Excuses & apology

Hey yo! Morning from Rome!
I wrote 2 entries yesterday but I know my spelling was horrible with the ever illogical grammar n tenses! Anyways - excuse 1 is that I was using iPad. Excuse 2 is that I was freaking tired! Excuse 3 is I used to get horrible English teachers!

So apology offered n just accept it, if u may!

I got no resolution for 2013 as somehow it passes the same way as 2012! But everyday I try to set a goal - n guess I'll try to write everyday here in Rome! Cudnt sleep much still - supposed - I'm used to the walking pain already!!

Hv a good day!

The trevi

Rome, is a city u have to walk soooooo much! I don't know why those SEA pple kept saying " u hongkies need to walk a lot ehr!?" I walked for 2 years already after 3 days here! Shits, I once thought of going to those pilgrimage , I think I won't be able to make it. I will die there! I am not kidding! I will definitely die!!!!

And so I set out to walk and walk today and....from coliseum to...somewhere then to find the fountain of Trevi! Ok well, I got lost....I cud feel my way usually, but I got lost! I started thinking.....finding luv is a journey to some, if u r serious about it. And it may not mean u will ever find it as usually if its sthg u want, it definitely has hurdles, so u set out....u try to hear the sound, the whisper of the gushing water....u cudnt. So u stop and eat as its really brutal out there. Then u found pple who r quite cold....and u got ur stomach filled, u walk again....u try to look at maps....u try to try ur luck.....u try to just stop and have a smoke to cool off.....still, where r the arches that lead u there....u can't see.....

So....by the time u r going to give up

Maybe u stop....u will ask...maybe from god, or from tarot readers ( to be frank, I was thinking about this while trying to find my way to the fountain of luv, and there I saw tarot cards after 2s of my thoughts!!) .... Yes so u consult....somehow they show u the way, but its just the direction. It's upto u to continue on to walk it! The funny thing is......when u seem u r lost, pple start to ask u for direction! Do I seem like an Italian Chinese!? Anyhows, I think I do a gd con to make most pple believe I actually live at that place most of the time! It's by not looking around.....being a solo traveller, I ind this helps me a lot by looking utterly ruthless!!!! Haha.....

Back to where I want to talk abt. Love.....

Okok....still a long way to b there n u got it....yet, pple in front of u crowded u from walking close. Mayb u shud try harder, maybe I shud just project a coin surpassing hordes of heads w my superhero strength, but at that moment, I felt.....it's not worth it, as I want to keep my 1 € coin instead....coz what if, I have a pee urgency that I need that freaking coin for it!?!? So I looked, I turned......I realize from my way there, there's no any signs of the fountain.....yet, I also realize, I was so close on my first day......so close....from that side, there was actually a sign! Ok....

The moral of the story is

For love, love will find u, but for some, u hv to find it

Still, u still gotta work for it

Still, when u reach there, u may not want to throw the coin

Months pass.....

How to begin here?

I have become an irregular! Gosh! What happened!? I can only say....I am starting to have grey hair! At least a regular one strand! They say, if u pull one, there grows 7 ones. Hence pple usually don't do the plucking! Not me, as I don't believe I have! Rather, I believe it will be healed! Let me give u an eg!

My dog shadow- a sausage dog, at her 14-15 yo age, still owns glossy shiny black hair! And coz I never want her to grow old. Not that I want to be forever young, as a matter of fact, I have been envisioning or rehearsing the moment of my own last breath. Death has been a strange thought to me lately. I don't believe I am going to die soon, but rehearsing it somewhat makes me want to look at the present more! Maybe it's strange or taboo to some, but somewhat it works on me!

ESP when I am standing, walking on paths of the ancient......first Egypt , today Rome.....I somewhat was thinking (not that I am so romantica) how those who thought they wud be forever young and powerful gladiators, Pharaohs, or pope....they once stepped on where I was....even the fishermen in the past from hk.....now I am standing there, they once stood....and one day, another dawn wud be sitting at where I am at....pondering how they might live forever.....or how they r so depressed, stressed or how they will be one day blah......

So I am rehearsing that moment, maybe force me to have no regret when I breathe last one day! Maybe it doesn't make sense, but....then I realize.....one thing.....seeing places I never see, seems strange to me now. Everywhere is so similar....in its different sense. 

Oh, one thing, usually a place I go, I at times felt I was there. Definitely egypt I had that feeling, not Rome though....I don't think I am going to fall in luv with this place....now everywhere I go, I just want to do research in advance so that maybe I cud bring my mom here! 

