More good people or More bad people

Maybe it's an asian culture. But as you were growing up, you always heard your mom, your dad, your grandmom, your aunt, your uncle, your teacher, your tutor, your anyone around you telling you every other day that LOOK OUT!!! DONT TALK TO PEOPLE!!! MANY BAD PEOPLE.

OK, now you are grown up. You still hear your mom, your dad, your boyfriend, your girlfriend, your husband, your wife, your boss, your NEWS, your everything reminding you over & over- DONT TRUST NO ONE!! PEOPLE ARE BAD. ARE YOU SURE YOU WILL GET YOUR PAYCHECK!!??? ARE YOU SURE THEY ARE NOT OUT TO STEAL YOUR MONEY, YOUR STUFF, YOUR INFO, YOUR BOYFRIEND, YOUR HUSBAND??

Sigh! I think I am a gullible person.

I made a calculation seriously, when I was working in S'pore. By the way, I am not very fond of s'porean, maybe due to the fact I had 2-ex there and I lived with one of their mom before. (hahah!!) Why I was so 'free & crazy" making such a math? Coz I always grew up to think everyone was bad, and they were out to get you!!!!!! Look, just take a look at the people on the street in Asia (e.g  HK, Taiwan, China, S'pore) - they all look miserable esp if they are walking alone. They dont smile. They look so alarmed always. Some are even jaded or emotionless or motionless- like a pile of numb corpses walking around.

My calculation conclusion is there are way more good people in the world than bad people. I admit there are people out there that dont have a good conscience. However, the people usually around you, me, them are always, pretty OK! Of coz, I did meet some bad people, but really, very small handful or even a fingerful ONLY.

I hence have been preserving myself not to think bad about people as much as I can. Still, the childhood reminder has lived with me for over 30 odd years, it's not easy just to dump this shit. But I try, try very hard. And I gotta say, my consistency hasnt failed me much yet. And honestly, what's there much for me to lose? Money? Sleep? Body? Life?

I basically use more energy to fend off those reminders from my dad,  my mom, my friends, my  brother, my sister, my husband, my boyfriend, my wife, my girlfriend, my daughter, my son............................COME ON! When you put into right perspectives, you could live abit lighter each day.

Cheerioo, Hong Kong Babies!

A Popular French Diet (REVISED)

French nowadays is trying to follow this diet, my french fren shared the secret with me. I am going to start on Monday!!!! It's kind of like Atkins. But somehow, I find this to be quite easy to follow. 

Here is the script......

First ONE week

1. Morning - healthy cake with plain yogurt

2. Lunch & dinner - meat, meat, meat and tofu

No fruits, vege & little alcohol

Then thereafter:

First 3 days following the above ONE week meat diet, you can start introducing vegetables, and then next 3 days just meat diet (as above) then alternatively another 3 days meat+vege, on & on for one whole month regime!!!  Morning, the healthy cake.

My friend who ate ALL YOU CAN EAT meat daily, he still could manage to lose 2 Kg. While, my french friend, she's already pretty skinny and she lost around 3-5Kg following the one month regime. 

The concept behind is to trick your body to work harder (this is what a protein diet could offer), while reducing carbohydrate is actually good for your health - reducing sluggishness, water retention & fatigue.

Here are the recipe & my suggestion:

1. Meat = seafood, fish, beef, lamb, pork......................
Apart from Salmon, lambchop, etc. I guess you could make some chinese soup - eat all the meat but not the vegetables that come with. It's nourishing & filling!!

2. Healthy Cake:

- 4 tablespoons oat bran (optional + 1 spoon Wheat bran)
- 1 egg white
- 2-3 tablespoons yogurt
- 1 teaspoon baking powder
- 1 teaspoon aspartame (fake sugar) or one pack of Equal you can steal from Starbucks :D
- a bit of flavour (I use vanilla)

Time needed: 

3-4 minutes in microwave (using silicone mould) or

8-10 minutes in Oven until it turns brown (around 180-200C), around 2 muffin size tray.

