I am facing a horrible moment - Shadow is sick and I can't do anything about it and then realize alone again, naturally! Life hasn't been very nice to me despite I have been pressing on relentlessly! Sorry to rage this negativity again but this blog has always been about me and my feelings! Started little less than a year, from a depressive suicidal inclined person to back to the fun happy dawn to now a wounded soul. Faced with so much in such intensity past 2 years, I now pause - and feel I dunno what to do! Do I still have strength and braveness to march on. To be frank, I'm not sure anymore! I hv always been sure even I say I m not sure but this time, I'm not!
So afraid shadow is going to die in my arms! She has been with me thin n thick - she has never abandoned me once! Yet at this moment, I'm totally helpless to help her! I'm such a selfish bitch! I feel guilty!
I hope tomorrow will be better! My heart is sorrowful that I dun think I'll b here for few days! Hope I hv no courage to do silly things! Guess if I vent out here! I got none!! So I picked a movie while hugging shadow - my fav movie - love actually! Everytime I watch it I can go to sleep! N ESP luv the song.....hehe! Ai...life....luv.....
Haha! Have a good weekend!
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