Gosh, this piece sounds so boring...li was thinking to write about finding my way to the "fountain of love" - maybe it wud seem more enchanting.

Anyways just some irregular regular thoughts.

Happy Chinese New Year of year of snake.

Now I don't even know the significance of the animal. One thing, if there's a past life, I shudnt be living even close to Asia, very likely I wud be a middle eastern woman living in the desert or actually some form of royal heritage! Coz I am quite an ass in this lifetime.

Cheerios.

One needs to experience it to un it

After roaming around the world for so many freaking years, many things I am yet to experience. Oh yes, in btw, we didnt die from that so-longing end of the world, I always thought something could have happened. Not in terms of tsunami type of things, but maybe spiritual enlightenment or ridding of stupid people or christian rapture wud be something cool and saliva-drooling events I wud wish to experience.

Shit, do we need to wait another eternity? Okies.

I didnt do surgery but I am still unwell. If after this week, it's not recovered, I think I could either have cancer or just something really wrong with my organs. Anyhow. But I could say, this sickness' orign is something I would never expect myself to experience.

First, I have collected over a year sadness from this rp. Nothing violent, but it's always in very melancholic mode. I still love or I shud say I loved this man very much depending from which angle I am looking at and it's first time I allowed myself to fall in love. Definitely, there were reasons how he cud win so utterly of me. No men did before but I hope more men afterwards.........hahahaha. Recently. We separated. Between words, he mentioned something, I felt it's a betrayal of trust. I think that worsens my sickness deeply......

When a person is utterly hurt, wounded.....the breathlessness that comes with it really makes my symptoms worse. So basically my whole system shut down. I couldnt blame its him, definitely, I was sick first. But the whole thing, plus my crying, and my coughing really caused every organ in the lowest modes ever in my life.

Second, stress from work. Frankly, I didnt feel that stressed but according to my doctors, it created too much imbalance in my life.

Third, my dogs. Few incidences, esp Shadow, the older dog really drove me nuts to a point that I told my family, I needed to get rid of her immediately. Then I re-examined.....honestly, she has spent all her life with me, loyal, no matter how crazy she is. I am her only love, parent, friend ever. It's my issues that I didnt spend much time with her, making her feel at ease not to so bratful. Anyways, of coz it was an impulse but I wudnt think about it anymore. It's not about cruelty, it is....when someone has been there for you, you dont get rid of so easily.

So in conclusion, my end 2012, early 2013.....it's a year of very exclusive experience. Frankly, 2012 was in general very very very damn boring year for me. But exclusively, I experienced some things that one needs to use the heart and body to experience to understand or know......

Certain matters we can learn from google, certain matter you need to learn from yourself.

Body and Emotion are still in recovery stage but I am hopeful for 2013. I am actually very excited for months to come though, definitely somewhat my Jan is a wasted cause. But lets the worst happens first then I can focus to enjoy the best moments.

Also, I think another reason why I would be so sick, as I have no where to vent or to share. it used to be here, but past 12 mths, here is a spy-on space so I couldnt say too much. Now. everything is clear, I am free, I guess. Definitely, I need to re-generate the kiddo side of me, as that inner child has grown up in pain, gosh, I hate this....I need to be reborn again. So, I will be seeing more things, visiting more places, meeting more pple......in hope, I could be an interesting person again.

Have a great weekend.

I may need to do surgery

oh, just went to doctor, seems I may need to be admitted to hospital
oh shits, I felt some swelling- up, just a little bit
kinda felt lonely, and understand why pple need to have husbands or wives
times like this, u know who is taking u to hospital or looking after ur dogs....

:(

after years...

After years of waiting for this 21Dec2012, suddenly I feel I have no feeling about it. How strange a human mind works....maybe it's time for honesty, time for reflection, regardless it's ending or just spiritual awakening or just simply stay earth!

I did, I think I came to a conclusion. I wanted to hear truth. I heard and I hurt. It's fine...it will heal, if the world doesnt end, and it will pass if the world does end. I think all I want to do is hug my dogs tmr, if the world is or isnt going to end....afterall, they are the ones who stay warm with me and are willing to do anything just to make me smile....though mostly I do everything to make them happy. But I am just a human....

I am just a human, I could only handle disappointment, expecting this much, and can only give, offer love that much.

So, I assume I am ending here and will say hello back the world doesnt end. Lastly I hope everyone has some form of enlightenment, being happy....it's Xmas....nothing about spiritual but about sharing.....

