galz

Well, I wanted to write about one kinda uptight galz but then I was so caught up with phone calls, I havnt started it. My god, staying in bed for 2 days made me work like nuts today...........I should thank the universe for offering so much things to gnaw on. Luv the word "gnaw" - so nasty & wicked!!!!!

1. Uptight galz

O well, I introduced this fren to a gang. I casually asked, since she has been looking for bf, if she liked anyone. She kinda "told me off" tone saying it's her affair. Hey, lighten up bitch! Was thinking if I would need to help you out. And maybe I wouldnt steal him.............lol

gosh, what's wrong with women??????>?>?????????????

Just say NO one lor if dont want anyone to know.....................DIU!

DENIAL is the BEST MEDICINE.

2. SWEET galz

I came up a phrase becoz from observing a genuine sweet gal. She's a selfless person. Really, I havnt seen more selfless person ever.  For her crazy boss, for her family, for her friends, for me........etc. Everyone has an agenda, honestly I constantly have an agenda esp now I am so on my own, also, I have learnt the value of being with myself. However, with her, I just told her - she couldnt be like this. One thing ie very important, being selfless doesnt mean you luv the world. I feel being selfless means you dont luv yourself enough. 

And 

NO ONE SHOULD LUV YOU MORE THAN YOU YOUSELF!!! 

Being sweet, giving in dont mean you could save the world. No No. You need to save yourself first, ie everyone's own responsibility, not someone's elses. However, for some it's very difficult as it's how one has been educated, brought up. It's totally nothing wrong for galz or even guyz like her occasionally ask "WHAT ABOUT ME!!??" "WHY ME?!" to show protest!

Not for you guyz, just for them exclusively!!! :) dont be rascal, my dears.

I hope they would one day learn the beauty of luving themselves. It is a hard process. Not easy, seriously. I hope they would think about themselves how to make their face less dry, how to make their spine less strained, how they could enjoy a good meal FOR themselves once in a while, how they would travel to places that they actually want to go, despite it's a stupid place, but not go to stupid places for someone else.

Luv U my sweet babygal, just dont ever do it again. Luv yourself first then you will have strength to "safeguard" others, not SAVE but safeguard. okok? xoxo

I have been bitten by a snake

Funny Story.

Oh, sorry, did I mention it's a dream?! haha

OK, as u know I had a dream about a golden pyton with 2 huge giant sea turtles.

Just now, I had another dream about snake. weird.

It seemed this snake - beige with some pattern - was supposed to be some sorta pet so it could roam around the room. I hate snake so it's not possible I wanted it so much to have one around me at all. Anyhow. The next scene was as usual (like the previous one) - Lottie showed up, this time Shadow also showed up. At first, shadow was chasing after it, so I was trying to separate them. It worked. But when the snake gnawed on Lottie, I couldnt break them apart, except using my hand to let it bite me instead. And it bit so hard that its teeth marks were so vivid. But I was fine, didnt die. I remembered saying to someone, Oh no big deal, just some marks. Next I went on a dinner, started drinking - then I felt that the venom mix with the alcohol so fast that I got drunk straighaway then fainted.

However, supposedly in dream life, things could vary alittle, Lottie's behaviour had no diff. She was trying to chase after it, even she was bitten badly - and we gotta use a divider to separate them. My goodness, why would I think I should keep a snake and do stuff to keep its quiet space?! Weird.

That will do it

A nasty flu made me want to see a doctor and take medicines. Finally.
It all started, I believe, from my 4 hr sandy slopey uphill hiking trail. The reward was awesome and the landscape was amazing. But I think it aggravated the flu blown effect and I was half dead for 2 days until I saw a doctor this morning. I wanted to cry to the doctor as I couldnt even speak properly. I couldnt open my mouth properly as well.

Anyhow, I am fine now. But it's good to be able to sleep non stop basically for hours & hours, which as you know hard to come by for me.

Then I got this obsessive idea that I wanted to discard my dog Lottie as she's just so pain in the ass, mess up my place the way she sees fit, and she plays with poopoo constantly with or without me around. I hate it with guts. But as I was working on my desk, she was sleeping under my chair waiting for me - my heart melted again. Sigh, she's stuck with me, or I should say I am stuck with her. I am moving to a new place - cheaper with a balcony. I am going to remodel so much that she cant do much damges to my stuff......what I call - Lottie-proof house. haha......

Sigh!