a carpenter  10. a plumber 11. a mechanic 12. a decorator 13. a stylist 14. a sexologist 15. a gynecologist
16. a psychologist 17. a pest exterminator 18. a psychiatrist 19. a healer 20. a good listener 21. an organizer
22. a good father 23. very clean 24. sympathetic 25. athletic 26. warm 27. attentive 28. gallant 29. intelligent
30. funny 31. creative 32. tender 33. strong 34. understanding 35. tolerant 36. prudent 37. ambitious
38. capable 39. courageous 40. determined 41. true 42. dependable 43. passionate 44. compassionate

WITHOUT FORGETTING TO:
45. give her compliments regularly 46. love shopping 47. be honest 48. be very rich
49. not stress her out  50. not look at other girls

AND AT THE SAME TIME, YOU MUST ALSO:
51. give her lots of attention, but expect little yourself
52. give her lots of time, especially time for herself
53. give her lots of space, never worrying about where she goes

IT IS VERY IMPORTANT:
54. Never to forget:
* birthdays
* anniversaries
* arrangements she makes

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HOW TO MAKE A MAN HAPPY

1. Show up naked
2. Bring food

Muse - Supermassive Blackhole

This is to dedicate to My Milky Way - he's the most amazing man I ever met and he's like Edward a tortured soul but with a beautiful spirit. Luv U always, xoxo.



Anyhow, I always luv blackhole - it's the reverse of anything ie normal. No light. More like a fridge, in a human term, I think. Yet I always think.....if I could go into Blackhole, it should be quite a fun journey, everything in reverse. hehe

Nicolas Spark

OK, I read one of his books, watched two of his novel-adapted movies.

I like Notebook the movie very much coz both of the leads, but books?! YUCK. Cliche, Cliche, Cliche.....

But one thing, I found that he's pretty good at depicting summer flings

as U know why? Coz summer flings signify one thing - time is limited

hence, when u hv limited time, everything becomes excruciating romantic & intense

Ummmm......I got my share too, I think

hehe, it was pretty awesome

Maybe I wud go N get another book of his

to mesmerize the forbidden luv

hehe

Norwegian wood

Someone very special gave me this book and so I am starting reading it. IBut as I passed through chapter 2, I have a thought. Yes this entry isnt about the book, but....maybe an inspiration or something else from this book.

As was discussing with different people, about, boring people, some would name it. Some of us would name - zombie, gray people, and lately Naoto called it CloseBook. I think they are super names, it's very simple to understand what we are referring at. As I am reading, I remembered something I thought about years ago. How a similar event affects one to such intensity that they will need to use eternity to manage the pain or torture, while for the others they would gradually let the pain & memory slip through them very fast. Not that the latter gang has no heart, of coz they feel the anguish, but they dont have what I call - process in their heart & mind - in another word, somewhat their mind & heart are not in tune. Yet, in retrospect, they will view the the other group as depressive or negative or crazy. Or, just maybe the latter has unusual ability to handle, process, like a rice cooker, miraculously turning rice into rice.

As for me, how do I manage this intensity, guess I was born with a quite good deleting system?! I tend to process then delete.....I am not sure if it's good or bad, but since I have a blog, I would put my memory here. Then, I feel in somewhat I pollute the world with my thoughts & emotions, and hence I feel less agony & torture.

But as of lately, words have no more power over me. I am somewhat wordless & thoughtless. I have been taken on a ride, a ride I never prepared for. Yet, I feel somewhat it was pre-destined. All these 2.5 yrs or even these decades, I was prepared for this ride. Though, I cant yet figure out if this is just a transitional ride for another, then, yet.....I am thankful for adventures. For the moments of refining my ideas. My mission in life. My preparation. For understanding humans. For living with humans. For being a human.

Of coz, there's no right & wrong. It depends what's best way to feed your existence.

I am very curious.....from USA

Hi there,
I am very curious. Someone from USA has been reading my blog, and I want to know who U r and what U think of my entries and which one U like the best.
Pls send emails to dawn620@gmail.com
Million thanks. Thanks so much for dropping by.
Dawn

Posting Comments here

Someone told me they couldnt leave comments here. Ummm, I like comments alot, if I dont like them, I will delete, but so far, I hv never deleted one yet.

All U need to do is to click on the "comments" at the end of entry, or go to the entry directly - then U will see a comment box below.

Hope it's smooth, if any problem, just..........ummm..........leave me a msg at the comment. :P

Everything

Someone told me, I have everything. I said, like what?

He said friends.

Ummmm. I think he's freaking damn right. I have frenz.

Like, my best fren from Naoto visiting from Japan, we have been frenz for......more than......8 years? 9 years? And we never ran out of topics. The most amazing thing is.....we are always on different bridges of life, but we always manage to say Hi to each other from the other sides, then yelled - Hey man, dont go that direction or cross that sea, it's NOT good!!! 

Then, other great frenz like Tea, Bruce, J, roomate E, and etc etc, I cant really name them all here, but they should know they are in the list.

I think, I really need a monthly thanksgiving moment to stop & thank. I hope you will do the same, becoz, in life, we should strive to stay happy, live better, luv more.....it's a torture to do that for some (incld me) but....if we could enhance the good karma, we would reap best things in life.

OK, I am trying to be +ve at a melancholic moment, so pls cheer with me!! ^^

Did I get a wrong name? LOOK!

Or, I got the best name?

Darkest hour before dawn, my fren told me.
Then now, even on a book, sex at dawn?? hehe

how come, my name associates so much with....dark, sex, etc.
What not, they also hv a book maybe, rich with dawn, prosper in dawn, or procreate
without dawn.........

hehe

Long Long time Ago

I met someone, who was the most unusual man on earth

he told me he was not from earth

so I got intrigued and asked

where he was from

he smiled and hinted with a secret suggestion....

I could never understand till today what he meant, he just drew a sign in the air

he told me, whenever he wud go, he would buy me a present (if he was on earth)

or he would get me a "present" if he was not on earth, I mean when he was travelling to another....places (?!?!)

I never understood and of coz never believed in him

however, as the weeks, months, years went by

every once in a while, I would get a little box

boxes with stuff

I mean, some were just unsually weird, I couldnt make out of it what they were

and at home, I got a secret treasure box to keep all the stuff from the boxes

I never showed to anyone, as I am not sure if there would be radiation

I know I would be immune as he drew a sign on me

he said it was for protection

for any evil deeds

for any evil thoughts

for any evil energy

we enjoyed each other alot

we strolled along some darkest corners in HK

we visited some of the most dangerous terrains in Melb & China

he did go to visit me once in Melbourne and once in China, never in S'pore though

as he said S'pore wasnt for his physical acceptance

I still couldnt get what he meant

guess he somehow always needed to drink hot coffee, hot tea

he said coz he always had low temperature

ummm, I never understood what he meant, as usual

Yet, he adored & cared for me

one day he told me, he got to go back to his "place"

I asked where

he smiled & drew a sign in the air

then one more sign on me

then another sign above my head

I asked him why the heck he drew on me again

he said it was invisible ink

he said coz I always wanted to go to Orion

"it's not a place to be, my sweet luv. it's hostile & they are barbarian. More barbarians than u could imagine, esp U should never go alone. NEVER. promise me. So the sign is for preventing U to go near Orion. So promise me now, you would stay here!"

