Sheung Wan is so growing on me

I think....maybe 5-6 yrs ago, why I wanted to move to SW? 2 reasons....I saw many gay couples and I wanted to live away from my family, as far as possible.

Gay couples? Why?? Well, to me it's like "Fu Shui" thing - somehow I find gay couples tend to be non violent and they are so nice to be looked at. :)))

And of coz SW is quite a busy place during the day and silent place during the nite. If I live in a residential area, I find the noise level and to me the pollution level bad - e.g babies always cry at nite, parents always yell at kids at nite, couples always argue and bang door at night, then, everyone turns on the air-con the highest capacity and U have to turn it on too, as all exhaust gas just compass your flat.

Then, of coz as couple of entries ago, I talked about my stroll in SW - man....I know 1-2 people just by sitting at the cafe. It's nice...I like...as we just talk rubbish anyways. What do you expect to talk on Sun!? World economic or end time? Well, we could too, of coz, but everything becomes so light over a cup of coffee.

Then, my dogs are welcome there, and esp Lottie is like a little human luving everyone, hugging everyone........frankly, half a day away from her makes me moody. So now, my wallpaper on iphone is her face only, pls dont tell my another dog, shadow....hehe.

Then at one of those lanes around cafe, they have floral shop that let you sit out on the streets to do some flower decoration urself, or I passed by a small gallery opening with some youth doing some singing and instrument on the streets. Well, if you do live in HK, you know...it's uncommon for all these happenings. I feel like I have been transported back to Melbourne....

But though, I think this stretch of streets will become too famous, once again - problem in HK, people flood to a location becoz we cool people hang out then we would escape from the overcrowdedness to another surreal place - but I hope this wont happen so soon, maybe another 3-5 yrs time!!?? since surrounding still stand many old short bldgs, developers will take alotta saliva to convince them to move, coz most of these bldgs cud be owned by the owners while running biz downstairs....(hence they cud still survive at this time in HK, this horrible era of.....loss & no found).

Hope....U can enjoy my SW too. At SW....:)

Tears & Blood and I am no idiot

Chinese saying goes, there's blood in every penny we made. OK, usually quoted by older generation. 

At this hour, I feel the same. Just for making that amount - not even enough for me to buy one side of the boots, I feel - there's blood oozed out everywhere. Whereas for tears, I think - I am way better than most people....so I shudnt cry.

Then, somewhere I read or heard from TV lately. Yes shud be Battlestar Galactica - you make the choices and you become the choices. So I made a choice (no, I was forced to) to have my own biz, now I have become my own biz. haha.

Frankly, being alone to do a so-called biz or self-employed isnt easy. And I think I dont have much specific skills - I am not a designer, thou too many (almost 99% of people who first meet me) would think I am one (no matter how glam or shabby I dress). I am not anything....sometimes ie how I feel. I dunno....is it a way god is trying to drain me from something, so I could be more flexible!?!?! (I think of the scene in recent episode of Bones - the corpse juices....kinda they have to drain it before they could examine the "bones")

I am very tired. I indeed feel drained. Just translating a press release is tiring me out - OK I never really work in PR before. haha......but somehow people think I can write such for of coz beauty products. If I count by every word, the few ones I did, I should get maybe 5 times more. But if someone could pay 5 times more, why do they want me? might as well get a pro!?!? :))

So, I am stuck. I am caught in between.

I have many threads of "projects" opened - but none is finalized. I wonder....if I am an idiot!? Seriously....ie what I am thinking. Is it me? or is it luck? OK, well what everything has in common is me....so it must be my problems. But it's hard to accept, coz I am not really that stupid....I pick up things so fast.....I always innovate whatever my hands put into....so what's going on!?!?! I am really tired.

Then people around me keep complaining......I dun understand what people are complaining!!! Have I complained much? As above said, u make the choices and U become the choices, and I believe - we never want to be the choices, then why we choose in the first place!? On a positive note....maybe god just wants to groom me into a real biz person. Yet then I wonder.....if I could be one!?!?!

HK really isnt my place. But I did try to weigh if I should come back there back then - and my conclusion was - it's going to lead me to the same place if I wud be there or here, just the paths could be different. This is my upside and also my downfall. I am too positive.....I believe in 2nd chances......I believe in learning from the paths......

So today, I am tired. I dislike the thing I am translating as the products are so boring....so fucking boring, it bores me out completely! OK, so I am like everyone else, I am complaining. So just may I complain silently.....:)

Beginning of the blog, I was comtemplating committing suicide, then it got better.....then worse.....lately, I just want a silent death. I am not sure if I could see myself through....this drag of exhaustion.....very hard to explain. This exhaustion is not like volcano explosion that one can see, but more like collective bubbles bubbling from hot springs.

That's all for today. Cant say something very positive lately. So be it, let it be......

check

nail done, check!
hair wash, check!
shower done, check!
translate an article, check!
turn off my phone, check!
feeling miserable, check!
feeling happy, also check!
talking to my dogs, check check!
going out, check!
meeting new pple, check!
seeing frenz, check!
just freaking going out, check!
my vegetable, yummy soup....not yet check! Sitting in fridge but make it tonite, ok, will check!

when u cant tell the difference

I think most pple hv it, but I usually cud tell the difference
it's day dreaming & real dreaming
I just had that this morning
but all is so hazy

I think.....I cant remember what I think
guess I was sucked into a vortex of thoughts

I need a good dream tonite
:))

International

AS I said earlier, I am sad N lonely. Every step I take is like dream-walking.
I was at internation, aka ParkNShop. I basically roamed around the whole area 3 times.
Back n forth. Back n forth.
I dunno how I got back....but I made it home.

