What would you do....

When you dad may threaten to hurt your mom or your family.....becoz of.....no reasons? Just he created stories in his head that made him mad. Tell me, what would you do?

My utmost concern would be my sis kids, as my mom takes care of them. Seriously, if I would be their parents, I would move the house as far from this family as possible. How could your dad threaten to hurt his family without any solid reasons.....??? Just coz he's not pleased with his life?!?!?!

My sis suggested we should report to police. But for me, I guess most of the time he just talked. So I advised my mom not to see him for coming days without our presence. And I will have dinner with him on Tue, not that I try to talk some sense into him. When someone creates a reality in his mind, no one can correct that imagination. I guess I would want to see abit from his expression, his conversation - the words he chooses to express himself, his way looking at my mom & my sis kids.......then will decide what's our potential next move!!!

I dont get it, when all of us are trying to get everyone living slightly better, and when we are all more united as a family, more laughters with each other, why would he try to sabotage that!? Yet in our mind (esp my sis n me), we couldnt comprehend a person we have known for over 30 odd years would become someone we so.....feel alienated. What so huge  to make you verbally inform your kid that, wait for something big to happen!!!???? While, already inform you that he killed mom in his dreams. What's the big deal? What happened??? We scratched our heads till no hair, we still couldnt think of a single or remotely collective issues why........we are deserved to be threatened like that!!!!!!!!!!

Maybe it's indeed just the smiple saying......money is evil?! I dont know......this is not how my dad used to raise me.

Lottie M

Sigh, my small dog "Chi-mama" Lottie (not chihuahua as she's too big to be called that) has PERIOD. YES M, MENSTRUAL, PERIOD!!!!!!!!!! The funny thing was that I was so worried about her being raped during 2 week ago dog party but I was told unless she started to have M then she wudnt get defiled. The next day, she had M....shit, she's such a ham sup dog. She so wants to get laid. I gotta desex her once her M is done, which is ONE WHOLE MONTH!!!!!!!!!!! Two more weeks to go......SIGH!!!! BIG BIG SIGH!!!!

My lovely baby needs to be 100% pure, virgin for the rest of her life......kekeke

last week

Last week went by so quickly that I didnt know I just had 2 posts only. I thought I did a few. 

It's been quite busy few weeks, busy & anxious. I passed up my 1st business proposal - a complete one from market scan to SWOT to sales forecast.......I did partial of each session at various time, before but rarely did a whole thing all at once. I still got a PNL to deal with tonite.

I somehow think I was born to venture adventures, challenges. It's stressful when I was presented with limited info, yet was expected to produce. I somehow dont feel torn or stressed, but feel so excited to learn so many new things through my research. Guess, it's so true, it's never too old to learn. I dont feel old....still. Except few pics......

And through these 2 wk busyness, I even know much better about my changes. I have become more money-minded, more frank, more individualistic, less nice, less patient. Actually, to me, all are good traits. haha. I couldnt afford to be nice to everyone anymore. I am still learning how to say No, and how to "fuck  or "diu" someone nicely with a smile tactic"......................I still have long way to learn.

One thing, maybe horror to most, is that - I dont want to have fun. Like, I am not really enjoying going out, meeting new people, if there's not a purpose behind. I dont really need to go out to relax, I feel pretty relaxed and destressed by my dogs' company. First time in my life I dont see that as a problem. I even think of not drinking.....which I dont particularly enjoy anyways, thou I can drink few glasses fine. I learnt it for social reasons, not that I like the taste of it.

And good thing is that I did manage to catch up with few frenz. It was nice. Knowing everyone is intact, happy. I am happy. Really. Seeing my frenz smile is priceless.

Luv U all for reading. I know some of you may want to comment some of my posts, all you need to do is to click the comment - you can write whatever you like. All welcome. 

The single

I met few people today during a social discussion group.We touched on various topics from biz to romance.