"OK, I promise." 

(ie why my name is Orion Belt, as I couldnt go near Orion.)

So, sometime ago, I received another box

and it was a bracelet

I luved it very much

inside a note, he never sent note

he said i was a special gal and never to forget that

i cried, becoz i knew it was for a goodbye

i am not sure till today if he meant forever or just for a while

but regardless i know he got places to go

i sometimes wonder if he would just astral transport himself

or he wud ride on some form of spaceships

but i say a prayer for him everyday until today

that i hope he wouldnt feel so cold anymore

coz maybe other "places" dont serve hot tea or coffee

Maybe he reads it here one day

he would knock on my door and grin with his most beautiful eyes

yes his eyes, are big & beautiful, unusually piercing

at least he pierced my soul many times

ummm, ok, just some sharing

as it's a secret I kept for long time

today, as such, a day I feel I want to remember him

to let him know

i still hope his invisible ink works on me

i need such protection from now on, even more

:)

A promise on a date by Faye Wong

Attempting to translate into english one, not done good job, as the lyric is just too beautifully put. I dont read alotta poems but sometimes lyrics to me is some form of poem.....:)

Another version by Jackie Cheung

還記得當天旅館的門牌 (Still remember that day, the hotel number & signboard)

還留住笑著離開的神態 (we were still smiling while leaving. the smile burnt in memory)
當天整個城市　那樣輕快　(that day, the whole city was so light)

沿路一起走半哩長街 (and we walked along the roadside for half a mile)
還記得街燈照出一臉黃　(still remember the street lamp shining on our faces making us 

look yellowish)

還燃亮那份微溫的便當 (also lighted up the warmth of the food eatery store on the side)
剪影的你輪廓　太好看　(Looking at your perfect silhouette )

凝住眼淚才敢細看 (I had to control my tears to look again in details)

* 忘掉天地　(Forgetting the heaven & earth)

彷彿也想不起自己　(even, seems I forget about myself too)

仍未忘相約看漫天黃葉遠飛 (but I dont forget our promise, our date to gaze at the yellow

 leaves flying, roaming, dancing in the sky)

就算會與你分離　淒絕的戲　(even though I will have to separate from you, such a sad movie

....)

要決心忘記　我便記不起 (if I have to, I can forget, I wont remember)
明日天地　只恐怕認不出自己　(Tomorrow, the heaven & earth - I am just afraid I cant 

recognize myself)

仍未忘跟你約定假如沒有死 (But I dont forget our promise if we are still alive)
就算你壯闊胸膛　不敵天氣 (despite, you may not be able to fight the enemies of weather,

 of time)

兩鬢斑白　都可認得你* (till your hair turns grey, I still recognize you)

還記得當天結他的和弦　(still remember that day the smooth rhythm of guitar playing)
還明白每段旋律的伏線 (and there N then, I understood, every musical score has its 
designed set & climax)當天街角流過你聲線　(that day you left your voice resonanting at the street corner)

沿路旅程如歌褪變 (along the journey, just like a song fading away......)

Faye Wong revisited

Every once in a while, when I am slightly moody, I will revisit Faye Wong's old songs. Since she has all the torturing lyrics in almost every song........I really think I need to go to Karaoke, I mean I talked about for months, but didnt really get to really do a good song rundown...(singing). I need to go solo this time, I believe....haha..........

 (Chinese) chess

Saying how she has been controlled by the person, and using chess as an analogy of how. She isnt even the top "general" but just a little "soldier"

No regrets (just let me continue on my crazy)

I specially luv this song since long time ago- I could just play with the guitar(not gd at that, as know few chords), but....I think the match was very good. hehe.......I was more thinking about how I lived my life, back then, not so much - maybe it's a luv song....but to me, it;s more a self song.

Depicting how determined she is to continue on the journey , she's asking everyone to allow her to do whatever she is doing. Even there cud be tiredness, regret or whatever, but it';s no other pple biz, but hers one & only's.

I am Willing

Describing the most lonely, breathless & dark nights missing the love - asking just wanting to stay put for more one more second, and willing to be a outcast or even forget names......

Life

I find this to be a positive song, like singing to your kids, giving wishes to them - every tear, every dream U have will not go in waste, though life isnt rainbow, but all wishes go to them that they will continue to smile

Guarding the wheatfield

I LUV THIS SONG, as no one would fight with me to sing this, as I blasted the music to max, and everyone wud be deaf by then....yes my own version of singing. hehe.......I actually hvnt really heard her sing the whole song, this wud be the first time.....hehehehe.....arrogant hysterical bitch (me)!

Your are happy so I am happy

I luv this song - very goofy. Luv this kinda beat songs....very lazy, relax, like I could be napping on a old, vintage sofa on a Tue afternoon in Melbourne at the Fitzroy district.........

ENJOY!!! :)

No Longer

I am, no longer, heard
I am, no longer, overheard
I am, no longer, recognized
I am, no longer, known
I am, no longer, brought
I am, no longer, taken
I am, no longer, seen
I am, no longer...no longer.....

Smitten, kitten, very kitchen
ar, yes
abit
melancholic
but, I am gonna be alrite, yes, in due time

For your Love

Not sure if U watch Ally Mcbeal, one scene with a gal playing piano singing this song, I just fell in luv. I like her version 1000 times more but I couldnt find on Youtube, and Ed Townsend seems to be the original. The lyrics is cliche and boring but I like it.

And then read Paulo's quote on luv......I think it could continue on, but....still it rings!