A refresh review

Hi My Fiends, indeed, indeed, it's been way too long....my work has been giving me alotta no space. no time. It's HK...yes, cosmopolitan city....a city with high competition. Actually, to most HK people, they dont see mainland chinese intellectual to be our competitors, but to me, they are my number 1 competitor, meaning they could take over my job easily if they are just twice as smart as me, and believe me....with 1.4 Billion of pple as backup, people who have much more intelligence, integrity, ability, capacity, capability....are MANY MANY!! 

I have said...even when I was on my own, making peanuts yearly for 3 years....I said to my frenz, one day as U realize why U got no job, U wud blame on society or bad boss or bad luck...and as U look at me, how come this cageless birdie is still thriving.....U will then remember what I said, coz.....U only look at now, not taking my words into heart! Hence, U will lose, though I may not win it all, but at least I wont fall.

OK, sorry, my narcissistic behaviour is kinda oozing outta the cocoon again. Well, I have some reflection I want to share. I met this guy 2 years ago, during my most pathetic poor state...as I still recalled, he said to me, I am the smartest most confident person he has ever met in his life. Despite, frankly, he saw many of my inferior side or no confidence side.....just yesterday, he re-mentioned again. And I have to say...this time, I have some slight interpretation I want to talk about.

Confidence isnt my main suit....I have never ever had confidence in my life since birth. As I think I analysed my childhood couples of times here.....I had my share of confidence depleting society and family around me....frankly, I envisioned to be an astronaut, or something equivalent to Einstein. But how come people say I am a confident person?? I could never understand myself, but somehow....I think I have an alternate brain compared to others. Definitely I am a well-above average intelligent person, but one thing I stand out from the crowd is that, I see the world differently than most pple. I never follow the norm opinion not becoz they are wrong, but becoz the world doesnt construct from a singular timeline...from my perspective....people, humans, shud always look things not at focal point (the perceived focal point anyways), but rather....the bigger line of the event. And also, I think I rarely jump into conclusion (though lately my busy worklife has made me jumped too much conclusion maybe about pple or events....)....about anythig, so people perceived me as slow....haha

So m,y fabulous side is....I dont really care if pple think I am slow or fast. OK, people wud stop me and say, only confident person can say such and such as above. No, I dont think so, but rather I think I am a very fair and just person. OK, why do we have to give praise to others if they do good, and we can be stingy on my good deeds? If I cant be fair to myself, how can I be fair to others. So....I can then conclude, if U r those who dont see your good deeds but could only make a point (MAKE A POINT) to praise other good deeds, then definitely, U r kinda a hypocrite.....anyways, hope you can follow what I am saying!!!

So to conclude, I am not a confident person, but I am a honest analyst of personality including myself.

OK, today, I met with my life analyst.....I know it's going to be a good year for me next year, and so he confirms. And the points he makes me take heed...I will, as somewhat if the universe gives him a message to pass to me, to remind me, I dont see any harm not to take care about, esp abt my success, abt my life & health. I am excited for next year, and definitely for the 3rd time, he reminded me I should write a book, despite my ideas may not be useful for this gen, very likely it cud be for next gen....:P, OK....I will, and I should....do that!!!

Just, I need a computer..........................hahahahaha

So how's everyone? I hope U r excited to the date of end of the world approaching. Somehow....the peace of this last week is kinda strange. Maybe somewhat I already cut myself out of this worldly system...yet, I am excited about the 21st Dec, wud it be.....just simply enlightenment? Or just.......simply change of North & South Pole, with My Milky Way coming closer than ever?

Anyhows, lets re-chat when this day finally arrives. While, in btw, love your love, and hate ur hate all the way................for this final date!

why I am so different....?

I hv been thinking....at times, I want to change people, make them smarter, make them more aware & alert.....yet, lately I thought, maybe their intelligent level is quite bad....hahahaha....I always think pple r stupider, or I see pple bad points by impression like terminator with a screen in front of me...

But after scanning the bads, I try to just view the goods....coz I am extreme person, I see the best bad, and the best good. Anyhows........