And U know.....people who keep whinning about them going without a bf or husband or gf or wife....they usually have an issue. One is what I heard today - and got electric shocked from it. Both of the woman & the guy said - I want to meet single & emotionally available people - 1ST SHOCK. They commented not knowing where to find, so we were syaing.....just go out and hang out with different people. There came the 2nd Shock - "well, it's a waste of time if you realized that the guy was married or got issues, so I just want single emotionally available people!!!!!!" Seriously, which opp sex would want to go out with you, when you are just a freak!!!!!!

My honest answer to them, good luck finding one. Coz U will never find one.

I would faint if

I got caught at below scenario.......dont they have a dresser guy to help them fix their pbs??

Nipple - flowery Pattern

I may need 2 phones

Does it mean I should get iphone 4?? haha.....

Suddenly, everything is on the plate. Just in Sept, I got various projects. I need to write 2 proposals, which to be honest I have never actually done those business before. People just want me to do it.

And then I just got a call a sec ago, I may need to leave HK. I am thinking about it. I think I will do, esp they let me have a week holiday each month to come back to HK to solve my issues. But my main concern is my dogs now...........I would die if I couldnt be with them, honestly.

Anyways......will update the progress soon.

Elderly II

OK, I am so agnoized by those middle-aged men or women who DONT HECKINGLY use EMAIL!!!!!! But want to discuss business with me. Shit, I dont think I want to handle any business with someone who dont use emails at all. 

I got a call from this middle aged man. He freaking called me at 8:48, left a message, then called me again at 9:ish. Hey, I wasnt awake, as I dun work HK time at all. So, reluctantly, I called back. He "inched" me by saying - he carried the stuff of info in his back this morning in KOWLOON side and wanted to see if I could go & get the info, and had a chat rgd the business. And further he said I made TWO calls and now "I AM LUCKY TO GET A CALL BACK FROM YOU" I said I no living in KLN. And mind you, I sent my freaking queries (the info in his bag) 3 weeks ago and he didnt reply me once since. So, I said, I got many things to do during the day. I totally hate those who want to make appointment without informing via email or msg beforehand.

I did inch him back. Next time, email me first. hahahahaha

Good thing is I know the doctor I so want to work with, thou the dr assign this middle-aged man's boss to handle this region. I still have good vibe with the australian doctor, and I believe he wants to work with me too.

U know......I think these guyz, they once could very well be a GM or something, but now they got nothing as very likely they are not that update & smart enough. But thanks to these guyz too, I keep reminding myself to keep up to beat with the young gen, so I wouldnt be thrown into a rubbish bin (lucky if it's recycle bin)!

My bowl of rice

Do you get jealous of those ladies...hem hem....who manage to go to eat HiTea, or Fine-Dining or exquisite beef or weird fish everyday? Indeed, I got one from FB - either she's showing pics of Hitea or her crystal nails. Some of my frens already deleted her. But I havent. As I am very amazed at how she uses her husband's or maybe parents' money......I really want to follow up on this aspect. As I couldnt get it. To me, it's very boring to keep eating "fine food". I like to eat fishballs sometimes. Or Tofu Fa. ummm, or just a can of coke zero may make me quite fulfilled. I did have a period I didnt need to work - but I never went around eating. Another amazing thing is, from the picture, she isnt fat at all. I guess when she isnt posting pictures, she must be doing some lymphatic massage or pilates.

If I say I am NOT jealous after above blablablah, you may say I am pretentious or condescending But, oddly, I am not, seriously. I wish I could actually. I am just amazed really at how as the chinese saying - "one type of rice breed all kinds of people", as her type is surely not from my bowl of rice.

99

After deleting I thought 99 requests from FB, to my horror, I still find I have another 99 requests. It's not going to end, isnt it?! I give up. Out of the presumably 99 requests, I got 90% of which are - HOTEL CITY, RESTAURANT CITY ------ OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think either my frens luv me so much or they think I am very generous not minding them bombing my "request" box, they keep sending me stuff. I stopped playing after 3 mins with those cities & cafes. Id rather watch - REWATCH friends 1-10 seasons over & over & over 99 times for 99x100000 laughs. I really cant sit in front of the computer playing such slow motion city games. 

