Hi My Fiends, indeed, indeed, it's been way too long....my work has been giving me alotta no space. no time. It's HK...yes, cosmopolitan city....a city with high competition. Actually, to most HK people, they dont see mainland chinese intellectual to be our competitors, but to me, they are my number 1 competitor, meaning they could take over my job easily if they are just twice as smart as me, and believe me....with 1.4 Billion of pple as backup, people who have much more intelligence, integrity, ability, capacity, capability....are MANY MANY!!
I have said...even when I was on my own, making peanuts yearly for 3 years....I said to my frenz, one day as U realize why U got no job, U wud blame on society or bad boss or bad luck...and as U look at me, how come this cageless birdie is still thriving.....U will then remember what I said, coz.....U only look at now, not taking my words into heart! Hence, U will lose, though I may not win it all, but at least I wont fall.
OK, sorry, my narcissistic behaviour is kinda oozing outta the cocoon again. Well, I have some reflection I want to share. I met this guy 2 years ago, during my most pathetic poor state...as I still recalled, he said to me, I am the smartest most confident person he has ever met in his life. Despite, frankly, he saw many of my inferior side or no confidence side.....just yesterday, he re-mentioned again. And I have to say...this time, I have some slight interpretation I want to talk about.
Confidence isnt my main suit....I have never ever had confidence in my life since birth. As I think I analysed my childhood couples of times here.....I had my share of confidence depleting society and family around me....frankly, I envisioned to be an astronaut, or something equivalent to Einstein. But how come people say I am a confident person?? I could never understand myself, but somehow....I think I have an alternate brain compared to others. Definitely I am a well-above average intelligent person, but one thing I stand out from the crowd is that, I see the world differently than most pple. I never follow the norm opinion not becoz they are wrong, but becoz the world doesnt construct from a singular timeline...from my perspective....people, humans, shud always look things not at focal point (the perceived focal point anyways), but rather....the bigger line of the event. And also, I think I rarely jump into conclusion (though lately my busy worklife has made me jumped too much conclusion maybe about pple or events....)....about anythig, so people perceived me as slow....haha
So m,y fabulous side is....I dont really care if pple think I am slow or fast. OK, people wud stop me and say, only confident person can say such and such as above. No, I dont think so, but rather I think I am a very fair and just person. OK, why do we have to give praise to others if they do good, and we can be stingy on my good deeds? If I cant be fair to myself, how can I be fair to others. So....I can then conclude, if U r those who dont see your good deeds but could only make a point (MAKE A POINT) to praise other good deeds, then definitely, U r kinda a hypocrite.....anyways, hope you can follow what I am saying!!!
So to conclude, I am not a confident person, but I am a honest analyst of personality including myself.
OK, today, I met with my life analyst.....I know it's going to be a good year for me next year, and so he confirms. And the points he makes me take heed...I will, as somewhat if the universe gives him a message to pass to me, to remind me, I dont see any harm not to take care about, esp abt my success, abt my life & health. I am excited for next year, and definitely for the 3rd time, he reminded me I should write a book, despite my ideas may not be useful for this gen, very likely it cud be for next gen....:P, OK....I will, and I should....do that!!!
Just, I need a computer..........................hahahahaha
So how's everyone? I hope U r excited to the date of end of the world approaching. Somehow....the peace of this last week is kinda strange. Maybe somewhat I already cut myself out of this worldly system...yet, I am excited about the 21st Dec, wud it be.....just simply enlightenment? Or just.......simply change of North & South Pole, with My Milky Way coming closer than ever?
Anyhows, lets re-chat when this day finally arrives. While, in btw, love your love, and hate ur hate all the way................for this final date!
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