Months pass.....

How to begin here?

I have become an irregular! Gosh! What happened!? I can only say....I am starting to have grey hair! At least a regular one strand! They say, if u pull one, there grows 7 ones. Hence pple usually don't do the plucking! Not me, as I don't believe I have! Rather, I believe it will be healed! Let me give u an eg!

My dog shadow- a sausage dog, at her 14-15 yo age, still owns glossy shiny black hair! And coz I never want her to grow old. Not that I want to be forever young, as a matter of fact, I have been envisioning or rehearsing the moment of my own last breath. Death has been a strange thought to me lately. I don't believe I am going to die soon, but rehearsing it somewhat makes me want to look at the present more! Maybe it's strange or taboo to some, but somewhat it works on me!

ESP when I am standing, walking on paths of the ancient......first Egypt , today Rome.....I somewhat was thinking (not that I am so romantica) how those who thought they wud be forever young and powerful gladiators, Pharaohs, or pope....they once stepped on where I was....even the fishermen in the past from hk.....now I am standing there, they once stood....and one day, another dawn wud be sitting at where I am at....pondering how they might live forever.....or how they r so depressed, stressed or how they will be one day blah......

So I am rehearsing that moment, maybe force me to have no regret when I breathe last one day! Maybe it doesn't make sense, but....then I realize.....one thing.....seeing places I never see, seems strange to me now. Everywhere is so similar....in its different sense. 

Oh, one thing, usually a place I go, I at times felt I was there. Definitely egypt I had that feeling, not Rome though....I don't think I am going to fall in luv with this place....now everywhere I go, I just want to do research in advance so that maybe I cud bring my mom here! 

Gosh, this piece sounds so boring...li was thinking to write about finding my way to the "fountain of love" - maybe it wud seem more enchanting.

Anyways just some irregular regular thoughts.

Happy Chinese New Year of year of snake.

Now I don't even know the significance of the animal. One thing, if there's a past life, I shudnt be living even close to Asia, very likely I wud be a middle eastern woman living in the desert or actually some form of royal heritage! Coz I am quite an ass in this lifetime.

Cheerios.