I did interview my sis why she played so tirelessly. I dont think she gave me a convincing answer as I really couldnt remember her answer. Thou I did try to manage those cities for 3 mins, as I wanted to help maybe my neighbour ie my frenz, yet really.......I really couldnt continue. Also, it seems they could never end building the hotel, I suppose, if not they wouldnt keep sending me stuff........I want something that has an end. It's more soothing to know it has an ending.

I luv U still if U keep playing the cities, or cafes. I just adore your perseverance. I seriously dont have. Or maybe I just dont have that childlike side at all. :)

WHY FB so NON-democratic!!??

I saw this on some post :

遇上一個人，只需一分鐘；喜歡一個人，只需一刻鐘；愛上一個人，只需一小時；但要忘了一個人，卻要一生。

(English: one min to meet someone, 15 mins to like someone, one hour to love someone, but A LIFE TO FORGET SOMEONE)

HOLY CRAP!!!
I so want to "dislike" the post, but there's no click click for that. They only have "comment, share & like". Isnt FB abit communistic? Well, who dares (I dont dare lor) to comment my frenz who like this page?! I dont lor. But I want to dislike it secretly.....no dislike icon wor. DING!

There's always right & wrong or grey answer in this world. Why cant they just allow yes, no, and what else? Also it's a disease believing such quote. A life to forget someone?!?! Id rather die now if I couldnt forget someone I want to forget. 

I am going to delete myself from FB if people keep liking such nonsense!!!

FUCKING idiotic S-Company

EVERY FUCKING TIME!!! JUST EVERY FUCKING TIME!!!!!! 

EVERY FUCKING SHIPPMENT, ALWAYS HAVE EVERY FUCKING DETAILS MISSED, or LOST, or DELAYED - ALWAYS BLAMED BLAMED BLAMED.

ALWAYS MONEY MONEY MONEY. CAN YOU PLS BE LESS MAH LUN FENG, then U R OK LOR!!!!! DIU!!!! YOU SO MAH LENG FENG making ME ALWAYS FUCKING MA Q HEADACHE!!! DIU!!!! ALOTTA MONEY FOR ME MER!!?? JUST NOT ONCE, NEVER ONCE, YOU CAN MAKE ONE FUCKING ORDER GO SMOOTHLY. FUCKING U BUNCH OF ASSHOLES GO TO HELL LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pewh, thanks guyz.

Sigh, breakup......

I tried to call, sms, email to a friend for past month but she never called back, which is unlike her as she's a pretty tough & responsible lady. Then, finally I managed to get her respond on msn - sighhhhhh...........she's talking about separation with her husband. I am not sure about the real reason, but seems that she doesnt want to have a child, but her husband insists.

It's saddening, rite? I guess they do luv each other, but due to personal preference, in this modern world, you cant stick together, as divorce is too easy! Sometimes, I think divorce is fine if you can no longer luv that person, but outta preferences, I think it's most saddening kind. I wonder being alpha male or female.....can you indeed make one relationship stick?! I doubt. I have no faith in it. Ie why......my frens said, "soften up, lady!", or "grow your hair long", or " lower your standard".................is it really that simple?

My parents. They are indeed separating after fucking decades together. Honestly, I wish they separated before I was born. (Oh if auntie Y you are reading it, pls keep it secret. I will explain in details next time I see you). Is the modern soceity making pple not stick or people become too modern to stick? Aiya, I dunno, which is not my concern nowadays......

Is it really that important (to me) to have a lifelong companion? Can I just have thousand of god-kids? So I wont be bored when I am old, since I believe they would luv me dearly even I become a grannie. hehe.

Sigh, just want to say......I feel sad & worried for my friend.

