Angel & Demon

As I always say, I believe in fairies and fairy tales. I luv the cartoon - Little Mermaid the most, as I repeat thousand of times. Recently, I started on another search - spiritual aspects and practices. 

I have been reading alot of paranormal, ancient civilization materials, as I am really intrigued by the "past", ie why my first goal when I was maybe 10 was to be an archeologist. I wanted to discover, uncover the truth or mystery....and I even envisioned that by the time now, we could actually travel to the past like Back to the Future. I think, I was 8 or 7 - I already had a theory in my head (something like Back to the Future movie). Moments exist within moments. We could co-exist at the same moment. Ie why we would have Deja Vu. I believe it's some sort of spring theory in chaos moments, like one in thousandth second before in another dimension, I just erased the previous word and started making this sentence. Anyhow, I dunno, I never then further explore, but it rooted deeply in my head of my theory - so ie why I always spaced out hence my whole family thought and still think I am an idiot. hehe

After 2.5 yrs of my state, I finally picked up myself to want to learn something new. So, I just said a prayer of some sort, not even really meaning it, but more like a trade. "OK, if you give me this, I will go further in the search. But you have to show me HOW"  And somehow, words came to mind, and materials fell on my laps, next would be everytime I asked a question, some material would show up and answer me in its specific way (similar experience when I joined the church back in Melb......). But this time, I was taking it easy, wasnt like before, zeal without knowledge, on fire without extinguisher. The experience is so familiar that makes me become even more cautious to a moment of feeling awe with a touch of sacredness in it. 

The magic of click and realization is amazing.....:)

Anyhow, below is one example. I was thinking to myself - well, I know my demons. Actually, I met some before....more like spirits. And I hvnt known my guardian angels yet, so I was thinking since yesterday - ummm.....do they exist?

By Paulo Coelho
Knowing how to ask for help
When he suffers some injustice, a warrior generally seeks to remain alone – so as not to show his pain to others.

This behavior is both good and bad at the same time.

It is one thing to allow your heart to gradually cure its own wounds. Another is to remain in deep meditation every day, afraid of appearing to be weak.

Within each of us there is an angel and a demon, and their voices are very similar. Faced with a difficulty, the demon nourishes solitary conversation, by showing us how vulnerable we are. The angel makes us reflect on our attitudes, and sometimes uses someone else’s tongue to manifest itself.

A warrior balances loneliness and dependency, with the help of others."

Not commenting if I agree with him or not, but it makes me very thankful - I have both. This is what I went through past 2 years - solitude with reflection of attitude. I think people tend to grumble about their misfortune, yet, many a time - it's a time to indeed reflect on the attitude. And it's a LUCK indeed if one could experience both and understand - so next time we can do better. Yet, I am just so thrilled that somehow I know I have them, but I am yet to encounter them face to face and to differentiate their voices. 

I am starting to pray that I will meet them and tell them apart. Despite, I believe in fairies, I never thought there were guardian angels - as I never felt I was protected. But.....now.....all is good. all is fine. ^^