Paulo Coelho

Love is an untamed force. When we try to control it, it destroys us. When we try to imprison it, it enslaves us. When we try to understand it, it leaves us feeling lost and confused

Ummmm, another oldies, enjoy! :)

For your love, oh, I would do anything
I would do anything, fo-o-or your love

For your kiss (ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh), oh, I would go anywhere (ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh)
I would go (ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh), anywhere, fo-o-r your kiss

More foolish I grow
With each heart beat
But we all get foolish
That's why I repeat

For your love (ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh), oh, I would do anything (ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh)
I would do anything, fo-o-or your kiss

I would do anything, fo-o-or your love (anything, anything, anything)
Fo-o-or your love
(ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh, ooh)

Learning from pumpkin biscuits

As I have been trying to make pumpkin biscuits for my dogs as snack - actually couple of times. I can say, I failed 9 out of 10 times to make to the right ones I want. And till today, I still cant make like how my sister's made, as she didnt give me any particular measuring guideline, all I know is pumpkin, flour & oatmeal and the texture I am supposed to achieve - to make it into a dough....!!! umm??!! ok. Well, I dunno how a dough should behave. Honestly. So, I made, my dogs luv....ie fine with me. They seem happy just waiting for me to give them treats, so should I excel in making them?

The answer is......when U make many times, one day U will realize it will become the right dough. Today, within 15 mins, I just simply put in stuff into a bowl, and bake.....(I didnt even know what temperature to use). Maybe I am in good mood today, everything goes perfect. Even the texture of the biscuits is what I want to achieve.

Then made me think......in life, there are many unknowns. People tell you, yes the ingredient is this & that. For e.g. Love. No one has taught us how to, despite we could read in the bible or books about luv. Or we read from somewhere the greatest luv story at all times, and we still dont understand what luv is. 

Luv, shud make one butterfly, pain, sore, happy, tingling, fulfilled, ecstatic, euphoric, excited, expectful, wanting to be better, possessive, acceptance, grace, jealous, no jealous, embracing, sleepless, sleepful, sexual, sensual, sentimental.............the list goes on. And yet, we still dont really know what it is. Then it dawned on me from the pumpkin biscuits.......maybe, just maybe...after some trial & errors in life, we will suddenly click. It doesnt matter if we match each other's definition or beliefs (just like my sis biscuits, to me look so much better than mine, but mine is wonderful too, as I eat them too) or if the world agrees your form of luv or emotion - when it clicks, then it's BAKED. It's DONE. It is becomes It is.

I guess, before, I never really care someone (I meant my ex) would get the best of everything. I care more if I will get the best out of everything. When the time stands still (baking), one day you find there's no so called the best according to the standard, it has no standard - it totally is defined by how you look at the pumpkin biscuits - maybe the shape isnt the best, but to me, it tastes heavenly. Guess, ie what it is - when I could feel heavenly, then it is what it is. It has become Luv.

:) Just a thought.

Sudden Grip of Breathlessness

Time.

Time scares me in sometimes to a point of attacking my lung breathing system.

As I was going through some of my entries, I realized some were written in end July....and I was thinking, what!? I thought I did it last week. Gosh, I feel I have wasted my almost 3 quarters of my year on just....doing nothing but.......doing stuff & pondering stuff. GOSH. GOSHHHHHH! 

OK, I have 4 more months to redeem something - I want some form of measurable achievement. Let me see.

But thou, I made alotta learning about myself, my search, so I really cant say my 2011 is a big waster. Of coz, I still want to wish it could have been better. :P But okok, I am content with so far whatever has happened to me, despite some deep lows. Yet, I feel I am stronger in my mind & heart muscles. I like my life analyst telling me.....I am just going through the darkest hour before DAWN. And ie my way of tidying up my house, first make a mess then....look from above, decide how to categorize, then fix it. Yes I prefer messing up things before making it right, coz I am just abit nuts in this scenario, and this style suits me better. I hope, my dawn is coming soon....and I know SHE will. :)

Have a good weekend, everyone!

The Pain in True Love

My best friend sent me this song.....at first glance I didnt really want to get the meaning. Too melancholic. Yet, somewhat, it's so undyingly true. 

Minako Yoshida - Liberty

※Can you hear the voice of life
Ev'ry moment on your side
Do you hear the voice of life
Listen to the sound of liberty※

Someday you'll see in your life
The pain inside true love
It's like the rain on the day
You were waiting to see your best friend
But don't lose your heart
Keep the lovejust the way it is
Don't be afraid someday you can free
Your heart and love

(※くり返し)

Someday you'll feel in your hands
The power of liberty
It's like a stream at your feet
You never see
Till you're feeling down
Sodon't lose your faith
Take the lovejust the way you like it
Anddon't hesitate

Someday we'll free our soul with love

(※くり返し×2)

U r the most Amazing

Simply, because

I am the most amazing.

So, if U r reading here, yes U r the most amazing

because U know me

I am not a brat, not arrogant

simply it's true

a new thought for today, yes?!

If U want to meet the best

U just have to be the best first

I met the most amazing person

and I think....I finally get it. :)

Life is a flow of river

currents up

currents down

currents rage

currents calm

Just simply, appreciate your day in the  river of amazement.

Huh, who and who??

My ex, Mr A - just told me he's coming back for a wedding in Sept. ummm....it's Mr I & Mr J. Then he went on telling me - well you know both of them. HUH!?!? WHO & WHO??!!!!

Honestly, I couldnt, except Mr J vaguely coz he requested me to help his ex-gf - kinda like a sex education thing. HAHAHHAHAHA............I guessed it's this Mr J as I couldnt recall any other J & J.

Honestly, I always have this. Hey So & So say Hi, or So & So say they know U......ummmm....WHO & WHO?? I am not being arrogant, I just want to state a point - most of the time, despite I do look intelligent, I am very very absent minded & very spaced-out all the time. I usually dont remember the names definitely or boring conversation about jobs or where u r going this vacation.......

So....if I dont remember you, pls dont kill me. Thanks.

Her song will be in my movie

I meant if ever I would have a movie....hehe...

But sadly, she died at such young age....sigh......drugs, money, sex, love.....biggest destructive forces.

1. This must be the song in my movie......if I have one, some day. hehe....or anyhow the background music of my musical book.

2. To know him is to love him

3. What an obscure hairstyle.....BUT I LUV IT!!!

Tears dry on their own

Why men are rapist, not women?

Simple, their persistence to conquer a prey is too high.

Women, when we see prey, we run. hehe.

Men, they see prey, they chase.

Then the prey tells the men, I am sorry, my flesh isnt for you. It's supposed to be offered as your God's sacrifice. IT's SCARED,

Men then say, Plzzzzzz.

The prey says, NO!

The word "NO" is like the most powerful aphrodisiac, 1000 times better than viagra.

Their hormones grow so big that they can swallow the world.

I think ie why some men could become a rapist, simply in simply put as above points.

I kept saying NO NO NO to Mr Linkedin. He doesnt seem he's backing down. I will now attempt ignoring strategy. Yet I hate reading begging emails....shit, what's with man? How hard to get a shag?? Stay away from me!!!

I luv my Bagels

I dont know if I luv bagels or actually cream cheese. The combination is sometimes heavenly. I dont usually like the Big Apple signature stuff...as U know how I feel about Americano, but bagels....dunno, just luv it.