I come to a final conclusion.....it is indeed genetic. I never want to believe it's gene-related, I would prefer a non-predestined notion towards life...so it gives us, human, a purpose to strive, to be better, to excel, to learn from ground up, to be humble, to be arrogant, to be kind and at the same time to be assholes & bitches. But....I possess all the above points - yet, most pple on this earth is just indeed a mediocre, ordinary, coming from a common pool of genome. I wish...no...I dreamt, I had such a dream when I was in teens before all the matrix movies stuff....I dreamt of re-cycling useless human beings, I saw a leader and I was one of the team leader (as I was standing in front of the line). Anyhow, I feel puzzled...at times.....why I am so island from others? I know where they are stupid at, and I wonder at times....if I am indeed that smart, or I indeed have such high level of awareness or I dont live on this earth, at least my conscience.....

Not sure if I make sense, but.....I think.....I finally gradually accept, I am indeed very different, isolated being from the rest....

It's been a while.....

My mood & energy level have been really ups & downs as my work has taken toll on me badly. But in the midst of it, my brain was functioning, yet, I got no momentum to write or share. In the light of pre-weekend, I would like to write something, and I do hope, maybe some of you, who do check on me at times.....whatever I am going to say, well, I got no idea what I am going to say....would give u a smile or some lightning in your psyche.

First, I want to talk about HK. HK has been rioting about an education implementation - I assume it's rgd implementing national (china) education within our system. I dont have much problem with it.....but somehow most HK pple are afraid it's going to brainwash their kids. My question to them is......have they already been brainwashed!? Have they even taken the time to read the kids books nowadays? I dont understand why it's a problem....with the advancement of internet....no one is blocking us to compare notes. Though, I also wonder the standard of teachers nowadays......it depends how they educate the material. E.g. Japan wud teach the nationals (correct me if I am wrong) - Japan didnt commit bad mistakes during world war 2, etc.....(sorry, I am bad with history) - yet, I dont see most japanese deny it but it's just taboo to talk about it.

I actually support instilling some national education in us.....we sometimes dont even know who we are....the mockery is that they say " we are Honkie, We are not chinese", this kinda broadcast is worst than denial in history. We have no identity for so many decades, so we are lost. We are more so lost......it's fine to stand up against a system, a govt, I believe, but to deny one's identity - making the battle we fight shrink down to nothingness.

I feel fearful for our gen - 1. we have no identity, 2. we dont have wisdom & experience to govern even a company...at times.....I hvnt met many...I met maybe a handful wise people in HK, however, when I was working in china for just 1 year, at least, I met couple of very intelligent, wise, kind local chinese. I was deeply impressed......and vice versa, I know they were deeply impressed by me, as frankly - most chinese in mainland know what HK pple are made of.

Anyhows, whatever they have been doing lately, to me, it's just Rah Rah. We have become a Rah Rah city....what a shame, a rah rah city with no identity.....no wonder, somewhat I feel we are a pseudo sin city.......I hope I am an artist, so I could paint my image of HK on a canvas.

OK, talk abit about myself. Yes work.....tiring, crazy, squeezeful, stressful, making me breathless at times, and I can say, I have given my life to this company just for a decent salary. This is how we live....sadly....in a cosmopolitan city. But I know myself well, the notion is....if I can hide in a quiet village, having butterflies flying around me, hearing birds singing in the morning, sitting next to the little pond sipping coffee or just jumping into the sea, which is 5 steps from my home - yup seems supberb and heaven;y but I am a city gal....so this is my life and I am not going to complain about it.

And so.....what I feel excited about lately. First, re-decorating my home by buying some vintage CHANEL cut-out from old magazines from the States, I am going to mount them. yes, including my fren's kid & sis kids pictures....I am going to mount them. And then, I removed my sofa, donating to a church grp which would send off all the used furniture to kids in Africa....in replacement, I am going to make an arabic corner.....stuff like that takes time to collect and assemble, but these already male my days filled w excitement and imagination. 

While, I have always dedicated to change the world by my little way, esp when pple are rah rah outside, I feel - unlike what they yell nowadays - WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO YOUR CITY!?!? I would like to ask them silently - WHAT HAVE YOU DONE FOR YOURSELF AND PEOPLE AROUND YOU!? It's just a MLM (multi-level marketing) concept, if U change 1 person, in term U can change another 3. It's just a math.....HK people just want to change everything overnight, yet, we dont have the inner temperament to do so....wisdom, endurance....so, as for me, I am going to keep being myself. Changing world in my most effective way - people around me. Instill them the right attitude towards looking at one thing.....

I always like Bruce Wayne.....my dark knight.....non pretensious, dark, hv his own means & ways.......to change whatever he can.....accept & learn to know something is beyond him....just love Chris Nolan's depiction of Dark Knight.

