Feeling like Million Buck (Euro)

Guess, it's time to feel abit melancholic. Maybe that time of the month is coming. I dont know, while I was sitting in the toilet....yes, I do think alot while sitting in the toilet bowl - I thought....

It's very important to feel I worth million bucks (Euro) -

My high school fren asked me if I still missed Mr Maus. I said No, everything just so faded that I couldnt recall a thing. But as I realized I very much a person responded to Questions. I luv Questions. Some answers I feel I am in a haste to answer, I would really think about it when I have time. Even a food Q. Sometimes people ask me what's my fav dish is....really....I got no idea, so I have been thinking of this Q for....like over 20 years! I think what dawned on me while sitting on the bowl was that....for a split moment, he made me feel like Million Bucks.

And of coz, I have my great frenz like my best frenz who always make me feel I worth more than Million Bucks. 

My dogs, they make me feel I worth the world.

My new potential business partners make me feel important and I hope I could make Million Bucks for them.

And then, some.....they make me feel centless. And then we would get hiccups over such people......we humans are just bad at counting the blessing. I am learning. Learning very hard, very diligent to continuously remind myself that the centless feeling is stupid, naive and super worthless. For one, they just dont deserve your hiccups. 

What's with our brain that we would sometimes cling onto such worthless feeling? Why sometimes melancholy would offer such an amplifying magnitude when we could have a choice to overlook it? And why sometimes moodiness make us more arty, more charming.....that drive some of us searching for the feeling of existence? Why happiness doesnt give us grounded feeling....while depression offers the heaviness? (though we need the happiness to build the ground).

I somewhat feel saddened by something I saw. Just a little. As I said, gimme a day. I am a stronger gal now, wanting to search for better meanings of things, creating more glamour around me, spreading more radiance to the world, esp to my frenz who luv me....no complaints. Not any depressing thoughts either. Maybe just a moment....ie all. Hving such a moment....sometimes yack me outta my dreaminess too. So I welcome all kinda feeling.....understand it at my best and the move ahead. 

K, need to hug my dogs now. ^O^