cultures affects suicidal methodology

Do you find that lately many people commit suicide. I saw 2 cases around my neighbourhood. I didnt see the action but the covered cloth over the bodies though.

Then, I read from a news about several korean stars committing suicide and I found a strange phenomenon. I could be wrong, but lets try to dissect it from a cultural or behavioural perspectives.

Lets just talk about celeb suicide as it reflects the macroscopic pattern of the population.

In US, the most you hear would be overdose and gunshots.

In HK, jumping & gas suoffocation (not sure of the correct terminology) 

I suspect Japan would be similar as HK, though I know nothing much about JP celeb, or maybe they rarely kill themselves.

In Korea, hanging. (http://www.hancinema.net/factbox--chronology-of-south-korean-celebrity-suicides-24040.html)

US - it shows how abused people are on drugs or medication. Lets blame it on FDA. I dislike FDA becoz they would almost never pass any alternative therapy such as herbal medicine for curing people ailments. I suspect if not 100%, it would be 70% americans are on some sorta medication. People are so "lied" by the so called modernization such as western medicine. Anything is a fast fix just like fast food chains covering the whole continent - Mcdonalds, KFC, Wendys.....

And of coz, everyone could have a gun over there is just obvious choice for killing oneself. And in the first place of having a gun is to protect oneself. It goes back to how much self denial this nation may be facing.

HK - Leslei Cheung HK beloved star killed himself by jumping off from Madarin Hotel. And some others too. I am not sure why people want to jump. I guess they believe it's the surely winning way to die. It talks about the praticality of Hong Kong people. And SPEED too. However, I also feel they have a revenge feeling to it. It's kind of like a display. Showing your everything to everyone. I believe those who choose this way to die has some revenge thing going on while I suspect, only speculate, that it's very likely they have someone in mind that they hate alot. HK people are not happy people. We are always crammed in a small physical or personal space setting. Would they feel more free to choose this way? I dont know, really.

 

By gas suffocation, I think those who choose this way coz they got  so depressed to a point that to them, there's no way out  A crammed situation magnifies this. And of coz the many many incidents of people who manage to kill themselves in the newspaper everyday. Though, I suspect, they didnt actually want to die - they could be very well hoping that someone would have opened the door to air the area.

In KR, very very oddly, it seems like most of them hang themselves. I wonder why. Would it be becoz they are so insecure that they need to do it at home? Are koreans insecure people? Or just becoz they so uplift the family values? I suspect both. However, from the link above, I feel KR people may be very alone. They are an island, with rising recognition. Honestly, this is a lonely feeling becoz U are not here or there (ie not japan, but also not africa). I believe it will take time for them to adjust, to find their position.

Apologize if my views are disturbing or inaccurate as I didnt do this based on research. But more like a thought driving me to think of these. 

Surprising Two Days

For one, I laughed like I never laughed before. Like a pig.

For two, I lost my virginity. Again.

On Friday, I went to see Eclipse with Janet. By the way, Riley (aka Xavier Samuel) looks awesome in the movie. He's the best young actor in the twi-cast I gotta say. How did I manage to laugh like a pig? U gotta be there to know, but I still try to tell.

There's a scene whereby Victoria & Edward were fighting. And in this movie, vampires "got killed" like breaking the ice. Shattered! Anyhoos, Ed killed Vic by breaking her into icy-pieces. Everyone should know how vamp could get shattered as there were many scenes prior to this finale already done the shattering. Anyways, everyone was absolutely silent and surprising at that very moment, no movie music at all. BUT a freaking woman GASPED  through her windpipe. IT was just kinda maybe next to me. I STARTED fucking laughing hard. I should say WE. But for me, I was trying to control. The more I controlled the more I fucking laughed to a point, I was laughing like a pig being slaughtered....giiigiiihahahahgiiigiihahhahaha.........

Man, I kept thanking her for the next few hours because I hadnt laughed like that for the past 2 years, or maybe the last 20 years!!!! I laughed for maybe at least 10 mins. Seriously, I never laughed.

OK, the second.

I lost my worldcup virginity to Benji. My mom is going to be mad at me. I never in my life sat through a soccer match. NEVER. I hate matches, competition. Hate it with gutz. I never even once sat with my mom for more than 5 mins to any kind of a race. 

I was touched by Benji's enthusiasm as he couldnt get a glimpse of the previous race at LKF. So we went to The Flying Pan. By the way, best place in town for a TV screen. I honestly didnt watch that, we were there like from 12:30 till 5ish am. I was actually webbing the net the whole time, basically the 2hrs++ race, until the last moment whereby they gotta  tried to shoot balls one by one to see who won. I GOT SO NERVOUS by it. I almost wanted to duck out. I hate this expectancy, this hype. Now, I understand why I hate soccer. 

People, PEOPLE get hurt, becoz other people push, kick, slap, punch the other PEOPLE. I hate to see the violence. I think soccer is violent. I hate all kinda of violence. HATE.

But thankfully I gained 3 things from these few hours. I believe Benji now would think of me as a close fren, afterall I lost my worldcup virginity to him. Second, I managed to use up all my iphone battery to read the late Kim Daul blog (http://iliketoforkmyself.blogspot.com/). Third, I now understand why Soccer is so mesmerizing to people and the thrill to them is excruciatingly exciting!

Suicide

I saw a news about this Korean star hanging himself. It took me to some trance. What if, I could do the same. It took me to remember some of the ways people who committed suicide.

Yeah, I may not show this blog to anyone. It's just so saddening some points.

I have lost my way. I am not sure how to find my way back again. Everything seems so far and distant. I dont want to see anyone anymore. I dont even want to take care of my dogs. They only give me more chaos in my life. I just want to cut myself off from this life. It';s not about having a difficult life. It's about being hopeless, strengthless, happyless............too lonesome to be alone, to have no one to see you through. Not talking about a bf. Having a bf, esp the useless kinds only add on more sad outcomes for you. There's no fond memory to cling on to miss someone. There's no triumph moment to remember by that to believe you could make it through. There's ONLY memory that I cant have. It's horrible.

Looking out to the window. Wondering what I would be thinking before I hit the ground.

I think it's the mose lonesome feeling when you try to take your life. That moment of desperation, leaving what you think you love but you cant handle anymore. The weeping within. The tears without. The clarity coming out from confusion has helped one make the final step.

It's Enough!!!

I have promised myself for days, weeks, months, this depression thing has to go. I think today may be the beginning it may go.

I really need to go somewhere. Now thinking of doing the cheapest way to Yunnan. I just need to get abit carried away. My heart sinks big time. I couldnt make myself do anything.

In search for my coffee prince

Lately, I have turned into average HK gal, watching korean tv drama. I have no shame of admitting that, as afterall I am just a woman wanting to be in love too. These stories really suit my fire within. Have some laughs, some tears, some touching moments........

I couldnt help but fall in love with the coffee prince characters. He's so adorable, sweet, abit of arrogance. But if U know me well, I love arrogant people. HAHAHA. I could actually mix well with arrogant people, not the snobbish kind, just those with characters, own thoughts with a pitch of arrogance.

Someone would say prince doesnt exist. I dont know why until now I still believe I may meet mine. The thing is I just dont know when. hehe.....let me dwell in the pool of his luv (in the drama) that could already warm my heart a little. :P