Cause & Effect

I think how a regret springs from your mind is esp, esp, when you dont understand Cause & Effect. It's always because & therefore. So & Since. I have been using this cause & effect alot lately when I am pondering on my past life. I remember I first vowed to myself I wouldnt have regrets in my life since I broke up with my first bf.

I think we had an arguement in the stupid freaking hot humid S'pore and he told me if I would to leave S'pore & him, I would REGRET for the rest of my life. HAHA. That was so amusing to me that I turned (like in a movie - Gone with the Wind when on last scene Scarlet vowed to herself that she would protect the land) to him & said - if my true regret wud for me to tell you now is that I should have left u long time ago. hehe....there N then I decided not to regret. Always ponder the consequences before action.

These 2 years, I couldnt say I was so strong to be able to say No Regret, but close enough. I know, I know, I kept saying my life has been tough...blablah. But it has been really, tough. And despite I should regret for certain choices I should NOT have made, but the fact is - I DID make those choices. Cause & Effect Applies......well, yes I couldnt know the future, but it was within the formula, when I made the decision - the potential consequences wud be in the formula. The thing is - I equated the formula and forgot there would be an X, more than one variable. Whenever an equation with more than 1 variable, things could be different, it's no longer a Yes & No. (sorry, maybe more than 2 variables, but I am more talking about life situation disguised in an equation)

These few weeks, my mind has been revolving. So I become more calm N quiet as things I am pondering is abit beyond life science. haha.......I got no solution, but as I observe around people....it's always cause & effect. And it sounds so simple, and actually it is. The thing is people dont apply that in their lives but just focus on the results with much regrets or remorse. 

I dare say, i dont hv much of either. I am not saying I am happy with my life, actually not at all. Coz I caused myself in such situation, SO I have to live with it. Now, I need to jump to another Cause & Effect Cycle to vindicate certain residual side effects. Ai......

I just feel like blablah, as I sometimes just need to blablah. :)