Having all these BS, I come to think....it's great HK now has division, 2 groups...it's wonderful actually. One side is like me.....finding them stupid, the other side finds us ignorance indifference.....hehe, how one grows is by pruning, by arguing (internally or externally), by hving fever (so U can grow tall).............

Enough said, I think I am going to get a lomo camera....I want to capture the pseudo Sin city soon.:)

Have a great weekend.

Books I am exploring on.....

1. A game of Thrones

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/A_Game_of_Thrones

2. Shadow of the Silk Road

http://www.amazon.com/Shadow-Silk-Road-Colin-Thubron/dp/0701173637

3. The Doors of Perception

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Doors_of_Perception

4. The Black Book

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Black_Book_%281993_novel%29

Can see my genre pretty messy, it speaks of mind....

I am hving 4 books ard me, lets not even forget a chinese book and then Steve Jobs Biography. Guess, if someone asks me, why I still have time for them....I could only say coz U r important! 

Have a great week ahead, though depressively I have been hving bad days, but I am cool....just part of life stage.

cultural attack

I have become a boring person

looking from my blog you could tell

of coz, very much affected by work and lovelife, past 1 year

so I have become so damn boring until I dont want to look at my own mirror

and hate looking at myself through pple eyes

I need a cultural attack

something so different with a hint of danger to shock me back to life

I am thinking, how to go a cheapest way to silk road, just few really unheard of cities with a 1-2 major city sites. Just go there, look at diff faces, diff languages,.....so I could have the serenity to look atmy life

I am even hoping to meet some voodoo witches or whatever

give me some potions, so I could get the toxins outta my system

hallucinate abit

and then, wake up from this matrix

I hv been talking about this shocking me back to life so much, yet.....I hvnt done so, due to lazyness, due to attachment, due to committment. Once upon a time, I never allow myself to have some sorts of overbearing committment....now, seems, I got more than ever.

It seems I may hv more russians readers here, or

as some suggested, pple may just use vpn, by pass blah......through my blog

anyways, if U r russian and like my stuff, feel free to contact me

maybe I will take the trans-siberian train to have a visit....

hoho, anyways

my idea at this moment is...depending which way is cheaper

HK - China - Urumiqi, XinJiang, Dunhuang, Kashgar...maybe Hotan

or HK - Israel - Jordan

:D

I luv to think or dream about routes, that already makes my day.

I refuse and I protest

I refuse to believe there's no.....

I believe in Eternity of consistency, of insistency

I believe in full, fullness of love and joy

I protest and protest

coz we wud be changed and so etc this and duh and that

we dont know the true self

we want to false self

at times I feel so discouraged by us, human kinds

we r so bad, so horrible, so asshole, so unloving, 

but if I do believe in such

my fairy tale cant live on

I am a fairy tale gal

and I will never change

those who ask me even beg me not to change

u r the ones who have change

I wont allow any tears, heartbreaks, sadness, depression to change my belief in the eternity of good and love

So I profess again

I am a fairy tale gal

who lives in her own fairyland

and she is her own princess in her own kingdom

she wont care if u mock or laugh

as she cant hear it anyways

if u r one, live there with me

lets be fairy in the fair fairy fairyland

Maybe, just Maybe

I am a genius but I am trapped in this earth

Maaybe just maybe

I am in love but I am trapped in this mind

Maybe just maybe

I am indeed an ET but I am trapped as a worker bee

Maybe just maybe

I am very happy but I am in a shallow depression

What's shallow depression?

I cant explain it very well with words, I feel

but it's kind of depression oozing outta nothingness

discontent with things, people, stuff, myself

but cant really name what that is

Maybe just maybe 

I just want to live it real but we are all trapped in this matrix

Maybe just maybe

I could be awake at the end, but I am in NOW

Why people always say Now or Present?

What it means, in terms of time?

in terms of eternity?

How come I cant live in the past, now, and at same time future?

I also dont understand why people say dont expect too much from life, from people from things?

I dont buy it, why is meaning of life if there's no expectation of life.

\

MAaybe just maybe

We all want to live in heaven but collectively we allow ourselves to be trapped in hell?

Maybe just maybe also

U say I am contradicting myself, but it's you who are trapped in me....

suffocated by dust

http://www.voanews.com/content/hong-kong-endures-worst-smog-in-two-years/1454167.html

I did an interview....:P

it's sop

The very logical Mr Smith

I asked Mr Smith, do you have fears, worries? I mean - coz Mr Smith is a very logical person who totally goes against the belief in God/Gods existence. And then I asked, Mr Smith, have you ever crazily in love?

