Update June11

OK, I didnt read any books today, it's a good thing. I need to take a break - I think I read more than 5 in a week. Yes, I have addiction problem - I could go on without sleep just doing something. But nowadays, I could control myself better. Somehow, from those writers, I found another world, another me. I am just so excited to see me rekindle in exploration - man, U guyz will have earful. Da Me is gonna pollute the world with all my theories and thoughts and blahhhhhhhh.

And I wrote an email to my Maus. Well, becoz I sent him horrible msg couple of weeks ago or maybe said something bad here. But you know.....I dont think I should pollute someone's mind with negative thoughts, and I shouldnt do that to myself too. I was angry, indeed, but then I could hv stopped it before as well. And he's not an asshole, he has a good heart - just that everything went wrong. So I apologized. And the truth was I examined myself for weeks - was it infatuation? I wanted to believe it was - becoz it's easier for my ego to subside the feeling, but then after several things happening - I think he meant something different to me. I couldnt say what, just different. Maybe we crossed path in another life and we just got to meet this life to complete the cycle. haha, BULLSHITS. :P But I think Universe used him as a vessel to open my eyes for something bigger, yet to come, and I should be grateful for him by being used.....hehe.....so that I could rekindle my interest in pursuing truth, and regain my enthusiasm to expand myself in another level (which, isnt what I had been asking for????)

"God uses loneliness to teach us about living together. Sometimes he uses anger so that we can understand the infinite value of peace. At other times he uses tedium (boredom, routine, mundane), when he wants to show us the importance of adventure and leaving things behind"

My blog has miraculously lasted for a year, which I didnt know I could do it. But I did. And I am proud to say that I have been writing every week, without missing a week so far, no matter I am happy or not. And the idea of writing a book is no longer just talk....I am indeed exploring the possibility. Not now, but someday, yet this idea is growing inside.

Yes, well rgd the haunted. Actually the master said I got THREE male spirits following me, I asked him to remove them....haha, then I thought if it would be possible to be the father, son & spirit? :P...not trying to blasphemy, JUST KIDDING!!!!

My dogs are well. They eat more than me, as usual. I am luving them more & more, esp Lottie, as she's always sitting somewhere near me, just to check if mom is OK or not (even when I go to toilet).

Friends, well, I have to say - I am so so blessed with so many good frenz. Some new, Some old. We dont see each other often, but then we are there for each other. We challenge each other to excel, to be different, at least they challenge me....:) Whilst, I want to say, I luv U all, just because.

I might be working with a german lady and so I wanted to learn some german, first off, I want to get myself interested so I listened to songs. I find some german songs sound like thai songs....anyways the one below is very nice. Actually, this singer Herbert Gronemeyer's wife died, and I think this song was a dedication to her. Luv it. Hope U like too.

Der Weg

THE WAY - English

I can no longer see Don't believe my eyes any more Can hardly believe Feelings all turned around I'm much too lazy To give up Besides it would be too soon Because there's always a way We were bound together Would have died for each other Bent the rain into a bow1 Lent each other our trust We tried to Turn while schussing Nothing was too late But much was too soon We have shoved each other Through all the tides We got sidetracked together Loved desperately We denied the truth The best we could It was a piece of heaven That you exist Every room you Flooded with sun Every frustration You turned around Nordic noble Your gentle goodness Your untamed pride Life isn't fair Danced the movie In a silver room From a golden balcony We stood in awe of eternity Helplessly sunken, drunken And everything was allowed Together in time-lapse Midsummer-Night's Dream Every room you Flooded with sun Every frustration You turned around Nordic noble Your gentle goodness Your untamed pride Life isn't fair Your confident stride Your true poetry Your serene dignity Your unshakeable grace Your destiny You defied You never betrayed Your plan for happiness Your plan for happiness I'm not leaving here I've extended my stay New time travel Open world I have you safe Inside my soul I'll carry you with me Until the curtain falls I'll carry you with me Until the curtain falls