I should delete Facebook

No way.....haha. 

No, sometimes on FB, U see many....nice pictures or good status from people, such as:

1. BABIESSSSSS

2. ENGAGED (yes a good fren golden diamond bachelor just got engaged - unbelievable!!!!)

3. Wedding, upon wedding pictures

4. Tripssssssss

5. Honeymoon tripppssssss

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

They make me want to
1. get pregnant

2. Get engaged but first of all I need a single bf 1st

3. Nah, it's OK....I had already

4. need me to expound?

5. ummmm........................it's OK, had also

LOL, no, I did think of having a baby for 2 months sometime ago....dunno why. Just that moment. Now, not really - first U need a dad and a mom, then they need to actively have sex before they could get a chance to let the fertilized egg to clutch onto the uterus wall. So, my wall has just been shed, hence.....this idea has thrown outta window.

And I dont hv a good back, I admire women x 10000 times that they could hold that gigantic belly for 9 months (ok, roughly 5 mths is that heavy).

Then, engaged. Not really also, but seeing people who are like quick sand doing it......I mean the next door pasture or bowl of rice smell better mentality.......i also want engaged. hahahahahaha......I want to feel the freaking heavy diamond ring on my finger or the surprised proposal....so fun. Actually, if that ring isnt real, I dun mind....I just want the thrill.

Honeymoon....do u know that honeymoon is usually not that honey!?!? As far as I know - couples tend to argue more during honeymoon. I think the best honeymoon is - to do nothing and sleep on the beach days and nites then nites and days, gazing the moon with a lemon honey iced on yr lips.

Wedding pics.....?! I want some really funny and stylish ones....if I ever need to take that. But isnt that supposed to leave a prettiest moment of the bride? Well, I got enough pretty pictures so I dont need more. Though - I just need to blow up mine to hang on my walls.

So all in all, I am back to where I am now.

Just blah blah with a tint of jealousy. Thats all.....sometimes hving some jealousy is good, as I am usually pretty cold hearted in that arena.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder?!?!

In my case, absence makes the heart grow further. 

Let me explain why both are true.

Fonder - well, if U fraking live together or spend hours a day or see each other like 6 days a week (minimum) and 8 days a week maximum, or sleep like cuddlin kittens every nite, well, yes that applies. Somehow, humans r supposed to be loner or an island - when the skin touches together too much or the aura of physical is too imminent - we human would start to repulse the opposite physical. So yes when it happens, this statement applies.

Further - when the above dont apply, then frankly distance & absence make 2 further. It's not about how much trust or love. We human feed on quality of a good time, the quantity of joyful time. Even though, it usually it's the first 15 seconds or intermittent some 30 second of moments that would leave burning memory, yet this needs time to breed the moment. It doesnt happen instantly. Even at times, we try to bring this to climax, it just doesnt work like that. A seed takes time to grow, let alone 2 people - humans r all so selfishly individualistic. 

I hope I can learn to be a bamboo. Bamboo is a very patient plant. or better still, I want to be a dragon egg as it can wait for 1000 years until it's right time to hatch (OK according to shows like Merlin & Games of Thrones I got such info....hehe). But Bamboo, if U plant a seed, U can never see it grow until 5 years later, as everything first grows underneath - it roots itself firmly and extensively before their boo see the real high sky. I think I have waited long enough for everything to sprout or to shoot.......pewh. It has to come. And I have to explode, shoot up like a rocket (as my teacher said once - I behave like a rocket).

Bamboo and Further = Fonder for myself and myself alone.