vulnerable

This morning, I woke up. Hadnt done that long time, lying in bed pondering.

Well, one of my 2011 goals is not lying in bed so much, which I actually managed it quite well. The whole Jan, I didnt, except when I was sick.

I have this feeling of vulnerability. Actually, I am quite vulnerable (not in a bad way) - it's like I dont think anyone or anything can hurt me. But today, I feel I might get burnt one day. I dunno.....I believe in subconsience. I get that quite alot. So what I need to do now is to mentally prepare when it happens. And I will continue to do what I feel good to do N not afraid of the potential danger.

Yet, another side of vulnerability is bad. I feel inconfident. I am fearful of Feb, Mar....I am not sure how I am going thru these 2 months. I am scared of many proposals I am supposed to do, but no where to start.......this insecurity is going to grip in me for a while, I believe. Hopefully, I can hear more good news after the CNY.

It's a constant battle......but anyhow, maybe its end of Jan, Jan has been fantastic. I couldnt thank enough for all the good things, good people that have surfaced in my life.

Stay Cheerio, Hong Kong Babies.