Alot of invitations, I am thrilled....

1. Invited to go to Germany with my luvly dearest fren in June
2. Invited to Brittany by a french couple who are my fren's parents in Bangkok. He just told me they luved me.
3. Invited to go to some kinky, if not, maybe crazy party at agogo club in BKK by another frenchman.
4. Invited to go to S'pore by another.....person. hehe, or maybe Europe, depending where we want to meet
5. Invited to attend a traditional Thai wedding.
6. Invited to go to M'sia, UK to meet my old buddies since Uni
7. Invited to.................few other couldnt be named things...............but very exciting & thrilling ones.
8. Of coz, was invited to hop onto a car......in BKK highway


I hope I can indeed do all of the above, but now, I need to work hard N make money. It's so luvly when pple asked so sincerely and would want you to be there. They and YOU have made me feel so warmth. :)

Thank you so much.
Luv U guyz!

I think I cant help it.....

Well, sometimes it's out of my ability to control my crazy genes, somehow I guess someone is destined to lead a different life. I cant say whatever I did and am going to do are daring, but it does have a touch of risk factor and uncertainty. Honestly, apart from Mr Funny, some did hint me not to be so "wild" or "should be a lady, get married..."

Today, Bangkok highway incident reminded me that it's not the first time I hopped onto something. In Laos especially, around couple of years ago, I was too desperate to head home, despite non-english speaking laosian told me it's wrong bus, I went with my gutz N hopped on...........lol...............guess what! I went to where I wanted to go, though during the whole trip I realized it was a good thing to go without breakfast, everyone around me was.....throwing up, except me. And on my way, I did worry if there would be any gunman jumped out & started shooting us along the hillsides...........

I guess, I followed my instincts or gutz alot. If I feel it's rite, I went ahead. Just like my ex-es, inside I knew it was wrong, I went ahead and of coz - bad bad!!

Lost in Bangkok Highway!
1. Taxi died and driver left me alone in the cab and I thought he was trying to find me another cab
2. after 10 mins, no show....I decided to run for my life
3. I took out the luggage & stood by the side of highway hoping maybe somehow an empty cab wud pass by 

4. Of coz, it's almost impossible & the chance was abit gleam so I was planning to walk to the other side of highway as it seemed there were more cab w or w/o passengers

5. Caught between running for my life or risking my life in the raging traffic
6. A car stopped and the driver asked me where I was heading
7. So I jumped into the car, and here we went......
8. Safely arrived at airport & just in time actually

Then I called my mom & told her what happened, she scolded me....hahahaa, actually the driver was a gal who is soon-to-be-a-pilot.......Now I made my very 1st thai fren on my own!!!

A deep fried birdie

Someone said today to me, I shud get settled down. I am taking too much risks in life. Well, he's kind-hearted, actually we have never even met! But he makes me laugh. Basically he's a perfect man, he has a perfect kid, a perfect wife, a perfect life (hahaha, say ha jeh)!

So I said no one wanted me. Couldnt be tamed. Well, actually how hard it is to tame a legless bird? Actually its quite easy, as he put it, just deep fry it.....LOL, funny, yeah?! Really, there's no other way. I wonder what's the analogy to deep fry a bird to correlate my life. I got no clue. I thought it's funny so I just want to say it here.

However, really, what does settling down mean to everyone? Getting married, having a mortgage for life, raising 2 kids....as I put it before, are all these really secure in such world? Are these called "settling down"? Sorry, I dont seem to see many who hv the above (except him -as he may be reading, hehe) are actually happy and glad that they have "settled down"? Sorry, I am mute, I cant name one (yes except Mr Funny)! 

I no longer can grasp the peace in settling down, as again said before, we are living a life span with few life times (means we live 60 years but it's like we are living in few lifes already, as things move so fast, info pass by us like lightspeed - compared to all the previous generations). Coz very likely, we change our way of life or way of thinking drastically every 10 years. Anyhow, I am not against people "settling down", I think it's important for a human to feel grounded, stable & at peace. I want that too. Very much. Believe me. But maybe it's not entirely the way they put it.