Another Level of EQ

Working in a job, you need EQ.

Having a business, you need another level of EQ.

A job, you got stable income. There's no gambling in it that pisses you off or disappoints you. You got a monthly stable income, downside is you may need to watch out the faces of your boss.

A business doesnt guarentee a stable income. It's a game of gambling - you may make alot or you lose it all. Actually losing it all is better than piling up the debts. You need to get prepared the hightened EQ to handle your clients, your clients' staff, your suppliers, your partner, maybe your staff as well.......even they are cunny & nasty, you need to learn to stay silent at the right time & slash out at the right time, too. Learn to smile, but devise a plan to revenge or take back what they have taken you - during this time you need to make nice to avoid your plan flop. Even there's no revenge involved, you gotta think if they are going to trash your next move, afterall you once trusted them. The EQ to handle every aspect is overwhelming alone, but that's what I am facing now.

Yet, I so realize my EQ has come to a stage that I couldnt imagine I could possess. I mean, I wasnt born a positive, emotionless person!

And I am not losing hope on partnership too. Just that, I gotta be careful with who I partner with in the future.

Names

After some fucking living on this planet earth for 38 years, I have some categories of names that you should sway yourself from. From own personal expericence & research.

ERIC:

I met 2 Erics that I got close relationship with. One is my ex. One is my business partner. I tell you, they are totally fucker, lazy but want to gain money w/o doing much work. Seriously, my frens, with such name, stay away plz.

Fiona:

I cant remember what happened between us. I got one Fiona only, but it had something to do with trust & money too. And when I was telling my fren about it, she shared very similar experience. So beware too.

Dawn:

Always neurotic with a hint of stupid faith in stuff. Yes me, I just know me as Dawn. Dont stay away, but hit me on the head all the time when I get too idiotic, plz.

My new view on Adam & EVE

IT"S BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!

OK, one of my guy frens....he knows who the heck he is (kekekeke), as I told him I was gonna write here. He said something nasty....but we made up so wont mention it ever again. U'd better NOT!!! But one thing he kept saying was that I gotta find a nice guy.,,,nice guy,,,,,nice guy,..........................to COMPLETE me!!!!! I told him, honestly without hard-feeling of my past, I seriously enjoyed my single life too much. I am sucker for space, if anyone knows me well, ie why I have insomnia.

Why I have insomnia? Simple. Lets say I go out for 5 hours, when I get home, I need min. 5 hrs to be by myself doing nothing or anything............I cant enjoy the day w/o being by myself for the "supposedly by myself" period.

OK, about completing oneself. Really. I doubt anyone here finds oneself complete coz U r attached or U r married. I believe if you dont know yourself well, you are not complete with yourself, NO ONE, NO ONE can complete you. How many of us in this world find ourselves so uncomfortable being with himself/herself ALONE?!?! Does it mean, hving someone close by make U more comfortable? Then, can you be with that person 24 hrs alone, even while U r doing some serious shitting????????????? Sometimes, without someone, you may only find it less convenient, as air tickets - buy 2 U get cheaper fare. Hotel room, double is cheaper than single. Restaurants, a table with 2 seats instead of one seat. Or for a woman, no one helps u changing the light bulb (actually some guys dont even do that themselves!!!!!) or carry your heavy laundry. ONLY inconvenience, NOT incomplete when you dont have someone nearby!

While, lets go back to Adam & EVE. Actually, if according to the Bible, God created EVE coz ADAM was lonely. So he found a way to complete ADAM. No one ever said EVE was needed to be complete. It's ADAM - THE MAN - who was/is/has been in need for completion. So very daringly, I would say, the womam EVE was perfect! hehehehehe.........so it's wrong to tell a woman that she needs a man to complete her! Well, in retrospect, I would also jump to conclusion that why women need to endure period pain, birth pain - coz we actually convinced the imperfect ADAM to eat the fruit (no one ever said it was AN APPLE) - so we are perfectly imperfect, in somewhat, evil.

