I once said

The saddest thing a person has is lack of hope. Someone told me before they lost hope. Umm, I always argue that it's the worst kind of death sentence. Then another fren called me the other day talking about life vision, life goal, direction, etc......

Kinda started me thinking. No matter how much I dont want to be a zombie all these years, somehow I have been one for many years, in many ways. Where do all the years , seconds, minutes gone to, gone by?

I went for some interviews, that accelerate how I feel. I cant blame it on bad luck. I cant blame it on the assholes. 

As I am trying to take on the responsibility to myself, I think I still have hope. It's so easy to blame others for our sufferings. I dont like people blaming on the universe or god or their parents or their whatever.....

I always think that somehow I am given many opportunities to challenge my width of  talents, my depth of wisdom, my length of patience.......somehow I so believe in karma that I really hope I could live off all the karma of the past. I always believe there;s a reason why I gotta go through all these years. Hence, I always have a mission that I would be there for people who are lost, who have sorrows......and someday I should write a book to encourage people based on my experience, my theories, my thinkings. Ummm, this blog is a way to do so. As people glance through it, they could see my struggles - I am not as arrogant as I appear. Not as smart and tough as people believe. I am but a mere human with some ET outerspacey ability. hehe.

I trust that my life is going to be fine. Not just fine. It's going to be fantastically fabulous. Though, honestly this time is hard for me to believe it, yet......in order to not waste all my efforts, I need to press on believing it I will be fine, I will be fabulous. How could I not? The universe is fair, as I believe. As Always U need chaos before calmity. U need asymmetrical before symetrical. U need emptiness before full.

I luv the fact that.....even a broken clock could be right twice a day, meaning, I get chances to be right afterall.

:)