This cake is really healthy by looking at the ingredients and you can eat this as snack or as breakfast, I reckon. It supplies the fiber you need (esp for the first 2 weeks you have little intake on fiber).

3. The yogurt I use is non-fat plain yogurt which you can get at International/Welcome/Taste/360/Citysuper & alike. 

4. For tofu, she mixes tofu with a can of tuna or salmon. Actually it tastes not bad.  Or, grill a porkchop or steak, tofu as the side dish. But, eating tofu alone could be very delicious too. (I like the japanese tofu from Jusco, or just get a pack of "mountain water tofu" from Welcome) 

5. I feel I could follow this diet better, the trick is on the cake as it's a pretty filling one. Good for going to toilet as it packs with oat bran!

Any queries, feel free to ask. I will use all my intelligence to answer. 

STAY FIT!

NOBODY

I always giggle when I see this MTV. So freakishly funny. I am going to learn the Wonder GIRLS dance too. lol

Wordsss of the WEEK 2 - Dawnism, Dawnish, Dawniqustic

I think alot of kids would make up of their own language while growing up. And I was one of them. Of coz, I always talked to my split self, and later on, to my imaginery crowd where I would give a speech. haha, I dont think I told anyone before, maybe my roomate Ellie in Melb (?) However, I got more into it when I was in high school or University (dont recall when). I think I really had a notebook jotting down the dawnish sound/word/meaning!!!

Of coz, I got bored by it after a while as it's indeed not an easy task to create my own dawniqustic dialect, even though I so wanted to be the best scholar in my own language (as earthly literature is way too diffcult for me).

Anyhow, this kinda "creating a language" is still imprinted deeply in me, so those who have talked to me more, know that I always come up with english-but-not-english words!! And I want to further develop in it, so I will make a point to create a word/a phrase every week. 

You may yell - SCHIZO! Honestly, I always think I am borderline ONE.

OK, today, Dawnism/Dawnish/Dawniqustic which are pretty much self-explanatory and not funny. Stay tune for next week. :D

Interesting Name - Han Han

My very first time at HK Book Fair.

There, I came across some book promotional material - it says something Han Han (韓寒). I just found the name to be real funny - as both characters actually sound the same "HAN". The second HAN referrs to "COLD, CHILLING". And I thought he's from Korea as his surname 韓 is pretty much Korean most popular surname.

As I was browsing yahoo news, I recognize this Han Han name. Actually there were few entries about him yesterday! I was surprised, so I read on & did a bit of research on him. He's actually  a post-80 gen  car racer / writter / blogger. He has more than 4 Mil fanz at his Sina Blog (The China Facebook) and "With more than 300 million hits to his blog, he may be the most popular living writer in the world." He, I believe, in somewhat represents how many chinese people of our era think & feel.

I saw some of his interviews, he's abit what in HK called "inch mouth" but I think he's very intelligent in making his hostile comment, always with a smile while not using abrasive language to address a govt issue, rather, he expresses it in such a way that I dont think the govt could really put blame on him.

To sum up, I am not a political conscious person, seriously. But I believe we need to be trendy enough in knowing what the heck is going on in our society & gen. For me, I dont like looking at the so-called Big picture - the economic upheaval, the world leaders debating with their own self. Rather, I observe the "minority" , the little things, the tiny events. I dont want to explain too much why..............hahaha. It's just my political view. :)

Some reading rgd HanHan.
(C) http://hk.news.yahoo.com/article/100722/3/jax3.html
(C) http://www.metrohk.com.hk/index.php?cmd=detail&id=139756
(C) http://zh.wikipedia.org/zh-tw/%E9%9F%A9%E5%AF%92

(E) http://www.nytimes.com/2010/03/13/world/asia/13hanhan.html?pagewanted=1&_r=2
(E) http://chinadigitaltimes.net/2010/01/asia-weekly-interview-with-han-han-i/
(E) http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Han_Han

A Little Bit Broken

I was woken up by my Shadow's cough - well, I should say her nightmare. I turned on the light to check on her, realizing on her shiny black hair lie some grey hair. I know it's inevitable, and she's actually in good health. My vet already said I maintained my dog really well, as for her kind by 6 yo, they would tend to appear "old" "fat" with "alotta grey hair".

