I dont like woman boss

I once swore I wudnt work under a woman boss. See I ate my word and now I suffered. haha

Well, actually....I feel beaten up as normally after a while, I get what a boss wants. If I could please him or her, then I can have freedom to hv many other things. Ie what I call...building trust and understanding the people above or below you. To me, it's critically important. But this one - I am abit at loss. I feel so stupid, how come after 3 mths I still dont get her. She doesnt seem like a complicated woman. Actually.....I realize, I could get complexity and complication rather than simplicity. Maybe....she's just a simple mind woman. Aiiii....I feel defeated, as I am always very proud of this part.

OK, I am determined, I must explore a way to "please" her enough so I could be free.

Quotation 3

Continue on from.....

http://birdwnolegs.blogspot.com/2011/09/quotation-2.html

1. This, I posted on FB.
Nothing is crazier than knowingly falling in love.

2. Humans need pattern of habits more than pattern of love.
So may I say, we are basically primitively caveman? And May I say, I am actually  a wild cat.

3. I study pattern so I dont actually live in pattern.

4. More I ponder, more I dont understand time.
Time numbs or heals a person depending how you look at it. But time also makes us think we have time......so I would say time is very dangerous adversary of human kinds.

5. if you study astrology, you would know we have water, earth, wind and fire sign.
Fire is the most non-dangerous sign, even it seems most invasive.
Water is the most dangerous sign as it can kill everything - earth, wind and fire.
And water is the only element that can change state - from ice to aqueous, from liquid to gaseous. Hence, if you are with a water sign, you could see that they could boil you or they could froze you. Yes, I am of water sign.....and so I do all sort of constructive and destructive things depending on my water state.

today isnt a good day so I vent

haha, I am crying at office....long time never did, and never really cried much, or maybe I cried too much. I have some epiphany. Of coz I am crying not coz someone scolded me or something. I think on some level, I feel really hurt by something....maybe it's just a trigger, but then snowballed from something knotted from the past, it's like uncontrollable.

Yesterday, I had this idea.....I am indeed hving some form of superwoman spirit. I want to save the world......or be nice.....or change people....I once did fantasise its my role on earth. However, even though my own metamorphosis has been pretty drastic, I always feel I am not perfected enough....I dont hv the skill to do it. So I decided .... maybe by influencing others in little ways, I could make the world better. Just by changing pple mindset....in little ways, maybe I could change the world's thinking system. So I am seriously quite dedicted to do it. Maybe abit on blog, abit on FB, abit on close encounters......etc etc.

Then, sometimes I feel pple who are close to me, at the end somewhat.....I know they have changed. Chnaged to better, maybe stronger......my ex-es....all same...I let them go from my palms once I know they r in their own frame, the rite direction. Not that I will lead them, but more...sometimes a step better makes life slightly easier. Actually one at times had anxiety attack.....I was there. Then another one, becoming more intune with himself, etc etc. Though, I am a nutcase.....I sometimes want someone to be there to see the best in me and to indeed uncover it......Yet....all of them appreciate me with negative comments....all wud say I am arrogant, insensitive, impatient, crazy, imbalance.........at the end

I think I have always carried such wounds w me....I mean I am not a saint, yes I am indeed all of the comments they comment about me.....hhahahaa....but I wudnt expect that as parting gifts.

And yes about yesterday.............I did my own little angel work by interviewing 2 little galz. I have so much compassion for people...I dunno...how I wish they could be all under my wings so I can help them according to each personality. I indeed want to raise a sharp army somewhat....anyways, at the end, one said...(esp the one I said...sorry, this jobs doesnt suit u),,,,thank you so much as no one has been so nice in interview and thanks for sharing with me your view and suggestion.

Guess at times, certain things are destined, then it's destiny.

Anyhow, yes I am just bullshitting. It's absolutely boring......sorry.

A bad morning in 2012

Actually it's 2nd morning I feel worse these 3 months, I think it's lucky sign. In almost 90 days, I didnt feel like going to work....really today I dont want to, as it's getting obvious I dont like managing bottomline by someone else....haha....anyways

Just want to blablah as really I feel abit sucky now. I re-evaluate myself.....I think I am doing a pretty good job, though yes maybe I could hv done more preparation but it wasnt enough basis for me to do anything, so now....I feel abit stuck. Anyways.....I hope after 2 buffs, I will be fine.

Life, part of the deals, no rainbows everyday or sunshine every morning. But I wont lose hope.....In btw, really....I was just thinking, in HK, we dont get to see birds migrating or rainbows anymore....when I was young, I would see that pretty often. When stuck in office always like more than 12 hrs a day, at times, I wud wonder if outside does hv other living thing or not.