Then while I was waiting for my Bagel, a gal was asking the cafe lady the address & direction, but since she was speaking in cantonese, I thought I was being nice & told her how to tell her fren to arrive at the cafe as that street indeed is abit obscure, sometimes even taxi driver doesnt know exactly the direction. Anyhow, she was ignoring me. WHAT A FUCKING BITCH!!!!

I sometimes find we chinese ARE FUCKING BITCHES & ASSHOLES. Shitass, just fucking say a THANK YOU, even you didnt ask for help. I am ONE too, I meant I am chinese too, so I fuck myself as well. What a motherfucking, dadasslicker stuck up bitch.

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

OK, well, whenever I see tourists on the street with a map looking around, be in mandarin or english people, I will stop without them asking me - I would ask where you want to go and try to help them as much. One thing why I do this, coz it's very cosmic thing. I have always been asked anyways - even I would be sitting at the end of a bus, the person would walk pass 20 people and just come & ask me. Hence, I thought, maybe I might as well initiate it by asking them than being asked. And I think HK is kinda a hostile place, people are rude if you dont buy stuff from them.....and if I could, a mere being, help to make them feel this city isnt all bad, it would be nice for all sides of karmatic effects, rite? Anyhow, of coz I am collecting good karma as well. But I gotta say when I go travelling, I always meet nice people.......

Anyways, I think that fucking bitch's friend could never get to where she is now. hehehehehehe

ASSHOLE!

Contracts & Today

I have three contracts I have to print & sign & send. Thinking of it drives me nuts. I hate contracts.

Why cant be just be neanderthal - we just High Five then we do what we have to do?!
The problem is, the driving force of signing is low coz it doesnt mean I get money.....shits. haha. I want MONEY, upfront, paid & so I can escape to a small island sipping Mojito.
I have delayed it one day after next, so I will finish it today.
Esp one, I hv to modify it................ARGH, I hate this.

To be frank, I really wanted to be a neanderthal. I always wonder how they lived. Gnawing on raw bloody meat? Smelling the prey from miles away? Not sure if they could read stars or not? Maybe, I assume they got no language but communicated via...telepathy or just plan odor variation. Also I wonder how they had sex, would it be just like animal - doggie style? Did they have missionary style or....karma sudra ways?? hehe....And also, how did they know which entry to ensure offspring propagating the world? Did they feel love for one mate? Or they enjoyed swing parties once in a while? Then, did they have affairs?

Arrr....yes, I assume they should live in a simpler life, they should not have all my questions above. hehe, hence meaning we r being too complicated?

Today, I have a thought. We human actually desire after simplicity but we are at the same time co-existing with stupidity & lack of awareness - hence we created many processes, mechanisms, machines, stuff (to simplify them...) wishfully thinking they can de-complicate our lives. Yet, we become entangled with them......now, year after year, century after century - ie how we are living now. So, can I walk to New Territory instead of MTR, Train & Cab maybe? Not anymore.....I would say R U NUTS?? asking me to walk for hours to NT for freaking what? When we have transportation!?!? It's true.....yet, sometimes simple walking makes me breathe better, seeing the world in different perspectives.

That reminds me - I used to love travelling in a coach. Still do actually. When I was in Melb, I never took any domestic flight, I'd rather take coach. Becoz I could gaze at the Southern Cross surrounded by "milky way" - I dunno to me it's Milky Way....hahaha....just a strange of luvly stars surrounding the cross. It's just amazing. I would forsake sleep during coach (hence immerse silence) and fixated on the cross. It's one of the prettiest Cross one would ever see in their lives.

Ie how I travelled to Ayers Rock (Uluru) twice (24 hrs from Melbourne)- my favorite symbol - the red gigantic rock sitting in the middle of desert! It's really weird, U know. So I always fantasize that it's some kind of UFO. hehe. Maybe ie why Aborigines regard this ROCK as something sacred. The best thing is I luv it changing color during the dawn & dusk - of coz what color it changes depends very much on the humdity of the day -> hence brings me to the next thought.

I luv waterfalls. Becoz I like its thrilling splashing power and looking at it for hours would be my favourite moment. Whenever I went to any national parks, I always made my frens to go to waterfalls with me. I saw one in Laos....yum.....super super beautiful. And then sometimes U could spot rainbows at the end of waterfalls, ie to me one of the most beautiful scenes. Yes, I miss rainbows. HK, I no longer could spot one. When I was a child, I would sometimes see one and I would feel happy, esp - you kinda can apply your science lesson to good use. I remember I specially went to library to borrow a book on Rainbow, then I set up an english group named after Rainbow - explaining to my team coz everytime we learnt something, it's like collecting droplets before you could indeed reflect the "color" you gotta collect the droplets. hehe, I was nuts even when I was a child, I think.


Ai, somehow, whenever I feel abit low, my mind would drift back to the lanes of Melbourne, I would be walking there, but no one would be around me. I luv the chilly air there.....abit gloomy weather I luv. I like so much the woman psychotic weather changes in Melbourne....I always say Melbourne is a woman, coz she is allowed to change moods anytime she likes. And I luv, embrace every part of it......coz Melbourne is very much like me. But I know it changes alot......hence I do have some hesitation if I would go back there again some day. Anyhows.

Have a good week ahead, everyone! I am just bullshitting. ^^

Reckless Days

So, I am freaking needing to write. As I need to stay focuzed and finish my stuff.....so I just blahblah then.

I find some people  really crazy, I meant guyz.

They dont keep in touch with you for....huh? god knows when....so when they come to HK, they buzz u. Ummm.CRAZY!!! We are not that close. Just dislike this kinda "just wanting a shag" thing, hehe.

OK, one of my ex-es. We didnt talk much and he started off by saying "hey baby, give me your phone number and lets meet" - you know what, I didnt reply him as, clearly if he;s slightly smarter, he would find my mobile no on Facebook. Stupid! OK, maybe you would say it's not coz he wanna shag you, just simply for catching up. For me, I prefer using email as a catch up vehicle, so.....meeting up?! In August? It's too hot....I dont want to be sweaty. Though, getting a free splendid dinner from him maybe a good revenge. OK, I hv 2 more days.....haha.

Then, another guy I met via Linkedin. God knows how he was interested to add me, but he did. We chatted and had good conversation but it's borderline flirty. I mean, I like it, I like the emailing flirting. But he's scheduling to come to HK, from June, to Aug, to now Oct.....and in btw we didnt keep in touch for like a couple of months. Going on a date with someone who would lose touch with me?! No Freaking way. I need consistency. 

Id rather have no sex, no shag or whatsowhatever. U know what I mean.

Stupid People.

Deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Ignore!