But I couldnt help it but started sobbing. I am so afraid she would get sick (including Lottie) - as I couldnt afford for their vet fees at the moment. So I told them, pls dont get sick for now.......I am working hard to change the situation. I hope they get my meaning.

Looking at Shadow, I sometimes think how lucky I am to have such a crazy dog. She eats anything and everything. She jumps like a cat. She runs like a real mad dog. She plays like there's no tomorrow. She sleeps like a baby.

She's already 10yo, turning 11 actually. I heard her kind could live upto 15, 18 or so. My hope is she would stay alive with me till at least 15 yo. I dont want her to suffer. I want it to be a healthy death (hahahah.....what's that word??!!) But yes, healthy death. Not much pain. Not much sorrow. 

It's just strange to say that she has been with me for over 10 years. I dont even remember I keep something for 10 years or been in a relationship for that long. How can one not feel sad when death seems so imminent even though silly me has already secretly prepared for that day 10 years ago,  on the very first day I took her home?! 

Arrrghhh.......

I will buy some good snack for her tomorrow. And give her a great walk this weekend. 

(I love this picture, she looks like an ET dog with beaming eye weapon)

Horrible News of Today

DAWN row ends in tragedy

WHAT??? AGAIN???? IT's IN shaukeiwan, near where I live....hahaha, many mins away. I almost thought they were referring me!!! And I almost thought, it's my parents - they dont live in the same area though. Sounds like them!!!

Nowadays, why HK pple want to kill everyone sleeping next to them???? It's a tragedy, indeed. 60 yo committing such a tragedy!!! It's like almost going to be the end of their lives, shouldnt they be alittle bit more ligtened up, they are gonna hit the life/death tunnel anytime soon anyways!!!

All I can say is that he was creative enough not to use chopping KNIFE!

(Chin) http://hk.news.yahoo.com/article/100721/4/ja6n.html
(Eng) http://www.thestandard.com.hk/news_detail.asp?pp_cat=30&art_id=100810&sid=28980223&con_type=1&d_str=20100722

15 yo teen CHOPPED UP mother & sister claiming "fewer people on this planet is good"

(Chin) http://hk.news.yahoo.com/article/100722/4/jaef.html
(Eng) http://www.rthk.org.hk/rthk/news/englishnews/news.htm?hightlight&20100722&56&685377

Man, I used to live in Riveria Garden. It was a nice neighbourhood. I have nothing much to comment on this, I just always feel sad for youth wasting their youth, destroying themselves & others like that. I am sad for the HK parents, they never take (most of them) time or even learn to take time to understand THIS GEN. It's a confused GEN. It's actually, on the contrary to some's belief, the unfortunate GEN. (note: material =/=fortunate)

One word, SAD.

HABITUALLY retarded (REVISED)

OMG!!!!! What's happening to HONG KONG people!!!??? Lately, I realize some are getting so retarded, it has become their habits to be retarded. Like, they will die to be less retarded. Just saw an article by Dark Side HK.

Guess someone is sharing similar ideas:
http://thedarkside.hk/2010/07/22/are-our-kids-becoming-retarded/

Case 1:
How hard it is to give out an address or direction in HK ISLAND!!! OK, fine, Kln side, assumed to be abit more confusing, but man.............HK ISLAND, CAUSEWYABAY, WAN CHAI.

"What! Opposite to NEWAY karaoke!? Plz get that person to give the exact address" "Oh yes Neway Karaoke in causewaybay." "No, ask for the address!!! Every karaoke belongs to Neway now and there could be THREE neway in causewaybay" "OK, OK neway Karaoke"

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Case 2:

"Hey, it's not even my product! I DONT even have the product with me!" "YOU ARE WRONG" "But Europeans are not that "diligent" in changing words or things to improve the artwork or whatsoever, are you sure it's not correct!" "YOU ARE WRONG. YOU GO AND CHECK THE OLD ONE" " I dont have the old one. (my heart is filled with rage so I tried to find back the old one) " "YOU ARE WRONG LA, RITE?!" " FUCKER, IT"S FUCKING SAME. U HAVE BEEN CHECKING WITH YOUR OLDER OLDDIE RECORD. ARE YOUR STAFF RETARDED!!!!!!"

