Regulate Posting of Pic

Previously, I deleted some frens who posted their kids picture everyday (it's OK to be updating the status etc or some funny moment - but sometimes it's just too much, know what I mean?) Since it really disturbed my viewing on Facebook. 

Hence I have been regulating myself not to post too many of my self-idolizing or my 2 doggie pics on FB so much. Becz lets say if someone doesnt like pets, they would hate me too. haha.  Well, ie not what I really want to talk about.

I saw an album of a guy fren I knew couple of years ago and I think he started dating. So he always shows his new gf pics. Well, she's sexy looking and I do understand why he finds the needs of posting the pictures so much. Then, to me.....it's not disturbing like checking our baby pics. But I now have a thought. Let say, if I find a bf in the future, I would not allow myself to post any kissy, huggy sweet picture there - as best as I can or maybe I should just throw my iphone with all the fabulous apps away, hehe. It's abit.....jealous to see all these pictures, I have to admit. NO, I DONT LIKE HIM AT ALL, I dont even remember his name. But the jealousy comes from something I dont have, U know. The priviledge of taking a pic with the man I am in luv with.......or the sweet moments U know in those pic the 2 luvbirds were giggling about-U cud kinda feel it from the pics. Maybe in the future I shudnt let others feel what I feel now - jealous....hahaahhhhaa

Anyways, just a thought. Ummm.....hehe

Relax and Pay Attention

Time flies so fast this week, esp I jam-packed my week coz someone told me that this would be the last week of "something" - hence I forced myself to run past. Today should be the cut off day for the next beginning. I am not supertitious, usually I dont really remember anything but as life goes on, you just gotta listen to some voices.

Meeting, inviting guests to my home (actually more for my dogs - I want them to feel more excitement, as I got no time to play with them much) - basically would be how I jam myself.

Yet, today, I felt really exhausted. So exhausted that I could not breathe. I decided, I wouldnt try to think about my work and maybe I should read something. BINGO. The passage I read, ends by saying "relax and pay attention". I am not kidding. This is what I am thinking (not in exact words, more in question form). I hv been thinking.....maybe I should quiet down, have a coffee on my balcony and reveal if I see any signs. 

Ideas, potential co-operation are flooding in slowly this time. Yet, I feel abit scared, becoz these happened to me too many times that almost killed my heart & soul in one bow. So, I feel I really need to think or feel carefully what I should do. I am so concerned if I would be wasting my time again, and then end up with nothing. The passage I read, really helped me quiet down alittle, yet I cant deny I worry. 

But since it says I should relax and pay attention - well, this is what I am gonna do in next 2 hours. Take a break. Drink some coffee, then some water....and some mint tea.....look at the clouds in the dark sky and pay attention. :)

Fund? or FUN?

I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work - 

Thomas Edison, inventor and scientist

Today, as was discussing with a partner the opportunities I may have got. All I heard him ask would be....is there fund is there fund?? It's just pure consultant work, why do you need fund? They could offer 15-50% commission for you.........what do you want? I mean these wouldnt be the only jobs that he needs to take - it's on top of what he's been doing. So I moved on saying - it's OK if you dont feel like doing it, I will make sure once you share certain info, you will continue to get a portion of the commission I make. I think it's a win-win.

Why not ask if IT's FUN??? to me it's going to be super fun. haha. I want fun. I also want fund. But I want FUN more. Frankly, if the company would want to take risks to offer fund, why would they choose U? Why not another HUGE co? Just 3 little potatoes.....come on, do this and make it before asking it.

I think I will just play along with my core personality - NAIVE.

I always want to build an empire. haha. But I know I cant really do it the normal way, having a specific product on hand. Mine is soft skills. I want to utilize something I am good at, ie people want to work with me & trust me, and my intuition. With him as one of the people I would reveal rgd my projects, I am actually giving him a chance to do same as me......find a brand, a company that they trust you, then you can utilize the network too. However, I find that most people are not really concerned with the risks, they have no win-win in their mind. And they dont know what they want.

So I asked him what actually he wanted to do. He said, whatever that makes money. Ummm...........this will make money too, already told you it would not be a big sum in the beginning - it's like pocket money and to build our portfolio & credibility. And remember, you dont have to pay one cent except your time & sweat. (of coz he should specify how much money he wanted to make from any kind of project.....)