Songs that....U find resonance.

And I have to say somehow Carpenters were pretty good at them! :)

1. Very cute breakup songs.....hehe.

I'll never fall in love again

2. Ummm, sometimes you think by the time you have been sad few times, next time would be easier....actually, to me it's not really true.

It's going to take some time.

3. ummmm, to all my lonely friends.

Only Yesterday

"dawn breaking the night" - hehehehe...........

4. Hush Hush Baby, Hush...I like whispering.....sound with almost no sound

5. 2 versions, both singers are dead though. It's such a sweet song. To my buddies, may you find the love....and buddies who already have found, pls treasure them. Tuck them close tonight, and tell them "I have fallen in love with You again"

Dreamin', I must be dreamin'
Or am I really lying here with you?
Baby, you take me in your arms
And though I'm wide awake,
I know my dream is comin' true

And oh I just fall in love again
Just one touch and then it happens every time
There I go by, just fall in love again and when I do
I can't help myself, I fall in love with you

Magic, it must be magic
The way I hold you when the night just seems to fly
Easy for you to take me to a star
Heaven is that moment when I look into your eyes.

And oh I just fall in love again
Just one touch and then it happens every time
There I go by, just fall in love again and when I do
I can't help myself, I fall in love with you

Can't help myself, I fall in love with you

Today

When I didnt restrict my blog to readers, it means I do hope maybe somehow somewhere people would read. :P I am a vain person, afterall.And I am glad that someone is taking the time to read during his travel maybe. Many thanks. And to my buddies who do sometimes check in, thanks alot too. Some msg r disturbing & bloody, I know, but U know me, I am bloody.

Today, woke up with a crippling failing hearty feeling. No big deal. I will handle it. The best way to handle this is just to ignore, forget and then find something to focuz on. Life is too long for nonsense. Or too short for too much sorrow.

I hope everyone who reads here will have a great Monday, though usually it's a bluey Monday. I know. But well. Then, keep being blue for a day, and then live the next 6 days. :)

XOXO

First Love

I posed here before, I am so boring, I KNOW I KNOW.

I cant help it. I dun even know how to identify what first love is, as I actually dont remember a thing, even....:P...the one happened few months back. I could only say I got a topnothced clearing system & regeneration mechanism.

But that's different for my imaginary lover since maybe 12 yo. He appeared in my dream. Real Dream.

hehe. "shy"

I still remember him very well, as it has been my benchmark as I could only remember his gazes. (OK the dream was very scientific, not the wishy washy dream though.....^^)

Someone brought back the memory. It's quite....enchanting.

So, I am listening to this song. The lyrics is bittersweet, but isnt how love is at times? :)

Ummmm, now I have the itch again to sing K, I hv been talking about going to K, but never got around to do it. Ai....I cant practise my Karaoke Queen Crown.....:(

Anyhows....

Enjoy!

First Love by Danny Chan

Once upon a dream
When this old world isn't what it seems
My love and I lived inside a smile
The time was nigh
We broke down and we cried
Refriending dragonflies
Lullabyes and funny little rides
We'd spend the night time
Counting countless stars
Choking on our stolen first cigar.
There is no reason , no rhyme
No need of keeping track of time
A life just passing and life just beginning
First love ensnared my mind
Wonderland was waiting
Butterflies went fluttering by
We wore our raincoats standing in the sun
One by one
Good time had just begun
Quite lost in a trance
My love and I lost in loving dance
Turning around and turning again
Never knowing it had to end
There is no future no past
Your first love won't be your last
First love don't last oh no it won't last
But it's worthwhile remembering when

Mind is my biggest enemy

I got a msg from Mr Writer, he asked me about the question I asked some 20+ years ago after watching this movie - Rickshaw Boy by Lao She - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rickshaw_Boy ; of coz I read the book too maybe 10+ odd years ago.

As I am reading the "description" from wiki -

Further, the book explores personality characteristics and their relationship to economic existence, especially tolerance for risk, tolerance for hard work, and assertiveness, and personal standards of human dignity. "He had a strong body, a patient disposition, ambition, yet he allowed people to treat him like a pig or a dog and he couldn't keep a job." ^[1]:48

Isolation and individualism are important themes in the book. "His life might well be ruined by his own hands but he wasn't about to sacrifice anything for anybody. He who works for himself knows how to destroy himself. These are the two starting points of Individualism."

Hehe, I cant believe as I revisited this.....it somehow unknowingly actually stems such a heavy copy in my head for so long..........The words would be "allow" & "destroy".

Anyways....interesting.

I think, maybe Mr Writer is troubled by my conflicts, coz they are abit....ummm....like psychological?! I think it's interesting how he described me as a scarlet maple leaf passing through the ebbs, mountain streams, tumbled down to the swirl of waterfalls. Once, when I was younger, different pple using..."rocket" or "pendulum" to label me too. Ummmm, I dunno how to answer his questions, as yet. But rest assured, I will give you a full report. :) Two citations given, which I find...ummm......hehe, disturbing to my mind, here U go:

'Clarity of mind means clarity of passion too; this is why a great and clear mind loves ardently and sees distinctly what it loves'  Blaise Pascal (1623 - 1662) Mathematician and Philosopher

'The mind acts like an enemy for those who don't control it'  Bhagarad Gita (5th Century BC) Ancient Hindu Text

Frankly - I am 50% agreeing about the quote. I think I havnt for surely achieving the clarity of mind. And I am actually quite happy my mind being my enemy. Rgd the question - what's the purpose of life? hehe, I dunno. I stop asking this long time ago, but more.....I want to know what my dream really is and to be more greedy, what my dreams really ARE. I think.....the purpose is simple, is to live. How we live, depends on what our dreams actually are.

Thank you Mr Writer. :)
I never utter it out my thoughts on such, but now, I feel more driven, geared.....or more clarified?! :)

My strip dream

Woke up today, unusually early for a Sunday.

I remembered traces of my dream.

When I opened my eyes, I thought of 2 messages.

OK, how the dream went. Basically, I think I was trying to find projects for my work. So I went around, but also not in a desperate mood, more like networking kind. So I stumbled on the previous "people" - and we chatted alittle bit, and realized that the owner had taken on another team - which I thought to myself, hoho, good luck, she has no direction. But when I saw their info, it was actually pretty OK, so inside of me.....I was happy for them finally they were doing something right. Then duh duh duh....cant recall, there was some eating involved with some resturants etc....anyhows. 

- I think this part of the dream is saying, I will keep searching and wont give up. I dunno. hehe.