Their staff checked the wrong one. And they OWN the product!!!!!!!!!!!!

Case 3:

The same staff as Case 2. I hate people not using email but keep calling enquiring really really REALLY idiotic question like:

"WHAT!?" "I want to ask about a word." "Shoot!" "What's the meaning of insensitive?" "Errr....HUH??!!!! AGAIN, plz" " IN-sensitive" "Er...........It's NOT sensitive" "I-N-S-E-N-S-I-T-I-V-E" " I know! It means NOT sensitive" "but it's not in the dictionary" "Er....huh!? well, everything with the "in" in front is the opp of the actual meaning" "O, are you sure?"

If she works under me, I fire her on the FIRST day!

Case 4:

Same staff as case 2 & 3.

After making 4 missed calls to me. Finally she got hold of me, I didnt really want to pick up the phone as what's so urgent to call 4 times but with no URGENT emails?

"YES?" "Dawn plz" "I AM - arent you calling my mobile no?" "I want to confirm if you recieve the email I sent you" "YES" "Then why didnt you reply me to say you recieved?" "You didnt ask me to, also I am waiting for the other side feedback before giving you a full reply" "O, but we are worried you didnt recieve" "PLS ask me such Q in email next time!!!!"

IN this modern world, urgency = EMAIL (with Urgent Urgent signal) BEFORE you CALL SOMEONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks, it's good to be venting out a little here, as I talk to my dogs only now.

Getting ready for 21Dec2012

I always want to tell people, it may not be that day, but who cares?! Kinda signify the "end time" or "renewal time"! I re-watch the documentary of 2012. I wont dwell much on that yet today, but I believe somehow near somewhere around that time, our modern world may be affected by....possibly solar flares?! Anyways, somewhere I read that there would be times of darkness, so basically - it means things such as electricty, telecommunication (satalite of coz all fire-up la) - would be gone. Dont even think too much about towngas, my friend. Everything even the town gas , water providers provide utlity by electricity.

My suggestion of preparation, even so jokingly said, still may not be uesless:

1. GET stock up on candels. Ie what I am doing, but mainly nicely scented ones. I am stocking one bit by bit and I encourage people giving me presents of candels too. Think about it, if they have nice smells, even lo and behold this thing is a hoax, you still can make good use of the nice smell.

2. Can food and can opener. Forget about cup noodles or instant noodles. U dont have fire, how to open a fire to boil some water! Unless you have the independant gas cooker with many spare gas cans. That may not be a bad idea. Let me invest one some day. It's good for hotpot anyways!

3. Water. Alot of Water. or just wine bottles. Forget about beers, they taste horrible if they are not chilled. Remember, you wont have a fridge when you got no electricity!

4. Try to move to a house or lower level apartment. No electricity means no elevator.

5. Buy a dove and train it. So they can deliver your msg to your family & frenz. No mobile commincation, forget about texting!


Then of coz, some of us already have dates on that night to party outside, together with our dogs!!!!! Feel Free to Come Along. Venue, TBC.

THE FALL with Lee Pace

The FALL has become one of my fav pictures lately. I watched 3 times, I still cried. I somehow could so get the character Roy's (by Lee Pace) mental struggles, while I sometimes feel like I am as gullible as the child Alexandria.

Tarsem the director & screenplayer had this movie vision for 17 years and another 4 years to put all these together. Film location was taken from 24 places from Namibia, India Taj Mahal, Butterfly Reef, Prague,....etc. Not much Blue screen thingie. Just by seeing all these landscapes, it's worth getting the DVD. In addition, the whole production was largely funded by Tarsem himself. 

