Books N Ideas

I have been blahhhh about having a book of my own for some time. The fact is, I feel I am not enough for it. Yea, if I have to share my stories, they are quite interesting in somewhat but then it's just another drama queen's stories, just total bullshits N cliche. I always felt I should have done or learnt something extra-ordinary to kick off this step....ok, maybe wait till I am 60!!??

But lately I have addicted to kindle. I downloaded many books, from poems to spiritual stuff or just novels or jewish bible............I am reading them simulataneously. Yea yea, supposedly it isnt right, to be honest, I am not trying to learn something from each book, I am trying to do a mental research for something. And as the movie - Limitless goes, well, it seems it's better I get as much info or glanced enough info just in case I could assess to 100% of my brain....hehe....I am not going to learn the theories of others or teachers, never in my life I tried to learn something from the "scholar" or "masters", I always know I need to find my way. Like math, I did quite good, but I could never get what the teacher said - so I always studied on my own and I would finish the whole exercise book in frenzy (before anyone could even start halfway through), so I got good score, and I never would compile to hand in homework (depending which teacher....it seemed they always let me be, haha...)

Not meant to say something negative, I think if my teachers see me now, they wud be disappointed. The gal they knew should be a head of a department already. What's going on with her? "sob"

I think I have been blabbering on about a breakthrough or some excitement - it's not going to come. Becoz it already started when I said I wanted it. I am just waiting to see how it would be quickened in its own way. I am not very patient, but also very patient.

So I am reading alot, as I want to cram all the vocabs in my head. In the past I always sped through words, so I could get the picture in my head.....then I would make up stories along the way using the words. It seemed to work............and now....I feel i hvnt got enough, I hv to stuff something in, just to make sure when the path is clear, I could vomit all the food I have been eating in  one goal.......

Anyways, I am bullshitting. I just need to bs bs bs bs.

Oh, yes I got a great present from my fren. I couldnt even recall since......maybe 12 yrs ago, someone gave me Tiffany. It's not my brand anymore, very girlie. But when Bruce gave me that, I suddenly felt like a gal again.....thanks so much. I really luv it. Thanks so much for making me feel like a little princess.....heheheh...I need that, I dont deny, I want to be a princess! 

And during our coffee today (while giving me the bday gift), we started sharing on ideas. And I feel that he has given me a very good concept - I will see to it if there's any way using my magical power to make it succeed.

2 gifts in one day, I am so blessed!!!!!! ^^

P.S - Freakishly to me, it's my 111 post of ME!!! Wow, something wonderful N magical is gonna happen to ME! Yea!