Anyways....

Love in the PUFF

I got the chance to see the premier, and I gotta say.....Love in A Puff was like all love story sweet and romantic. Then the 2nd one - Love in THE puff, it's more realistic. And the 2 movies are so local with so much cantonese swearing.....it's a must watch if U want a laugh while learning how to swear in cantonese.

The song inside. Sweet......luv it.



When minutes become hours
When days become years
And I dont know where you are
Color seems so dull without you

Have we lost our minds
What have we done
But it all doesnt seem to matter anymore

When you kissed me on that street I kissed you back
You held me in your arms I held you in mine
You picked me up to lay me down
When I look into your eyes
I can hear you cry for a little bit more of you and I
Im drenched in your love
Im no longer able to hold it back

Is it too late to ask for love
Is it wrong to feel right
When the world is winding down
Thoughts of you linger around

Have we lost our minds
What have we done
But it all doesnt seem to matter anymore

When you kissed me on that street I kissed you back
You held me in your arms I held you in mine
You picked me up to lay me down
When I look into your eyes
I can hear you cry for a little bit more of you and I
Im drenched in your love
Im no longer able to hold it back

WorkLife

I have been working daily.......since last Sunday........so including next 5 days of the week, I could say I have been working nonstop 14 days......Well, I have no complaint though. Anyways, I realize I am an aggressive person with responsible mindset together with the attitiude on disgusting with "rework" - I hence rather work like a slave. And by achieving, it will soon give me the room to run the side projects I want.....And by reminding myself daily.....I am happily as if sleeping on a cloud. 

OK, back to work......and hope to catch you all soon!!!!!

In btw, I hv watched over 10 movies last week.....even I didnt hv enough sleep. I hope you could find the pleasure or hobbies that U wud rather go without sleep for. For me, I know what!

sex, work and movies

:)

Blank vote

There was a discussion about going to cast the blank vote. As mentioned on FB, I am totally hating those advocating such idea. We have become a city with the mindset to OURNEXTGEN.....whatever we are unhappy or dissatisfied, GIVEUP HOPE! Cast blank vote is a way to protest?????? Normally is......but....to HK population NO. As we always cast blank vote anyways.

Wow.....I am fucking traitor I know. haha

But trully. I dont dislike mainland.............I dont expect them to change overnight, I dont expect them to be non-communistic in 2 years, and I dont expect we will lose democracy at all.

So....why not being positiive and hope for the best. treat the new dude as new CEO....never know, maybe he cud rise upon all odds. hehe.....

unpolitical mind to talk abt politics

Well, I am not into politics.Basically, I dont read news, good or bad. It's so tainted anyways....by the unskilled journalists or commentators. I have no idea why all HK pple are so against everything....they follow on the news or focuz on just one tiny flaw....And yet, I feel....the scary thing isnt CN govt has chosen who to be the head of HK. To me, the scariest thing is how HK people have shifted sides so easily, so following on some ideas without some individulistic mind. I am not exactly saying.....that who or whom is better, rather, I hv no opinion coz I havent been responsible as a citizen anyways. hehe....the Q all HK pple shud ask.....hv they been responsible? They cared now who is the head......but hv they ever really cared??? I think if they really do, they feel upset is fine. Yet.....

It's so ridiculous....to me that they even asked if we ever had a choice to choose!? hahahaah....since being the colony of UK, hv we ever had choice??? Maybe we shud be glad....long long long time ago, we were without choice being cut from the mainland, then governed by another grp of unknown britain pple.......and our lifeline started from there. So now, asked if we ever got a choice? The first dude back in 1997....there was no even any 100o votes. After over 10 years, now in somewhat.....there were some 1000 votes.

And to my opinion. HK pple are not equipped to make votes anyways. few reasons....first we dont think in collective terms and we got no individual mindset. Is being governed by china so bad afterall? Frankly.....my opinion is NO. Second, we dont hv the education to develop a group of great politicians anyways.....we dont hv that vast mind & brain......so, it's fine to protest, but pls protest with some brain cells. I am totally against follow-suit attitude!

At times I feel we are so froggy under the bottom of the pit. And we just know how to make froggy noise. And I dont feel sad whether Leung or Tong has been elected. I feel sad for our population!!!!! What do HK really have anyways!? I would wish HK and CN could work closely and not hating each other......and then everyone has a job with a decent flat to live in. Isnt it what HK pple always ask for, hv food in mouth and a roof for head?

Anyhows, I am not political....and I dont really care. All I care is just me....and my loved ones. As long as we continue to live in this free society......I am pretty fine. So I am sorry....I disagree with HK this time!