The interaction between Roy & Alexandria was only partly scripted, it was very much from the child actor point of view Cantinca in dealing with Roy being bedridden, the epic storytelling......

Tarsem actually made Pace pretend to be wheelchair-bound during the whole filming period (7.5 weeks), the whole crew including the child actor Catinca were not aware of his perfect walking ability! And amazingly, the whole crew had the same paycheck, everyone of them! Lee Pace was already known by his role in Soldier's Girl - SAME CHEQUE!!

After reading the commentary, I am even more touched & encouraged to share this to everyone, because, what's more inspiring to be inspired by a passionate & committed person & team (regardless of what the heck they are doing)!!!!

Of coz Catinca was amazingly adorable in her demeanor & every move - as it's genuinely coming out from a 6 yo child.

While, Lee Pace is such a handsome & amazing actor. I think he may very likely be the only real american actor I am fond of nowadays (others tend to be british, aussies doing american movies). He had a leading role in Pushing Daisies, sadly it was cancelled.  The fantasy world love story was so beautfully shot. I hope he will become a more prominent figure at theatres in coming years!

I highly recommend everyone to see this movie, as to me it's such a genuine effort with passion &vision! Of coz, magnificient location, location!

P.S.

- Lee Pace has such an deep amazing voice , too. I always have a thing for tall (6'3") & manly voice man!!
- At the wedding scene, the music was sung by russian church choir or opera (I couldnt recall) - they were mumbling "googly googly...." - it's the magic world for the child to cast the worries away, while Googly is the film house producing The Fall.
- In the epic, Roy was referring indian as the "red indian"  hence using the term "squaw", while in the picture you saw it's the india indian coz the fantasy scenes were from the child Alexandria's perspectives.
- Elephants can swim. :)

Thai Boxing

My very first time.

Honestly, I hate the noise when your legs banging the punch mitts or the punching bags. I realize I really hate violence so much. The concept of hitting each other for fun to me is unbearable.

But I will still go, as I find it to be good workout and a good way to train my motor co-ordination. I have hard time to keep upto steps, ie why I so hated aerobics!!

if U hvnt done much exercise, it's time to do some! Even ME got sthg done lately!!

Amy Winehouse

She's one of my fav singers. I like her oddity. Her strange hairstyle. Her makeup. She tattoos.
I can totally identify with her, w/o the drug abuse issue though. :D

I used to listen to her songs while jogging. But lately I have changed to Lady Gaga, as her songs make me jog just alittle bit more. Maybe due to the allegedly higher testosterone level that makes the songs more exercisable!

Amy Winehouse



Lyrics:
Meet you downstairs in the bar and heard
Your rolled up sleeves in your skull T-shirt
You say, "What did you do with him today?"
And sniffed me out like I was Tanqueray

'Cause you're my fella, my guy
Hand me your Stella and fly
By the time I'm out the door
You tear men down like Roger Moore

I cheated myself
Like I knew I would
I told you, I was trouble
You know that I'm no good

Upstairs in bed with my ex-boy
He's in a place but I can't get joy
Thinking on you in the final throes
This is when my buzzer goes

Run out to meet you, chips and pitta
You say, "When we married", 'cause you're not bitter
There'll be none of him no more
I cried for you on the kitchen floor

I cheated myself
Like I knew I would
I told you, I was trouble
You know that I'm no good

Sweet reunion Jamaica and Spain
We're like how we were again
I'm in the tub, you on the seat
Lick your lips as a I soak my feet

And then you notice likkle carpet burns
My stomach drop and my guts churn
You shrug and it's the worst
Who truly stuck the knife in first

I cheated myself
Like I knew I would
I told you, I was trouble
You know that I'm no good

I cheated myself
Like I knew I would
I told you, I was trouble
Yeah, you know that I'm no good

Another Version by Arctic Monkeys



Faster beats but still sound great.

Shoe Fetish to Counting the Sacrifice.

I usually do a weekly or monthly "count the blessing" evaluation to make me more positive.