Next was, it showed my fearless side or just plain exhibitionist style. :P

I think I was asked to enter some project or contest, I got no clue what was prior to this. But someone asked me to take off my clothes, topless. And on the right side was some casual people - males, behind me on the left was another bunch - females. These 2 groups were not in the "committee", more like passerby. Honestly, if they didnt talk, I wouldnt notice they existed (very much my personality - many times I didnt know some people exist). 

And so I took off my top and then my bra (hehe), like nobody business. Then behind me, the female gang started talking - Oh, how could she do that? The guyz are here. I then just ignored them basically, and thought to myself - if they see they see. It's no big deal being topless. hehehehe.........(HAHAHAHHA)

- This also reflects my personality, how much indeed I dont really care what people think. Honestly speaking, this is a lie, everyone does care what other pple think or say about them, but to me, I already work through 80% of it....so now I could boldly say, I dont really care what other people talk about me.

Interesting dream for me. ummm. :)

Pursue + Fearless. Lethal Combination!

I met my terminator

When I was studying in Meb, I knew I was a terminator.

haha. Not in the bionic sense, of coz not.

but I trained myself to have a computer screen in front of me.

Why? yes thanks to my roomate.

She asked me (before I even saw the movie) what I saw in my mind Sarah Conner would be driving in the desert, I said RED. I didnt see the movie, and unto this date I got no freaking clue why she asked.

Since then I adpoted to terminator screen test/examination

I felt traumatised. I never told anyone.

But now I told someone so maybe I could say it now/

I felt traumatized.

I couldnt breathe constantly. I felt suffocated constantly.

I felt like vomitting every second.

OK. so I cut it off. Becoz it's too horrible to know, to understand

If U think I am good at knowing now, U should have met me almost 15 yrs ago.

I was....horrible....I just knew.

So I now

I met my terminator

he said to me "he will be back"

hahahhaa...so cliche, yes??

Yes very. But this is how it is.

Maybe it's tomorrow

Maybe it's next week.

Maybe it's next year.

Or maybe it's next life.

But, it's wonderful for a person, actually, to meet his/her own terminator

as at least from the movie, it's saga

it means the terminator will indeed, surely come back

In thoughts

or in forms

it doesnt matter anymore

as I met mine in the most unusal way

in the most enchanting way

in the most deadly way

Thanks Terminator. hehe

Isnt breathing supposed to be easy?!

Then, why do I feel suffocated?

Isnt time supposed to heal?

Then, why do I feel it wounds me even more?

Isnt luv supposed to be magical?

Then, why do I need logical?

Isnt book supposed to teach?

Then, why does it make me want to torn it into pieces?

Isnt life supposed to be long?

Then, why does it make me feel it should be short?

Isnt sun supposed to warm us?

Then, why do I hate the burn so much?

Isnt I supposed to be one?

Then, why do I need to be I+U me?

Isnt child supposed to be loved & protected?

Then, why do they sometimes tear our dreams?

Just bullshit, after hearing some stories from a dear friend. I feel sad for both of them. Life, it's so heavy, yet so light. I hope they will be OK. I hope they will be fine. And I hope, despite time doesnt heal the wounds, but time will help them endure the pain and ultimately numb it. :(

Take care!!

Very Melancholic

My brain is standing still, like - from soya milk turning into beancurd.

Yes, my brain is like a curd now. Curdy brain. New word for the world!

Very curdy.

Very Very Curdy.

I think....in the movie Inception, if we can indeed travel in dreams like them, induced dreams. I guess Nolan forgets one point that shud be depicted in the movie, or maybe he did. It's after this dream states, one would go into depression. For surely. No doubt. Ie how I am experiencing. I had great dream moments, once somehow the reality took me out from the "moments of dream-like", I start to begin my melancholic moments. Is this how why some need to go to mental hospital, I mean if the dreams are too vivid enough that they could not tell the difference btw, the actually reality vs the vitually dream? 

I usually quite enjoy my melancholic moments, but this time it super irritates me, as it delays , disrupts me to enter into the dreamy moments. Ummmm......

OK, have a good weekend, Seems HK is still super under super burning sun hell. Drink more water, put on sunscreen, take care of your heart & brain.

Sometimes, U just feel amazed....

Yes, maybe I am good. I mean I am good at explaining me. Or communicating me.

Or, people are good.

I have met this guy. Mr Zadgar or Zoodgar, dont even know the name, man. He knows I am reckless and bored. Bored by....etc etc. He could explain it. I think he's a psychic. Or, just simply have an unusual IQ of 220. I dont get this often, as U know, I like to talk. I fight to talk. I mean, well, I am a fantastic listener too. I attain to details of one conversation. But, it's amazing that someone could "hear" me. Coz usually I just blahbla-ing. No meaning but full of substance. 

:)

Thanks.

Songs by Karen Mok

I like Karen Mok. Heard she was getting married. hehe, I feel so happy for her.
We had connection, esp my good fren was her schoolmate. Of coz I dont know her personally.
Just like her style. Enjoy!

-Lets Fall in Love


This is super cute song, which I sometimes sing at Karaoke. Bruce Wayne would know....hehe....
It depicts the boredom of a gal in dating. How bored she feels about guyz grumbling, e.g.
1. their ex - baddening their ex-es
2. Want to take care of me
3. But freak out by my tears
4. Also told me how bored their lives had been and wanting more exciting ones (duh?! huh?! WTF?!?!?! GTE A LIFEEEEE)

Plainly, they behave like plain bread & plain water. hehe.

Plain bread & water




The Way you make me feel
- About something beginning.....wow, so happy, U also fall in luv with me,
Even smile in the dreams.


- Another my karaoke song
"He doesnt love me"

YoYo-Ology

There's YoYo diet. Meaning U have fluctuating weight issues, coz U move from one hell-like slim diet to a creating obese diet. haha. Maybe it's wrong definition. Or yoyo weight problem, U become a waif to an elephant then become a waif. But soon you realize, you either die from anorexia or just plain heart attack due to fatty clogs in your blood.

Then, it's YoYo weather. HK is fine, we usually get clear hot, cold during its specific season. But when I was in Melb or I am sure U hv been at different places - in the morning, freezing, in the afternoon U just want to stick your head in the ice, then in the evening U just want to be surrounded by many hot coals. Then, even walking in 1 min distance - under the shade, you could feel a chilling ghost following your bones, out of the shade, U could see the scorching heat burning your soul.

Then of coz, yoyo emotion. Many use roller-coaster to express this. But to me, it's very yoyo. Never ending, up & down, if you are good, U can swirl it. if U are bad, you create a bad pendulum effect. And then you have to realize one daunting factor- U r but connected by a string, only, solely. That's how fragile emotion is....a string. I think, there's a rubber string in our head controlling it.....some have more stiff nature, some are more elastic.

