Foggy Weather Foggy Mind

Hong KONG- FOGGED with RAINS & MISTS.

OK, keep pouring so can wash away the draggy humid firey hot atmosphere, I hope. I hope this rain is heavy enough that just wash away all the heat dispersed in every molecule around me and radiated from the ground. Heat reminds me of S'pore.

I hate S'pore. I spent 1.5 yr there, so I could tell you why I hate it.

Every freaking day, the sky pours a whole chunk of water to the earth, and maybe for 30-60 mins, POURED like they just want to kill all the living things on earth. OK, then next, the sun comes - SCORCHING the ground, just burn it within 5 mins. Yes, ie the time I usually got off work, right between the water all evaporated & the ground got really heated up. I hate the freaking refraction of of heat via the pool of water on ground, plus the evaporating earth. Every walk I took, it got me closer to suicide. Really. Of coz, boring lifestyle over there was killing me - so basically I became like a dry corpse. My bro asked me once - when he visited me there, why I looked like the sad movie star in a japanese movie - "Love letter".....hohohohohho........thank you bro, as I got so melancholized by this city!!

OK, sorry, I always find a chance to step on S'pore, as I got bad moments there. 

Yes, back to HK. Foggie....So Foggie.....My mind has become foggie too. The burger I ate yesterday - was supposed to be delicious, but I couldnt remember if I did eat it or not. I remembered I cried yesterday, but I couldnt almost recall why. I think I did sleep many hours, but I feel so exhausted and tried. Actually, I dont like memory very much....happy or bad, also dislike, hence I write, so I can chase back some past at times.

But when the situation is, you need to rely on memories - I need to reset my system. It's not something easy for me, as my brain doesnt really work like that. Guess some of you would be jealous of me, as maybe U spend too much time to linger to the past, as for me - I dont like to linger anything of the past, but of coz ironically I luv all the vintage stuff & stories, all the ancient civilization & structure....etc. Yet, within myself, I dont think I worth myself mesmerizing so much, U know. Well, yet, I seem to talk alot from my memories...

Actually, hardly anyone would believe me that I dont live in the past.......but my mind really doesnt work like that, at least for past 10 yrs. 

OK, so it's established. I am a confused, fogged being. 

Ummmm............Maybe I should step out of the rain & let it drench me. Actually I think I mentioned somewhere, I rarely take my umbrella out even I know it will rain. I let it fall on me....and I dont understand why some people got so scared, for freakin sake, just feel drops of the water which very likely were your sweat you shed during your shag 2 months ago, which now fell back on you....it';s a cycle, why so afraid to get drowned back into your own sweat?

hehe, sorry....my mind is fogged so I cant think of anything intelligent to write, but...sorry, I just want to type, u know. As I am bored & melancholic.