I am a lucky gal.....

In times of despair and desperation, somehow, the hand of da god/s or da universe will show some mercy on wrecked souls. I have been blessed with such, though my requirement is little.....say for e.g.

The CNY week was supposed to be one of my highlights of 2012, yet, on the Sat itself I got news that took me down to the pits. Oh well, really......right at that moment, I recieved one of the longest emails (maybe...coz was reading from iphone, it looks too long, way too long.....hahahaha) in my life. Which, by the way, usually I wrote long emails, letters, not the other way round, rarely the recipients. This person surely beats me, coz he luvs to write too. And anyways, reading his email, inside it's all sharing of his views after reading my blogs and some updates of his life - it warmed my soul in great deal. As......maybe....somehow, god hasnt forgotten me, or frenz hvnt forgotten me. I got a reminder, despite he's pretty unaware of how precise the timing was......i got "revived" literally.

So someone remembers, I did say at that sad moment "I am so lucky".

Turn Back the Clock

Someone also says, I mean basically everyone always says - I wish I could.....I wish I could be rich....I wish...blah......Then, I remember someone asked me before, if I could start all over again, would I do something different!? Well. My answer is always NO. I would do everything exactly the same, except, I wish I would have the slight little more wisdom I have now to fine-tune the events. Why do we want to live differently from the past!? Also, only left or right, east/west/north/south ..... we walk one path, then turn to another direction....it's eternal fact unless we become still and dead!

I was thinking this morning, if god wud give me last year back, what would I do? Wud I do something differently? Wud I choose to not to fall in love with the wrong men!? yes 2 in total. Crazy....I never even indeed fell once, within 12 mths I fell twice.The last one was even stomach twisting.....anyways.....it doesnt matter the events or people. The fact is I did have that!

So, my answer is - I wud do all over again. I always believe my path is like this. I will keep making mistakes until I perfect myself in that area - as my motto is life is all about experience anyhow. I believe.....by having such torture or smitten feeling.....ultimately I wud find the perfect one. I am fairy tale gal as I always say - torture, sadness, crazy dont stop me from dreaming. Actually - all these failures or unreal romance - make me believe even more in fairy tales. Is it my psychological problem? hehe, nope I dont think so.......it just speaks how tough and pure my another side of my heart is. Even Moon has 2 sides, we all cud see the front facing us, just like all men who cud only feel the heart facing them. but if he's not the right one, he cant tap into the other side......and so far, I hvnt shown the other side fully to one person yet, maybe except here partially. :))