It all starts from a battle

When you are not in your 20's, everything becomes more logical, more rational. Someone told me, now it's even harder to define liking someone, let alone "luving" someone. He's saying it takes more to do so anyways. I completely agree with him.

But, the feeling of being "in luv" or "adored" is something so magical. It makes you smile 100 times more in a day. It makes you walk 100 times more lightly even you walk on the same path each day. It makes you want to wear something colorful. It makes your heart feel the need to stay alive, to stay positive, to be ALIVE. 

I wonder, if this is a battle for us, or at least for me. 

To be frank, I wouldnt & couldnt go all the way to fall in luv or to be in a relationship. NO WAY. I just couldnt anymore. It has too much at stakes. I dont believe in "romance" much actually......but I want it. This is the complexity to our human mind, I suppose, The infactuation, the in-luv - I believe it starts from a battle of our logical mind & our emotions - I wouldnt want to use "heart". Sometimes, I wonder if I am indeed liking that person or I enjoy the battle more.

Movies, Songs talk about such battles.

And I am getting to understand those movies N songs more. haha. Late learner. I think it's great that sometimes things dont happen as fast as we want, actually the longing for that feeling grows or die....it depends of coz. But that's not a matter anymore, as that period is the battle. Once you so called "win" the battle in whatever means, that butterfly feeling is gone.

I have been dicussing with few people, mind is the biggest stimulator of anything. Indeed. So, I couldnt help but wonder, if luv starts from heart or the mind 1st? For me, definitely it starts from the mind. As it creates visuals, images, - actually it creates feeling. I gradually think what's the role of our heart. It doesnt seem to govern this part of emotion, except feeling the pain. it's weird, isnt it? People say you use your heart to luv, but I really think that only confines to agape love (herbrew - unconfitional love) such as luv for your kids, luv for my pets.....so unconditional. But once it's another human being, honestly, only saints could exercise agape for the people.......I know I couldnt. No wonder in Bible talks so much about god's luv, indeed, it's beyond comprehension & it's indeed un-human to be able to achieve such level.

So is there any conclusion? From me, not really. Guess this is an open subject. If you dig abit deeper, maybe you would realize something more profound on your own! One thing I know, I couldnt stop listening to Faye Wong lately......weird.