He's older than me, and more experienced than me. So I dont know who is rite or wrong. Maybe he's smart asking for fund. I am smart in thinking how to gain the fund without directly asking for the fund. He wants all the good countries. I secure the whole Asia. For me, whatever I am doing is a short term & long term strategies. He's thinking of forever getting benefits.

Do people know that there's no real eternity in your lifetime except your soul??

In conclusion, I hope by proving that he's right, he could convince someone to give its brand to Asia, using his terms. At least I did with one company and another one - most parts of Asia.

P.s.

I am not saying I am good. becoz I failed, dunno how many freaking times. One thing I learnt hard is that I relied on others but without taking charge on my own, I relied on people to supply me ideas, methods, rather than proactively find something I like & am good at. Same mindset as him- I also wanted to do whatever I could make money. Yet, I didnt make any money at all. hahahahaha................

To leave you with:

Top 20 entrepreneur quotes:

http://www.cheaprevolution.com/the_cheap_revolution/2007/11/top-20-entrepre.html

I esp like few:

- The entrepreneur in us sees opportunities everywhere we look, but many people see only problems everywhere they look. The entrepreneur in us is more concerned with discriminating between opportunities than he or she is with failing to see the opportunities - Michael Gerber, author, entrepreneur

-  Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover - Mark Twain, author

Family Issues

My dad is going nuts again
but this time I got no feeling
it's always a ready to explode bomb anyways
I already advise what we should do

However, I dont understand why he couldnt just be a normal decent being
for maybe 1 year
haha,....am I asking too much???

So if he's going to do whatever he's going to do
we will cut off our line of communication forever, most likely
Why he couldnt try to do something that he could be missed one day?
Not like he has another 100 years to live
why wanting our memory of him being a bad one?
It was a good one when I was young though he was crazy still
but at least somehow, despite he wasnt capable, I knew he cared for me & us

Now, I didnt feel that
sorry, memory isnt one shot
it needs substaining to get something good to carry on
memory cud be erased N faded

ie why, why u guyz need to shower your loved ones with luv constantly
becoz, we women forget easily too
hence we forgive very easily too
but.........wrt my dad......it's just abit tiring for his episodes

Parables

ummm, I never really understand parables or those stories that attach a meaning or lesson to it. Maybe coz when I was a baby, my parents didnt tell me many good stories, except Snow White, Cinderella...these more like make u wish for a VERY handsome prince riding on a donkey rescuing you. OK, I was affected by these stories for years.....now, of coz....no la...or less la.

I have made into a habit that I would read something everyday, I would love to go back to nonstop reading my books but I got no time & energy lately. So I read blogs and few pages of Bible and/or few pages of books, on top of researches that I have to read through online.

I find that I just dont get parables or stories. I prefer straighforward, heartstabbing, mindblowing messages - to click me, yea, so I become lazy to think.....but I just dont want to get its meaning, you know what I mean. Somehow they all sound so multi-dimensional, it could be either this or that. And the message is too vague....hey yo, teachers, if you are supposed to spread a message to the world, say it clearly and ideally in all possible languages. LOL

OK, maybe afterall, I am not that romantic.

No need for emphasis

I met up tonite a fren I gotta know thru biz when I was working in Watsons. He's french. I think maybe we met twice in CN but somehow we stayed in touch after 2-3 years. Last time he came to HK, I ditched him as I was looking for luv, haha,. nevermind. Yea, I wud sometimes ditch frenz.

So today, as we were drowning down the tequila, he introduced me to a Mexican gal. U know what, I met more than 5 expat from SH today, it's coz of HK sale. Wow.....Sale does hv its power, I mean I hadnt shopped for so long, I wasnt aware of the sale.....Anyways, so she was telling us about this french bf she just met.

She sounded so in luv. But they started off really fast. so both of us were saying to her, just take yr time & protect yourself, before jumping into it. And she was telling us thousand of reasons.....over N over N over.

And I have come to a conclusion. If it's true & real, there's no need for explanation. There's no need for clarification. Even the world doesnt believe in you, and u know it's TRUTH, go ahead and run for it. 

Honestly I couldnt remember I did explain alot, but as usual, I didnt like to explain too much either. Maybe here on the blog or in some emails, other than that, I couldnt bring myself to explain. Yet, in my head, I gave many excuses.....I guess we are all good frenz, rite? Do we need to justify why we are good frenz? No.

Then why when it comes to luv, sometimes we feel the need to?!?! maybe. it means it's not meant to be.

A thought to guide us, huh!?!?