OK, I am experiencing yoyo. Yes, there's a very unique outside factor. Not even reading books could control me. Esp, I lost my super thick I Ching research material. I am sulking. The more prolonged I drag on, I think the heavier, thicker book wont suffice to focuz me.

But.......

I dont possess a real yoyo anymore. I think, ultimately, I have always chosen to be in yoyo motion. 

I cant deny it. And I wont act adult to say - we all should be less yoyo or we should appear as more mature. ummm......I think, I will always be a yoyo kid who is trying to learn how to master the yoyo, but could never do a good swirl. But that's the fun, when the yoyo head might hit you and you try to learn to "dodge this".....hehe....that's the fun being a yoyo child.

Found my Twin

According to my twin, I am the hysteria. haha.....ok.
Anyways, I found my twin. Weird.
But twins are not meant to stick together, we just share abit more souldust together only.

Love this music vid - by Muse - Hysteria.




It's bugging me
Grating me
And twisting me around
Yeah, I'm endlessly
Caving in
And turning inside out

'Cause I want it now
I want it now
Give me your heart and your soul
And I'm breaking out
I'm breaking out
Last chance to lose control

It's holding me, morphing me
And forcing me to strive
To be endlessly cold within
And dreaming I'm alive

'Cause I want it now
I want it now
Give me your heart and your soul
I'm not breaking down
I'm breaking out
Last chance to lose control

And I want you now
I want you now
I feel my heart implode
And I'm breaking out
Escaping now
Feeling my faith erode

Sleeping Together

Do you like sleeping in the same bed with someone? I basically hate it....at least 99%. So I did study or I should say ponder on this for years. As I just liked to sleep with 2 of my ex-es, I meant.....slept the whole nite. Somehow, despite they are not exactly muscular types, it's so easy to tuck into theirs - arms, body shape, etc. It's kinda nice, I gotta say.

I think it's a pheromones thing  and a smell thing - in this aspect maybe I am like a puppy. haha......I am not exactly talking about body odor. I just remember I like the "smell" or "aura" of them while sharing the same bed with them. I need space, I am a person who needs space. If i cant fall in luv with the "smell", I couldnt sleep - then I would sleep on sofa, hence this is also a sign for me if I really like the guy or not.

Do I miss someone sharing bed with me? Honestly? Not really. But when I find that person, yes I do miss and sleeping suddenly becomes like a joy instead of a duty. :D

Questioning Mind

I LUV questions. Being asked or asking. 

But today I am learning not to ask certain questions.

It's very tough for me actually. Coz I am just like a conversation wizard....or witch.....

I luv understanding, knowing, exploring.....the unknown answers.

But then, many a time, we know the Q&A & the FAQ....so why bother?!?!

But still we would want to know.

I need a terrible heavy thick book to gear my mind these days soon.

ok. so much blah......I will stop, as I blah too much.

My mind is kinda empty now.

Feeling like Million Buck (Euro)

Guess, it's time to feel abit melancholic. Maybe that time of the month is coming. I dont know, while I was sitting in the toilet....yes, I do think alot while sitting in the toilet bowl - I thought....

It's very important to feel I worth million bucks (Euro) -

My high school fren asked me if I still missed Mr Maus. I said No, everything just so faded that I couldnt recall a thing. But as I realized I very much a person responded to Questions. I luv Questions. Some answers I feel I am in a haste to answer, I would really think about it when I have time. Even a food Q. Sometimes people ask me what's my fav dish is....really....I got no idea, so I have been thinking of this Q for....like over 20 years! I think what dawned on me while sitting on the bowl was that....for a split moment, he made me feel like Million Bucks.

And of coz, I have my great frenz like my best frenz who always make me feel I worth more than Million Bucks. 

My dogs, they make me feel I worth the world.

My new potential business partners make me feel important and I hope I could make Million Bucks for them.

And then, some.....they make me feel centless. And then we would get hiccups over such people......we humans are just bad at counting the blessing. I am learning. Learning very hard, very diligent to continuously remind myself that the centless feeling is stupid, naive and super worthless. For one, they just dont deserve your hiccups. 

What's with our brain that we would sometimes cling onto such worthless feeling? Why sometimes melancholy would offer such an amplifying magnitude when we could have a choice to overlook it? And why sometimes moodiness make us more arty, more charming.....that drive some of us searching for the feeling of existence? Why happiness doesnt give us grounded feeling....while depression offers the heaviness? (though we need the happiness to build the ground).

I somewhat feel saddened by something I saw. Just a little. As I said, gimme a day. I am a stronger gal now, wanting to search for better meanings of things, creating more glamour around me, spreading more radiance to the world, esp to my frenz who luv me....no complaints. Not any depressing thoughts either. Maybe just a moment....ie all. Hving such a moment....sometimes yack me outta my dreaminess too. So I welcome all kinda feeling.....understand it at my best and the move ahead. 

K, need to hug my dogs now. ^O^

Gimme 1 day I will be fine

Had a good evening. But when I got home, I saw some msgs....really disturbed me.

Anyways, just gimme a day....I will be fine.

Maybe tmr I need to browse the secondhand bookshop, so I will be calm again.

SMILE................:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

We are all LONELY entity.

OK.....I am doing some research & experiment. If anyone who has followed my life for 2 years, they know...I do that alot. Always doing some kinda mental research....etc etc. So, I joined something, and it gave me a chance to talk to quite a few guyz. Well, actually one is very special - I suspect he would be reading it, lets call him......Mr Karma. hehe.

Only after 2 days, I came across many....maybe a few....guess we r all just lonely in a big crammed city, so to speak. Not every guy is nut and sleazy or their ultimate goal is to get to a gal'z pant, thou, yes 99.9% they do have this fantasy. But indeed men are able to keep their "meatloaf" in their pants. 

I had an interesting email exchange with a man of his 50's about philosophy, writing, and authors, of coz....unbearable lightness of being too

Then Mr Karma, we shared a long phone call, which I never NEVER would do that as I dislike this kinda phone conversation....but we basically laughed our head off during maybe if not 3 wud be 2 hrs phone-ing.

Then another....a lonely soul....who lives around my area. I guess I could feel his loneliness, so I let him come to my place for a drink. He's super cute and decent. Honestly, I told him....if he wants I would hook him up with galz....

Within 2 days, despite very risky experiments, I did a couple of first time. And my conclusion is......it';s very nice. And esp very often, we forget how lonely people could be. They may not want anything, but maybe 15 min of your time....just to be there....even without a word. We all do stuff becoz, not just we want to do stuff, sometimes we want to do stuff so others will know what we are doing the stuff. That's why Facebook is so popular. And ie why we sometimes want to go Karaoke.....not coz we think we are fantastic singers, but we want to be heard.