For me, I want to stay single until I find the right guy. My mom asked me why I didnt stay with the GREAT GUY (Anthony), so I wouldnt have to suffer. I tell you, my frens, if I would have stayed with him, you would never get a chance to know me. As I know me well that, I know I would surely commit suicide. Not coz he's a nice guy or a bad guy - just simply I couldnt achieve my purpose in life, while feeling guilty all the time for myself, and for him - I would surely jump. No matter how much I suffered for past few years, it was my choice, it was my purpose to learn something. But if I got stuck with just convenience, as far as I know, I would rather die than live for that.

I luv u dearly as a fren.....kekekekekeke, as long as we will go on a trip to Phuket next year or U buy me a return ticket to Melb. ^^

I am a workaholic but also a playaholic

I still have no money.

But I am so happy these few days as I am supposed to think of at least 3 projects.....coming to 4 after today's meeting. Someone is asking if I want to work with him in Shanghai......today. I feel so happy as I could use my brain actively & crazily. I guess I am a workaholic. I was depressed big time as no one was using my brain.

Yet, I also think - so if I got so much projects going on. How can I swim? Hang out? I want to do both......I realize time is so limited for someone like me....who wants to work and play all the time.

YET, I AM HAPPY HAPPY!!

Another fisherman

Talked to another fren who is a fisherman too. We find each other very intelligent. LOL

He opened few co doing pretty well, based on similar fisherman concept of living. YEAH! I am relieved, and now I have a good Monday.

Conclusion is that - we should encourage others more. Dont step on people. Dont make negative comment all the time. Make a joke to cheer someone that day, esp Monday.

Ranking

As I am glancing through my blog entry categories, I realize I have my own ranking.

Me of coz is always Number One. Then it's about people. Then, Movie. Then dogs.

Luv is really minimal, guess it suits me. I am not a very luving person, thou I am compassionate. I dont regard this as top priority of my life, thou in the past I used to think it was. I am constantly amazed at how life, experience has refined me to who I am now.

if you are talking about in luv, I feel I am so in luv with my dogs. Esp lottie now, she always luvingly gazes at me, like she couldnt keep her eyes off me. This kinda of luv constantly makes me smile & happy.

My First White Hair

I know it should be called Grey Hair but the one I found is indeed shinny white. Since I started dying my hair, I never found any white hair at all. I occasionally would ask my stylish if they could spot any at the roots, usually they always complimented my hair as dark rooted as anyone would wish. 

Now,

I got mine.

I totally disagree that if you think too much, you got your white hair. Though in some cases, if one is that stressed, not just their hair is compromised, everything inside or outside of their bodies would be compromised. I had 2 years of extreme stress & anxiety, I only found my 1st white hair - not a bunch of whities, so using me as an experiment, my point is valid. hehe

Mememto , Momento

Shit, I always said "mOmento".

Finally, I watched this, thanks to my dear friend Dion. He actually gave me the disc as he now only goes & gets himself blu-ray, hehehehee, to my benefits.

I watched few of Chris Nolan's movies lately, actually, I realized I watched most of his movies except Following & this. This one blew my mind the most. I really like that he's so dark and honest. This movie reminds me that. How many a time we want to lie to ourselves?!?! How often we all live in our own universe? Yet, not many dare to say they are not living in reality but their own fairy tale. O well, not for me to judge! :P

It's a constant effort to be honest. Just like in the moive, for Lenny, it's a constant effort to make him believe in his own lies too. It's a dual effect. U couldnt get it w/o another.

Human mind is so powerful. Some said, the collective conscience built the pyrimaid. I think it's so possible. Ar, sidetrack again.

Yawn, sleep now. Have a good week ahead everyone!!

KISSES!!

P.S. He actually "Gained major funding during the 1999 Hong Kong Film Festival by showing his film Following (1998) and then asking the audience to donate money to his next film Memento (2000).

BRAVO HongKIE, Bravo!