Bored....again

I dont get bored easily but now I am.......becoz I am starting to pack up my place & move to another place, a cheaper one - super lucky me. But I realize people have been giving me so many samples despite I have been giving away every quarter, I still couldnt empty them. I try to be a minimalist, I think I just couldnt be......with my 2 dogs, sis kids' books......yes I am in charge of their education well-being as well. I stopped for few months as I got really stressed out to ensure they get good scores, while their parents are not taking good care of that sector, whereby I couldnt NOT do it, as if they couldnt do well, their mom would punish them......

Punishment being......fine, yes money fine. Or, composition, 2000 words of composition. Then my mom (their grandmom) would be upset they dont do well......the whole things stress me out. Becoz I cannot be there 24 hrs a day, all I could do is to phone tutoring them.

As I am packing up my stuff, I find many of their books, worksheets are with me ....... I kinda have to devote some time to them again. Ie one of the reasons I move away from them, as I want to tutor them exclusively over the phone or skype, instead of running across the street to help them solve their issues (yes they live just across the street).

Well, to some it's little issue........but believe me when U r in my shoes, U just dun get it why U are the one. As for me, I am happy to do it for them as they are the 2 babies I luv the most in this world, yet I am such a loner......I hate to have such committment & responsibilities for something that dont REALLY belong to me. It's kinda....I got no words to explain. I just feel bored at the distraction.......the routinely repeating the vocab, the grammar stuff.....I am not a mother material for sure, but I know I cud be a chic aunt only.....:)

Sigh.....I have been grumbling alot lately, but exclusively here. No one has a earful from me so far, as I am too bored to tell my side of stories.....so if U get bored by my entries lately, come back in 1-2 weeks.....as indeed things are so boring boring............everything is wait wait wait. All my projects are wait wait wait. My new flat is wait wait wait. Arrggghhhhh..................I specially made an appointment with a frenchman who dropped one of the crazy ideas to me - while of coz he liked my suggestion, so I specially made a coffee appointment with him on Tue, as I got so bored that I needed someone to drop more crazy ideas on me. (usually I wouldnt bother with such ideas.....as it's always just talks......)

Arrggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh................I AM BORED.

I should say.....I am fine being alone, I dont get bored being with myself. However, I get so so eaily bored by tedious stuff..........like packing house, like teaching primary kids.........arrghhh....sollie.