I am pursuing something indeed risky....guess in work or life. But then, I am also at lost if I should walk like others. It's not just simply saying "nah, it's not for me"........but I guess really somewhere somehow I always want to be revolutionary. I have this belief that the value has changed, and I am working towards the changed values, hopefully, faster than others. Whoever hits the finishing line 1st wins. I cant say I am right or wrong, I just believe following everyone wants me to be or to do IS wrong for me. At this moment, really it appears to be wrong, but but but........I am actually a patient person. I will prove everyone wrong, one day, haha, I sound crazy, aint I? Anyhow, really honestly, if I am wronged, then, so, how? 

I guess I still could write a book ie called, DONT BE LIKE ME, SHOULD ALWAYS CONFORM. hehe....sorry, I really sound grumpy lately. I am really tired, really sleepy, but I am leaving home in an hr for a shitty early flight. I think I will kill someone on the plane for sure......................ARRRGGGHHH

Thanks for listening. See U later, my frenz.

Sometimes babies are not really that cute

Sorry, I met a baby or toddler today.
Supposedly all babies are cute.
Maybe I have become more heartless.
Really, babies are not that cute.
I am always the babysitter when my frenz bring their babies along.
I luv playing with them. But today, I got no freaking mood to play with them.
I dont like active ones, esp the ones that are put at places whereby there are sharp edges & staircases.
They then make me nervous. So to avoid such feeling, the best for me is to dislike them.....

Contradictory? yes pretty much.
So now I officially dislike BABIES.

Questions

1. Are you a male?
2. Do you think you are pretty smart? Yet, you did poorly in school?
3. Did you wet your bed upto age 12?
4. Did you play with matches when you were a kid? (actually I did)
5. Are you a voyeur?
6. Are you addicted to fetishism?
7. Are you into S&M pornography?

Guess if U got more than 3 of the above YES,



U R a




SERIAIL KILLER POTENTIAL. hehe



http://www.carpenoctem.tv/killers/ch.html

Vintage Porn

I have been doing some research on my own on some porn sites from my frenz. 

Do you know that there are actually vintage porns? collage porns? celebrity porns.

Now, the porn doesnt need to be a story based ones. Internet world.

Amazing, ie all I can say.

Actually, I also get to understand why guyz like to see porns, some are quite amusing actually. hehe.

I have some regrets this morning

My motto is never to regret over things you have done.
Think of the consequences before acting upon it.

But today, I have, which is very very rare in my life. I dont say much like....yes I do have this regret that I did....etc etc. Today, I feel it.

I regret I have dogs. They are driving me crazy. I tried to clean my place, they folowed me around. I tried to vaccum, they thought I was playing with them. I was worrying about next few days issues, they jumped all over me wanting some luving from mama.

I think, I hv never said that before, maybe I am just abit melachonic today. If they die, I wouldnt hv another pets ever ever again. You know, once you have them, you target to be responsible for them for 15 years. Lottie is only 1 year old, meaning I have another 14 years. And by then, to have another active dog would be impossible. Maybe you say I could pick a quiet one........but this is my character, things are with me tend to be neurotic & crazy. I wont try to fight this kama, but enjoy it as much as I can.

That makes me understand why men dont want to have kids after certain age. Seriously, it takes stamina, energy, alot of committment & responsibility to have kids, even worse than me having 2 dogs. For women, we may not need to think too much about it, as the biology will help us decide anyways. I start to understand more now........I guess, galz, dun push your guyz to have kids. If they actually dont want, but this is the most important thing for you, find another man.......really.

Come Back to Earth

Today marks of the end of, as for many people, long CNY holidays. As for me, it marks the start of hardwork. Feb, so far, is very lazing around month. Everything is dreamy. Things went past so quickly, including the minutes, the hours & the days. I am starting to freak out.

I need to come back to earth and be a human again.

I esp slept more today as I know next 2 days, I am gonna be sleepless. Too much to catch up, too much to prepare....next whole week is all about meetings, meetings. I am concerned my brain will die of exhaustion. Coz those pple that I am gonna meet are going to non stop talking and their pace of speech is so fast that usually wud just shut me down....but I cant.

U wonder if anyone has ever died of listening too much? Hope I wont be the first one!