====================================

AND.................just happened, one of the most craziest craziest thing happened. YES.............my god. So, I already drafted a plan, a plot..................it's gonna be excruciating funny and exciting. I cant wait to see my plot play out....YEA YEA YEAHHHHH. I cant reveal as it's too intimate, but if U want to know, feel free to send me a msg and I can...tell u. heheheheheheh

Erotic Story from a useless dude

OK, I received something as below, in chinese, but I will attempt to translate it into english. One thing, this guy, I could 99.9% be sure that he 1. doesnt get any woman, except hooker; 2. he didnt even write it himself, 3, his jerkoff time is less than 1 min, 4. he couldnt even do a woman more than 7 mins (or 11 mins - according to the time used to do a prostitute, average time is btw 7-11 mins. I bet his world-record time would be,......ummmm 30 sec, hehe.

Note - if find erotic stuff isnt your glass of milk, pls skip it....as it's too funny to me and I gotta put it here.

酒店房間裏,流水聲音跑進我的耳朵, 幻想花灑水從你的頭部流向你的頸上,一直跑到你的胸前,

Dripping water race to my ears, in the hotel room, me, fantacizing the shower splashing onto your head & neck, and gradually runs ti your chest

不斷冲激胸部頂點,真是誘人.

It's such a turn-on knowing that the water keeps smashing to the tips of your breasts

水怎會甘心在兩點上,他們馬上順著你的小腹,進占你清理好的陰部. 水不但想擁有最頂點,也希望到達最深入,溫暖,潤澤的寶地.

How could water ever stay on the 2 nipples??! The water smoothly runs to your tummy and then to your vagina. Water doesnt just want to possess the top everest (nipples) but it has to go deepened into the warmest wettest treasure.

當然他們能做到是不斷冲激你敏感部位,重而提升寶地濕潤指數. 正好迎接一會我在洗手間外為你準備的活動.
When the water keeps hitting your sensitive areas, it actually enhances your wetness quotient. Ie when I would come to the bathroom to get ready all the aftermath action with you.
---------------------those just v boring etc etc
我的中指小心找出你的洞穴口.慢慢地放進去.發覺非常容易進出, 相信是你還在回味當中. 手指溫柔進出,你已不用再回味,
When my middle finger goes into your "hole", slowly go in I realize it's so easy to go in,. And believe you are enjoying my gentle fingering.
-----------boring, next

我的肉棒需要出場,他撫摸你的洞穴口,從而濕潤了肉棒.看見你的眼神,多麼渴望我的進入,等,等,直到你跟我說'快進來
IT"S TIME FOR MY MEATLOAF.......yes, my meatloaf on stage. He caresses your hole "cave hole" and u seeing the mosited juiced-up meatloaf, you ask me to enter you asap.
我一路而上,達到深處.不斷抽插,由慢而快,再快而慢,由慢而快，再快而慢， 當我差不多的時候, 我再用手指公震動你的陰蒂. 讓我們一起達到高潮的快感.
OK, something about going in & out, caressing the clit and I cum (?>) so eays....hehehehehe/....slow & qui ck motion - I cum.
你已滿足嗎? 還是你會顯出你的技術,讓我重新站起來?
Are you satisfied? Or you will show off your technique to see him rise up again. 

My god..............I didnt really read it but only 1st sentence, already made me laugh my head off. And now, translating it, I laughed till tears fall like crazy. For one, by washing or showering, U dont get wetter, U get drier......hehehheeh. A woman can cum becoz U move your meatloaf up n down & then your fingering her?? Man....then men will just want to shag men, not women. And actually alotta women dont like the fingering as men think it;s by swirling around.....no....only do the G-nnie, not the swirl. Shit, most men dont get it, they think by doing the repetitive up N down women luv it. No......the up and down is for men. Women are not up n down, women r front n back.

I should really think of setting up a class.....hehehehehehe

Update July 2011

* I got no ideas what to say or write here, as I have been reading some books......they r just too fascinating. And I very much want to go to the top & bottom of them but I prefer not to say what they are becoz.....I am concurrently reading 2-3 different topics, yes including Bible at the same time. Hence.....I am abit mixup in the head, haha....but I like this, as I dont believe in "studying" one topic...I am in for my own hypothesis & theories. As my fren - Bruce calls it - Dawnism.

* OK, I had a super weird dream last night, rarely I could sleep before 1am, but I did. Sadly I was woken up at 2ish then I tried very hard to remember the dream - I knew I remembered every detail as it's actually quite an interesting plot, but..........when I got up this morning, I couldnt remember a single thing. So I am going to record my points next time with iphone recorder....shit, why didnt I??????????????

* Another quote - 

Paulo Coelho - Don't live every day as if it were your last. Live every day as if it were your first

Luv this Luv this. Lateral thinking combining with opposite insights. Turning the world upside down, right-left shifted - to see the world that we think we know, then ponder upon it - makes one more alive.

* OKOK, I reveal - one of the books I am reading is I-Ching. Man, it blows my mind, as I always thought it was so difficult to understand or grasp. Still is. But then dont mistake it's a tarot-card or future telling oracle only...no...it's the last thing it was intended. While I am reading the book, of coz with commentary - I no good with old chinese poetic language, then I was reading the bible - same thing shot to my eyes.

Many a time, during difficult time we strive, we fight, we work hard as we want to get out of the situation. But when everything becomes peaceful, we become less enthus, less striving to make it better.....so the chinese/  Tong Emperor's saying  goes - "easier to get the empire but harder to keep the empire" . So I heed to my heart and I hope it would repeatedly imprint in my heart & soul as one day if I could conquer, I want to keep it and make it better. I know me, I tend to let the goodies drift between fingers, as my tendency of laziness is indeed high. While, in the Bible God complained to King David for forgetting building a house for the Lord, while he himself dwelled in the cedar wooded place, then next was King David stole a woman from a general (and intentionally let him die in a battle) - of coz God reprimanded him. I like King David very much, as I was reading 1 Samuel, he was very diligent in winning the territories and was luving God with whatever ways he could offer, Yet.....when things were smooth, peaceful, all belonging to his......he became "arrogant" I would say despite he wud be the almost last one I wud use this word, yet.....being the KING of so many lands, one would be very hard not to become blinded by the power & self-praise. He of coz then asked for forgiveness, but still he gotta suffer the consequences.

I think it's a lesson for big or small things.....even for your luved ones, when you start off...u doing anything to achieve the goal, yet we dont have the stamina to maintain the goal. Maybe we should remind ourselves, do a lit more to attain the "goodness" of triumph, or "the conquest of love", as we dont maintain it, WE will SURELY lose it one day bits by bits.

Winning always comes in multitude, Losing always fades away without a trace without you knowing it.