Time.
Time scares me in sometimes to a point of attacking my lung breathing system.
As I was going through some of my entries, I realized some were written in end July....and I was thinking, what!? I thought I did it last week. Gosh, I feel I have wasted my almost 3 quarters of my year on just....doing nothing but.......doing stuff & pondering stuff. GOSH. GOSHHHHHH!
OK, I have 4 more months to redeem something - I want some form of measurable achievement. Let me see.
But thou, I made alotta learning about myself, my search, so I really cant say my 2011 is a big waster. Of coz, I still want to wish it could have been better. :P But okok, I am content with so far whatever has happened to me, despite some deep lows. Yet, I feel I am stronger in my mind & heart muscles. I like my life analyst telling me.....I am just going through the darkest hour before DAWN. And ie my way of tidying up my house, first make a mess then....look from above, decide how to categorize, then fix it. Yes I prefer messing up things before making it right, coz I am just abit nuts in this scenario, and this style suits me better. I hope, my dawn is coming soon....and I know SHE will. :)
Have a good weekend, everyone!
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