I hate my boobs!

They are too big....since I got fattened up.

I am born to be a fashion icon, with big boobs, it's so hard to be one!!!! LOL

I was standing in front my mirror the day b4, I guess it's the effect of Pre-M thingie that kinda blow up the balls. I dont like it. Nowadays I am trying to cover my boobs more than my flabby abs, how sick is that?

I dont think I can match the cup E or G but I live in Sai Wan Ho, downstairs r a bunch of car repairers..........HATE when my boobs aint hidden, though I usually try to breeze past them with pride. 

I WANT to be in my fashion again. I got nice clothes, very nice indeed!! So now I jog jog jog....hopefully I could fit into them by Oct!!! My jail break month!

Am I sick?

Well, one of you told me I have BIPOLAR DISORDER causes : http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/publications/bipolar-disorder/complete-index.shtml, shit how I hate to have same disease as most americans!

But I disgonsed myself, it shouldnt be this one, as I have no Manic phase.

Just dont tell me what I may have or what I am. Having such a blog is to vent out my thoughts. Sorry if I sent to the wrong person, feel free not to come back. BUT U r still always my good fren. I could totally get it why you can't take it & feel upset!!

Thanks!

Why boxing is becoming so popular.......

I am going to join the boxing class too.

As I was reading news & was discussing in one of the comments rgd why HK pple like to kill each other by CHOPPING UP the others....................

I got a newfound conclusion.

CHOPPING = BOXING

It's the bang bang bang effect!! With the every bang there comes every gasp! It's a pretty adrenaline cooling-off thingie.

Man, I suggest we all should go boxing esp those are easily angered, like me...............we should go BOXING!!!

And I highly recommend the govt to make BOXING as the mandated sport sponsored by, of coz the tax payers, to reduce the homicide rate, or even suicidal rate.

An Education, The Witness (Les Témoins)

An Education

http://www.movies.com/an-education/m22753

It's a simple story about a young teengal meeting an older witty man. I suppose your parents would be experiencing some anxiety nowadays if their daughter is going to marry such a "perfect man". But afterall it's staged at 60's. I abit dislike the ending as 16yo Jenny could snap out of it so easily. Honestly, I believe most women wouldnt stay alive or could go back to school and hence smoothly going to Oxford. I think it was too lucky for her.

I hope somehow all of us could have had her kind forgiving teacher in our life, we might as well have a chance to end up in Oxford or Harvard. haha........

Peter Sarsgaard did a captivating performance there, his acting temperature was just rite. Nothing too overboard. Whereas Alfred Molina (Dr Octopus in Spiderman 2) acted out great as a striving dad who wanted his daughter to go to the best Uni or married the "perfect man".

The ultimate moral question is - to have fun or to obtain success thru boredom. Going through it, despite you are not sure what you want in life. Honestly, I do not know how to choose. And also, who knows how to choose the right one? As for me, I never chose FUN first when I was a teen. I always chose the toughest way - my thinking was to challenge myself. That left alot of wounds inside & outside, but at least I am more alive than choosing either one option.

Highly recommended if you like inde movies or great performance.

The Witnesses (Les Temoins)

http://www.movies.com/the-witnesses/m23684

An interesting movie with a story board spreading from AIDs, Bi-sexual, gay, open relationship, parenthood, friendship........Yes, it's supposed to feel very very heavy indeed. But it all came out pretty naturally. I am not saying they have the perfect script. However, I always like movies or shows with more reality in it. Not dwelling on just purely love or pain oriented.

And the description of the ignorance rgd AIDs back in 80's, somehow it reminds me I should be more protected. It's indeed not a nice disease, esp one of the characters showed the progress of the disease uptil his death. Kinda gruesome.

I cannot relate to any one of the r/p depicted in this movie. I just dont get some of them.

I like french sex scene or scenes that leading upto it. It's just so frenchly natural. Unlike american movies.......

Recommended if you dont mind reading french subtitles.

My aunt is publishing her first book!

She's always a talented artist. 

