What's Love!?

hehe, as I was making pumpkin biscuits for my dogs, so why not, just drop a note about love!?!?! As I am typing with my notebook sitted on my pillow, my small dog Lottie forced her way on me.

1. ie Love, not being annoyed being disturbed most of the times, I gotta say, 5% of the time I got annoyed.

Someone asked me - do I get bored or disgusted or tired cleaning up the poo and pee for them!?

2. Ie Love, not being disgusted at cleaning up shits for the one U love. No complaint. Frankly, I wud get worried if I dont need to clean the shits.

Waiting. I wait alot......for pumpkin to cool down, then mix then bake....usually 2 rounds of baking to last them like 2 weeks.

3. ie Love, waiting isnt an issue, as long as your love enjoys you and of coz my dogs wait alot for me, to get home, to finish the biscuits. Both sides of waiting that create the magic of intimacy.

Learning from experience. I got no real recipe of how to make it, so I cant really tell others how to make this pumpkin biscuits, but I learn it by believing I will do it for my love, I can master the perfection.

4. Ie Love. Not being afraid of making mistakes but improve from it until u master the the art of loving action. Guess applies to making love, kissing....how to touch, how to "oral sex" haha....how to seduce, same....

Just making pumpkin biscuits has inspired me to write my 2nd entries about love.

5. ie Love. love inspires me. it creates a magic fantasy world in my head. If love grows strong, the fantasy enlarges to a point of explosive magic. And I think I am trying to refer to hope....love makes one inspires hopes, creates belief, and trust.

Look around you, maybe there's something that actually makes u think of love......it cud be ur pillow, ur breath.....or whatever, I think if one couldnt get inspired by sthg, find it....as it substains the search of true love, it creates the need to love for love to continue.

Something I shud be proud of

dont you think....I should be proud of myself!?!? After....1.5 yr, I am still writing at least min 1 entry per week here about stuff, about bullshits, about myself. My mind must be so rubbish yet shining. Till now, I dont even care much if my frenz read, and I know at least 2 would.....and then some othe readers from all over the globe...not many...I am not a celeb, but I appreciate ur support that makes me feel, I shudnt never leave a week to zero entry!!!! And you should be proud too, as you have the patience to hear an old fark pretty gal bullshitting too much always....just keep on blaaaa....

Pple say, sex, love make a person vigilant and looking young, and I think hving the ability to just simply polluting the world could be one way too. At least for me, it is....I must write more to keep my youthful look. hahahahaa

kidding, love u all. ^^

Extra-Ordinary Bones

Eve was created by a bone from Adam according to the bible.....or maybe it's just a story, but it's created from something extra-ordinary, be it god or love. Just a prelude.....

I am thinking about extra-ordinary. I luv the confidence TV show Bones - Bones has -"I am extra-ordinary" trust in herself. I always adore people with so much confidence to a point of arrogance as I am like that too. I am extra-ordinary, too. I knew even when I was young but somehow I was still plagued with so much inferiority given, pushed, imposed, shone upon by my family. Anyhow, I broke free at least 51% from this damn, so I am confident with my own extra-ordinariness. Yet, I am not a saviour. I am not god. I cant create. i cant save.

I can only copulate. I can only copy and paste. I can only co-create.

Was watching this movie - The Last Station, it's about Leo Tolstoy and his wife etc. And somehow, it's fiction or not, it doesnt matter. But it started off with his quote - everything I understand, I understand only because I love. I am pretty sure he was in love with his wife and her same to him - it's unbelievable for her to copy 7 times of his War and Peace, it must be love for doing that. Anyways....maybe the love he's referring to, doesnt necessarily correlate to romantic love.

And then somehow lately this extraordinary has been running through my mind. I think no matter how ordinary a person is, he/she cud be extrao, While, no matter how extra-ordinary a person is, he/she needs to experience ordinaries. Without ordinary, there could never be extra-ordinary.

So what am I trying to say?? hehe, it sounds so confusing, huh!?!?

Oh yes, I remember, I wanted to write a book 10 years ago, the title was - the ordinary extra-ordinary me. hehe........I think I am too in love with myself as always.

My friend just called and she told me she wanted to leave her husband. :) I always got such calls as I always a supportive to any form of leaving action if it's not happy. But then, I was sounding so logical and neutral that she was confused.....lol...reverse psychology - too often I support such actions, people wud then argue their way to the dysfunctional rp. The best is - they make their own fraking decision, rather than asking me, dont u think!? Anyways, she didnt really ask me if she shud leave or not, but moments like this, I guess everyone wants to hear "You are right!".

Umm, sorry, this entry is blablah, as I was playing Rachel Yamagata too loudly and I was too attentive to the lyrics, which most r kinda referring to my sentiments. I will write about love (it seems I said this before here in one of the entries and I did....^^)......more about love, and 2012 in coming entries. I have a new thought....not worldly new but my own self new.....

Till then, have a great week. Stay sober and detox for NYE......I need to take few days off from going out, drinking....I need to embark a new page of life and I need to be ready for it. Yup....I did too much during Xmas, drinking, meeting frenz, staying out late , and I feel my liver is abit overloaded. :)))

XOXO

Did U have a magical Xmas>!>!>!>!>!>?????

Always, I wish everyone a magical Xmas. But mine wasnt that magical, just going out and going out. So I wish everyone a MAGICAL NEW YEAR 2012!!!! I have been waiting for 2012 to come, and it's just crazy it's finally just days away. I remember, when I was much younger, I thought 2012 wud never come as I wud be like an old fart. Shit, now I am an old fart, but a stylish pretty kind who has many experience as her medals and scars.

I am not sure what;s gonna happen in 2012, but definitely by end 2012, I wudnt be spending alone. I know that. hehe

OK, just want to say Hi to everyone. Did want to write a dream....it was quite vivid. And will do it later. Maybe.

Lastly, done your resolution yet?!?! if not, do it now. I hvnt done but I will spend an afternoon with my notepad doing that this week. It's kinda cliche really....but it's a good cliche afterall. So why not!?!?!?!

Do leave ur comments here to let me know ur top 3 goals for 2012, if u like, U can tell me even ur 2015 goals, I wud be delighted too. :))