Was reading some msg
Was talking on the phone with a fren
Was drinking some white my fren left behind
Was thinking
Was writing
Was emailing
Was begging shadow to eat
Was trying to feed her medicine, 11 types
Was allowing shadow to be a brat.....she refused to eat, until I begged her
(how I begged her? I told her....hey hey dont worry. Mom will find a way to save u. Next year we will move to another place, where we could run around even more. And pls dont worry about money, mom will know what to do. Just EAT and BE STRONG. I will save U....ok? And..........:( she started eating..........it's so weird)
Coz I promised her I wouldnt cry, I wouldnt then. But truthfully, I just wanted to freaking cry....................
So, here's the song to....replace my tears.........fuck....how can he describe how I feel??!! haha
My schedule tomorrow, wake up at 6 (maybe just dont sleep), feed shadow for an hr......then head to my sis place, put down shadow. Get to the HK express, take a flight to BKK. Meeting. Then next day, back to HK at 11pm, go to sis place, pick up shadow. I have such a fear that she would feel I dump her, leave her alone again. She has become another person (I meant dog).....maybe chinese saying old brat is like a childish kid. She's exactly like that. Maybe she's finally protesting to me, hey mom - it's time I get some nice things, your full attention. All my life, I am patient, all my life I have been there, all my life I am loyal & dedicated to you.......now, it's your turn to FULLY taking care of me, heheheheheh, with shadow cheeky grin.
But my frens, I am blue. I am....crying inside. :(((((((((((((
Have a safe trip.
ReplyDeleteShadow will be fine!
Yes, if she sees you cry she will be upset as well! Keep things cheery and things will work out fine~
yea, U r rite.
ReplyDeleteShadow has never been a brat, now she's like one. haha, she needs me to touch her nonstop, feed her food ON MY HAND......nevermind, I suppose. I never did that for her anyways.
Yes, I hope she will be OK....