He replied, yes, I do have fear, and I have been in Love.

He went on saying - Black hole isnt actually black and the universe is expanding. There's at least one black hole in each galaxy....

 

Me, caged with no legs, aint no physic people, ok!? but....I think black hole could be our energy source. In the past, we believe it sucked everything in, actually - I dont think we could use our 3D mind to understand this.......it actually expands our universe in very fast pace. Frankly....my train of thoughts isnt very good, as I hvnt read much enough rgd Quantum.....

Anyways, back to Mr Smith. So Mr Smith - you like cats, U hv been in love, U actually have fears, but U dont believe in God, U think fringe or XFiles are for juvenille, and U believe all things could be explained by Physics, yet.....also, U dont believe in Souls. Are you abit too contradicting yourself? (even though it doesnt sound he is....hehe, more I am).

However, I believe all things could be xplained by physics but how says physics have to be just E=MC2? If the talk about soul, ghosts, etc.....are made up due to just simply created in the Image of Humans? God was created in the Image of Humans. It's enchanting thought......and becoz

I so believe, as he puts it.....we dont know anything as the basis....so for him, we can answer everything with physics while for me I think since we dont know anything, so it's better not to put emphasis on one truth, but while open enough to accept opposite to the truth you so hold tight to and.....afterall,humans r poor translator.

Interestingly, he's fanatic about movies, just within this year, he watched 200+ movies, I am wondering......how could someone so absorb in such fantasy world be so dogmatic about "gods & beliefs".....it wouldnt be dreamy, exciting, floating, magical while watching a movie when one is that rationally logical.....

Meaning of Life

I started thinking about this since 16....and lately, as I am drowning in work, yes I am working on Sun.....too, should finish at 2am today.....I feel really melancholic. I am making deciison, small or big based on no facts at times, and it's making me very stressed and tired. Despite, I always like to make decision.....I feel I am drowning.

Then I feel alone, I feel guilty. Esp to my dogs, I dont spend time with them, I didnt have water so they were thirsty for a while....I went to buy water, and it started raining......

Just a bit exhausted. While, running around for someone, he came back with words that made me more moody.....the thing is I didnt even do my own things, piles of laundries hvnt done.....at times, U just want a simple thank with a sympathetic look, or maybe grab me a nice dinner...etc

So I am regrouping hopefully, if I have the ability. I am tired........

I need to make a call now, hope my life analyst would give me mindblowing insights....as I feel tired......

I am crying

I dont know how to stop it

cant stop my tears....I want to keep crying until no more tears.....

it should be good for me.....

can someone call me and sing a song to me?? haha.....

Revolution

Finding ways to evolve is tough

Finding means to "revolutionize" is even tougher

I think, or same degree, I cant pinout anything nowadays as sharp as I could

life, work, love, friendship......are making things tougher to think internally

I really need to think internally asap

I need to re-start my process.....I think life gives you at times, some bitter tasting fruit is to yick you out to move ur ass....to walk ahead.....to find ways, paths, means to grow sthg sweet or even more bittersweet tasting fruits......

so I am IN for revolution......

Dream with 5 men.....

Kinda like a nightmare but it's quite interesting on some parts

First part, I was hving a sexual experiement with this man, who actually was making a clone of me, trying to replicate my few different spots, specially 3 spots......I could see in a chamber with another me (no face) but a body, reacting to same stimuli as mine....weird.....

But his family arrived home and so I left

Then I got home, it's kinda like a big mansion, but I kept my 2 dogs in a room, I went to open it......

And then I realize I had a gigantic balcony......kinda like a palace.....and yet I could see some winding stairs case above me, with a pool and restuarant

People sitting there could see me sleep, I was shocked to this idea....as I thought to myself in my dream, damn, I always walked ard and slept naked.

Next, I felt unsafe so I was trying to go out. Suddenly a long shinny blade cut across the air in front of me.......it's like samari sword, blade...dunno, I just knew it's v long, carried by a fat man. He said to me, dont go.......U r spied by 3 men living above. They are going to come down and hurt you anytime they knew they could......so I went back in............

Starting to jump around, so as to make noise that...to signal them I am with companies, etc....

it's actually 3 arabic guyz.

Funny enough....I was told I was haunted by 3 men for years in real life....damn,,,,,,errie......