I refuse and I protest

I refuse to believe there's no.....

I believe in Eternity of consistency, of insistency

I believe in full, fullness of love and joy

I protest and protest

coz we wud be changed and so etc this and duh and that

we dont know the true self

we want to false self

at times I feel so discouraged by us, human kinds

we r so bad, so horrible, so asshole, so unloving, 

but if I do believe in such

my fairy tale cant live on

I am a fairy tale gal

and I will never change

those who ask me even beg me not to change

u r the ones who have change

I wont allow any tears, heartbreaks, sadness, depression to change my belief in the eternity of good and love

So I profess again

I am a fairy tale gal

who lives in her own fairyland

and she is her own princess in her own kingdom

she wont care if u mock or laugh

as she cant hear it anyways

if u r one, live there with me

lets be fairy in the fair fairy fairyland

Maybe, just Maybe

I am a genius but I am trapped in this earth

Maaybe just maybe

I am in love but I am trapped in this mind

Maybe just maybe

I am indeed an ET but I am trapped as a worker bee

Maybe just maybe

I am very happy but I am in a shallow depression

What's shallow depression?

I cant explain it very well with words, I feel

but it's kind of depression oozing outta nothingness

discontent with things, people, stuff, myself

but cant really name what that is

Maybe just maybe 

I just want to live it real but we are all trapped in this matrix

Maybe just maybe

I could be awake at the end, but I am in NOW

Why people always say Now or Present?

What it means, in terms of time?

in terms of eternity?

How come I cant live in the past, now, and at same time future?

I also dont understand why people say dont expect too much from life, from people from things?

I dont buy it, why is meaning of life if there's no expectation of life.

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MAaybe just maybe

We all want to live in heaven but collectively we allow ourselves to be trapped in hell?

Maybe just maybe also

U say I am contradicting myself, but it's you who are trapped in me....