First time in my life

I feel I am not weird enough, not crazy enough...............
Ar, it should be a good feeling, but how come I feel beaten
keke.

Feb Updates

It's been a strange month......no one weekend is free.

First, made 2 trips. First was BKK, then it's now Taiwan. Cant say it's fruitful, but make me believe in one thing, I have to press on no matter how difficult it is. And no one knows who wins until the end. And understanding another thing is sometimes to deal with abit cunning but smiling all the time business people, all you can do is to act dumb at times, and wait for the right timing to do stuff. Never over-react, which I have been doing pretty well. Not to frenz thou.....ha ha ha. Guess, my fren is rite, my pb is I have been alone all the time - true, I feel the whole world doesnt exist but me, no clue that there will be jam at 8ish, and packed at 6pm in MTR.....I must change this mentality.

Second, is my french biz partner. I got no clue why he wanted me to go to Taiwan with him, and he proposed he would bring me to Korea for the next biz trip. It's getting abit weird.....but anyways, what the hell, as long as I got opportunities, I could handle weird.

Third, had few ad hoc dates, ad hoc drinkz with frenz, as well, of coz ad hoc trips. What's with people? Why I got offer to travel with people lately.............it's just unusual in somewhat.

Forth, I just knew a "blue blood" guy that I met in BKK asked about me.......wow.....lol......I am glad I left some impression. Why is it called blue blood but not purple or yellow? weird.

Fifth, I feel so free without my dogs, like now alone in hotel.......I could sleep the whole nite w/o being woken up. The fact is I feel more tired......weird, again. I guess I am a masochist.

Sixth, I fell in luv with tequila. Again, weird, I used to hate that burning feeling.

Galz nite

Maybe it's my problem, but I start to dislike galz nite. :)

I prefer guyz nite.

More.

Indeed. Galz nite.....gossipz. Nothing deeper to talk, nothing more intelligent.

Even a simple joke, I need to be scrutinized, it's very boring.

So basically, the whole nite, I got nothing to contribute, except eating............I hate eating actually. 

So, now I couldnt sleep coz I got stomach pain.

And I felt like vomitting the food. The food was nice but I am not happy.

But one thing is I am happy to see my fren to be in luv. So, I delayed-action checked on her recent pics on FB and I could tell she's so in luv. I couldnt deny sometimes I want those pics too. It's indeed something extra-ordinary. I hope they can last and things will work out for them. 

Duet

Didnt know it's one of the soundtracks from Twilight New Moon, my new favourite. I listedned to this at a fren's bar, and I just wanted to die there. Dont read the lyrics first, but just close your eyes & listen.



Rachael Yamagata - Duet
Oh Lover, hold on
'till I come back again
For these arms are growin' tired,
And my tales are wearing thin

If you're patient I will surprise,
When you wake up i'll have come

All the angerwill settle down
And we'll go do all the things we should have done

Yes I remember what we said
As we lay down to bed
I'll be here if you will only come back home

Oh lover, i'm lost
Because the road i've chosen beckens me away

Oh lover, don't you rome
Now i'm fighting words I never thought i'd say

But I remember what we said
As we lay down to bed
I'll forgive you oh
If you just come back home

Hmmm mmmm
Hmmmm mmmm

Oh lover, I'm old
You'll be out there and be thinking just of me

And I will find you down the road
And will return back home to where we're meant to be

'cause I remember what we said
As we lay down to bed
We'll be back soon as we make history.

I AM ACTUALLY ADORABLE

OK, well, I gotta tell you, I am so full that I feel like vomitting.

As my fren's dinner was way too good N too much for me, I have stomach pain now.

Then, had few drinks with my frenz. Shit, since went to BKK Agogo bar, I start to really like tequilla. Big time, I just had 2 with other wines, no feeling. 

And my frenz who just told me they felt I wud be someone who would think of tedious, moliu stuff. Honestly, do I???? DO I give people just an impression? Anyways, people describe me as a butterfly and floating algae, I guess I do. But isnt that adorable?? I mean if you dont have butterflies in this world, it's gonna be really dull. It's my gift to the world. Actually they made it quite specific that I wasnt creative but only thought of ueseless stuff. Yet, seriously, isnt that the beginning of creative ideas-think of moliu (useless) stuff????

Dont get me wrong, I am opposite of mad. I am actually glad people tell me what they think as always 

But I am someone who is always curious to know. Actually I am always curious about many things, tiny thing, yes even tedious things. I like to dicipher stuff. I want to dissect every meaning to find the true underlining meaning. It's not an average brain ability to actually engulf such activities. I am adorable & have heavy brain matters.

I think in conclusion, I am just but an adorable ET. :)