I WAS and still am (if I could) a Shoe Fetish. I couldnt control the compulsion to buy shoes at all. All kinds of shoes, mainly heels from 2" to maybe even 5-6". 5-6" type of coz was preparing for fun at home only. keke. I think I buy 4-6 pairs a month. Joyce or Lane crawford warehouse is the one I frequently visited, whether I would have any conquest or not.

Since I started my own consultant business, it's been tough. Really. My partner is changing his mind constantly. The company that I partner with keeps changing their senior mgt. My clients are delaying orders. I am constantly not getting right info to move forward, so I am so afraid I am going to lose few clients, and consequently few big orders. My income is basically zero for past 6 months, lets NOT talk about the first 9 months I moved back from GZ.

Now, I am re-arranging my furniture, tidying up some stuff. I realize I havent bought any new shoes for maybe a year+++.  But I got 2 new pairs, one from Cindy - Havanna Purple SLIPPERS!!!! And Jacqueline - a black sandal she couldnt fit in. They are both bday presents. I thank them for adding some freshness in my shoe collection finally.

It's NOT a blog of despair. Rather, I think it's time to remind me not to give up. I am SOMETHING!!! I know, You know, GOD knows!!! So today I am counting the sacrifice. I have been diligently making few sacrifices to advance my biz. 

1. No more shoes

2. No more travelling (havent gone anywhere for pleasure for over 2 years!)

3. No eating-out as much (maybe once every 2 weeks, ie why I keep saying No to some of my frenz)

4. No hanging out much 

5. No going to movie theater much (got cheap dvd instead)

6. No more nice & expensive fashion (but this tests how stylish I could be even on a shoe-string)

7. No more new gadgets

8. No new bags

9. Lack of massage, pedicure, manicure..................................

All these are so-called sacrifices - I luv & adore. I used to feel I would die if I couldnt have them! But making these sacrifice, that has to have a return. So I CANNOT give up. I have to move on. I believe the god/the universe will reward people like me. Who wouldnt give a sweet to a challenger, an adventurer?!?!

Afterall, it's a fair world in the spirtual realm.

Movies Ten Times

I realize, I have many TV & movie addicts around me as my good frenz. Suppose like attracts like in this scenario - a homovisual attraction.

I have been thinking what movies I have maybe watched more than 10 times, and I am going to watch another 100 times before I die. Here are a few.

1. Unbearable Lightness of Being

I knew about this through my high school teacher. He always quoted this movie title to me as an inspiration sort when we dwelled on the topics like "what's life?" "opening door to the reality"  "knowing onself" "becoming aware".....etc. pretty darn heavy stuff for a 16yo gal.

The Original

I guess this is an upset "taglines", I am going to change it but I believe I should leave it here too. I am going to change the "profile" in a second.

The original:
I started this blog coz I am bored, I am dying, I am going to kill myself so if you happen to read this, plz prepare I am 80% talking about dark side. PLZ PLZ dont tell me to cheer up, to find other options, to whatever consoling U think it works for u, as I guarantee U, 1000% it's not going to work on me!!! Just be a human to read and listen then to me, it's comforting. But welcome to comment....whatever....say whatever, but no console plz. Cheers!

Word of the Week - Shitperience!

I have never been a real mother, so I am not so sure about changing diaper. My dad just told me once I had a projectile shitting weapon when I was of coz a baby, now shitting is becoming more hardened, supposed it comes with age. :P

Everyone knows I have 2 dogs. What I havent exactly told everyone is that they like to PLAY and yes EAT shits. I got no idea why they like doing so. My sis said, feed them more so they dont get hungry. So I tried but I dont want them to be too fat as it's super shitty for their backs. OK, then some say TRY pineapple. As somehow pineapple will make the shits less....palatable(!?)........still, somehow they keep on shitting N eating.

So I cant tell u how shittily joyable when I see shits, instead of no shits at the dog toilet. I luv picking up the shits.To me, it's the most reassuring moment when I see shits there..........as everytime that tricks me to think, O maybe they have grown up.

Yes ie why I find seeing shits could be a joyful experience. Lets call it Shitperience.