Shoe Fetish to Counting the Sacrifice.

I usually do a weekly or monthly "count the blessing" evaluation to make me more positive.

I WAS and still am (if I could) a Shoe Fetish. I couldnt control the compulsion to buy shoes at all. All kinds of shoes, mainly heels from 2" to maybe even 5-6". 5-6" type of coz was preparing for fun at home only. keke. I think I buy 4-6 pairs a month. Joyce or Lane crawford warehouse is the one I frequently visited, whether I would have any conquest or not.

Since I started my own consultant business, it's been tough. Really. My partner is changing his mind constantly. The company that I partner with keeps changing their senior mgt. My clients are delaying orders. I am constantly not getting right info to move forward, so I am so afraid I am going to lose few clients, and consequently few big orders. My income is basically zero for past 6 months, lets NOT talk about the first 9 months I moved back from GZ.

Now, I am re-arranging my furniture, tidying up some stuff. I realize I havent bought any new shoes for maybe a year+++.  But I got 2 new pairs, one from Cindy - Havanna Purple SLIPPERS!!!! And Jacqueline - a black sandal she couldnt fit in. They are both bday presents. I thank them for adding some freshness in my shoe collection finally.

It's NOT a blog of despair. Rather, I think it's time to remind me not to give up. I am SOMETHING!!! I know, You know, GOD knows!!! So today I am counting the sacrifice. I have been diligently making few sacrifices to advance my biz. 

1. No more shoes

2. No more travelling (havent gone anywhere for pleasure for over 2 years!)

3. No eating-out as much (maybe once every 2 weeks, ie why I keep saying No to some of my frenz)

4. No hanging out much 

5. No going to movie theater much (got cheap dvd instead)

6. No more nice & expensive fashion (but this tests how stylish I could be even on a shoe-string)

7. No more new gadgets

8. No new bags

9. Lack of massage, pedicure, manicure..................................

All these are so-called sacrifices - I luv & adore. I used to feel I would die if I couldnt have them! But making these sacrifice, that has to have a return. So I CANNOT give up. I have to move on. I believe the god/the universe will reward people like me. Who wouldnt give a sweet to a challenger, an adventurer?!?!

Afterall, it's a fair world in the spirtual realm.