I believe she has been one of those that left a mark in my life. A good one, of coz. Becoz, she did struggle in her life, esp after her marriage & pregnancy. I saw that through my eyes, always so quietly, when I was merely few years old. Hearing relatives whispering behind her back while she could be in tears. At that moment of my kiddo heart, I had this anger towards humanity or adults. I couldnt get it why they couldnt let her just cry (becoz I liked crying too)!!!!!

Anyhow, we corresponded quite abit when I was studying in Melbourne. I remember at my 21yo, she wrote something back to me in responding to my agony of staying "alive". She told me she gave birth to my cousin. when she was 22. She was very upset, devastated, even depressed for many years as she felt this pregnancy kept her from doing great things at one point. But however, she added on after 18 years her son had become such a great man she's so proud of. She no longer regretted her choice but felt so grateful embracing that. At that very moment I thought, just like when I was maybe 3yo, how I wish she could be my mother. I believe many people would think she's a weak person, but to me she's the strongest person I have ever met, who has confronted depression (we never discuss this topic but I believe she has) and owns such a vast compassion on people and things. Ie what I call strength. Not those other stupid humans that mocked at her back!!!

She's holding the book press (not sure what's the rite word) on 1 Aug at MK fr 3pm. If you guyz are free, feel free to tag along.

Let there be Light! And I am an IDIOT!

Since I started re-arranging my furniture couples of days ago, I finally made myself to buy a standing lamp for my room, which I was looking at Xpat, Ikea thousand of times, I couldnt bring myself to get one. Maybe I was thinking if I could be alive to see the light again. Yet, now my good mood is picking up, I got a silvery metallic lamp which costs only $99. Budgeting with Ikea is a good idea, at times. And yes, finally I no longer need to walk into my room in dark - as I listened to my feng shui master to remove the ceiling light.....HAHAHA, what an idiot!!!!

Then I went on to the central market to get some salad, esp Rocket. Luv it. I think my past life must be a cow. I like it even w/o any dressing. I also realize finally something my shadow wouldnt fight with me - the rocket - she hates it!!! Hurrrayyy............

Moved onto CWB - Ikea & Welcome. I got some coupons so I vicariously going through lane by lane to get some salad dressing, mineral water, EV olive oil (I thought I had it, after trying few times using my existing oil with my salad and found out the taste was abit odd, then realizing it's NOT Oilive OIL - again, what an idiot!!!). So now my fridge doesnt just have beverages ONLY, but I got stock-up with alotta fruits, salads. I am going to make fresh apple juice tomorrow. 

On my way to the above 2 places, I saw my good friend Cindy & friend, but she was on the phone. I was actually about trying to gather my breath to call them, they actually literally "WIND" by me in superman speed. I was too freaking late. Anyhow, it was very funny to me as I was indeed trying to wave & opened my mouth!!!!

Now home. Couples of minutes ago, I was trying to make lemongrass mint tea but then to my horror I realized THEY ARE NOT MINT BUT BASIL!!!!! Shit, anyhow, I removed the basil but put in some ginger slices, hopefully they taste OK lah! WHAT AN IDIOT!

Tonite, I am going to add in some mango in my already fridged fruit pasta salad. But I am going out for a jog first. I want to catch some glimpse of the gorgeous night view of KLN side from here, then spot some tan-juiced, sweaty hunk backs (usually they always run faster than me but I find them to be a good goal for me to KEEP RUNNING).

Then I would meet up with Benji again. Well, I am trying to challenge myself with the WORLDCUP. My mom said Dutch & Spanish teams aint as violent, so I feel more at ease to watch it with Ben at Flying Pan. But I am going to bring my notebook PLUS another book, just in case I would be so "sweated" by the violence.

All in all, I have a good Sunday this week.

Asshole

I went to Soho with Ben tonite. He hasnt visited Soho since there was no Soho. I think he had a good time. Who wouldnt, when he was with me!!??

He said something at the cab which is so meaningful, in an odd way. Esp as I was saying, I couldnt get why some people would make up stories or do something bad intentionally.

He said - in an intelligent way - only assholes cud get assholes. HAHAHHA.............thanks !!!

I now know I am eternally going to be a non-asshole as I utterly have no way to get them. :D

Thanks Benji