I was woken up by my Shadow's cough - well, I should say her nightmare. I turned on the light to check on her, realizing on her shiny black hair lie some grey hair. I know it's inevitable, and she's actually in good health. My vet already said I maintained my dog really well, as for her kind by 6 yo, they would tend to appear "old" "fat" with "alotta grey hair".
But I couldnt help it but started sobbing. I am so afraid she would get sick (including Lottie) - as I couldnt afford for their vet fees at the moment. So I told them, pls dont get sick for now.......I am working hard to change the situation. I hope they get my meaning.
Looking at Shadow, I sometimes think how lucky I am to have such a crazy dog. She eats anything and everything. She jumps like a cat. She runs like a real mad dog. She plays like there's no tomorrow. She sleeps like a baby.
She's already 10yo, turning 11 actually. I heard her kind could live upto 15, 18 or so. My hope is she would stay alive with me till at least 15 yo. I dont want her to suffer. I want it to be a healthy death (hahahah.....what's that word??!!) But yes, healthy death. Not much pain. Not much sorrow.
It's just strange to say that she has been with me for over 10 years. I dont even remember I keep something for 10 years or been in a relationship for that long. How can one not feel sad when death seems so imminent even though silly me has already secretly prepared for that day 10 years ago, on the very first day I took her home?!
Arrrghhh.......
I will buy some good snack for her tomorrow. And give her a great walk this weekend.
(I love this picture, she looks like an ET dog with beaming eye weapon)
Ahhh shadow! I've never slept w a dog till shadow forced herself into my bed! I was SO irritated then but now I smile at the memory!
ReplyDeletehaha, indeed. Her stealth being & poking nose do make her way to anywhere.
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