It's strange. When u got nothing anymore
u dont need to rush home
iphone becomes meaningless
Whatsapp isnt even the most important app anymore

u know....
it's strange. I feel strange.
sometimes, its just nice to know someone is checking on u
i feel safe
now, i dont feel that anymore
except safeless and lonely

Still
have a wonderful weekend. from, me!! :))

Solo

Once, I had a friend sitting across me on my balcony telling me she felt lonely. I could feel her anguish. Loneliness is so holy and shitty. Human is but an island, so we all experience it. Yet, to some, loneliness is a way of life, part of their being and existence. As for my fren, I think, and pray for her that she would find the man who deserves her, while, he would love her no matter what! Adore this beautiful soul.

As for me, I am always fine with loneliness. But once in a while, I just feel I am loneliness flooded. it's too much to bear. 

Well,I will be fine soon but then.....today, I feel I have been rotten with sadness & loneliness. It just cripples my soul.

Everyone, have a loneless weekend. Luv, from me.

A redbull in the morning

I think.....many men think I am high maintenance or hard to please. I dunno....it depends how U keep your consistency. But I have to say I am the easiest....but mind U, I am not the dumbest....if possible, I cud be the smartest gal a guy wud ever date :P

I think to please women is so easy. At least to me, it genuinely is.

To me, when someone sends me a msg at night to say goodnite, even though we are not physically together....maybe forever.........I would still feel it's a goodnite kiss. Or a morning msg to be there with you, to me,....it's like a redbull for the morning.

Easy, yes? Maybe. But many cant be consistent with that. And many men would do that in the beginning of a rp becoz they still hvnt fully got hold of the women....after a while, it drains off. I see it often. Experience it often.

Men, really.....either U never do in the beginning, or else U shud keep doing until u die or she dies. 

but of coz, also, women are demanding...when she gets one msg, she wud then want thousand or even want the men forget abt sending but rushing to their home. something like that. 

I think a healthy love affair is highly based on this give & take, understand without demand and consistency. Women r not that difficult to please, at least most arent. And as for me, I think I am easy to please, but just that all my ex-es use the wrong ways............I can only sleep when I get a gdnite kiss or I can only work when I get a goodmorning hug (metaphors anyways).

Maybe, U can try. Even U r into a rp for forever....but its important to hv loving gesture routines to make the other person feel loved. And as for women, what shud they be consistantly doing for men? Oh well, simple.....give blow jobs constantly. :))

:P

Another nut week on shows

Watched - frankly some I dont even remember. :)

- Kramer vs kramer

- Sophie's choice

- Confession of a dangerous mind

- stranger than fiction

- rewatched Bridget Jones' Diary I & II

- Notting Hill

- The Aura

- Crazy Stupid Love

TV shows -

- Homeland

- Dexter

- Person of Interest

- Merlin

- fringe

- Bones

- Supernatural

- Gossip Girl

- NCIS

- Criminal Minds

- Desperate Housewives

- The vampire diaries

Guyz, U must watch Homeland. I usually hate anything related to serious CIA shows or terrorist related, of coz except 24, as it's so ridiculously crazy that within 24 hrs, U could get killed, revived, then shot, then have sex, then again shoot someone, then meet the president, then save the president..........

This one is as exciting (not as breathless) but equally exciting as the cast is EXCELLLLLENT!!!!!!! Just by watching them looking at the monitor saying "NO" - I was already awed with breathlessness. It's not just the suspense, thrill. care chase or politically correct speech or righteous or idiotic Jack Brauer bravery - just simple huma - flawed, nakedly crazy humans. Just that most of them are working in CIA. hahahahahaha

 

People always say I got nothing to do hence I watch so many shows. Actually - many a time I would trade my sleep.....:)))) And Pls mind U, I dont go out at all....over weekend or so. How could it be? U?? yes, me......I rather stay home N watch my shows 24 hrs..............:))))))))))

Stroll Around Hong Kong

Hong Kong is just a little place and yes we are crammed...crowded....a dense city with many bldgs and people. But sometimes amongst this concrete jungle, we can find a place or two that has a vortex of tranquility to calm your soul, to make you smile a little when you leave. I have found such places. Of coz, besides the secondhand bookshops I talked about few months ago - some hidden cafes or lanes can give you tremendous pleasures.

 

From Sheung Wan MTR, pls check the map - I just know how to get there as I live around here for total of 3-4 years from 2003/4 3 years, until 2011 6 months - Sheung Wan has changed alot, hence I just realized such hidden lanes exist. Anyhow, from hollywood road At Sheung Wan, you will find the upper station street, and you would find to me a pretty damn prettt vintage-ish chinese walkup bldg, which I almost lived there (I wanted to, as it is PINK). And up you walk, you see some old shops - e.g. electrician or some new modern shops like Aesop or even some small galleries with maybe 2 paintings....:) .......OK, whatever I am saying now sound like 30 min walk - no, it was just within 3-5 min stroll, you would capture all these under yr memory. Kinda awesome, dun u think?! U dont get to see such in many other lanes or other parts of the world much such scenes......

Then U walked up further, you would first be greeted by this "Secret Ingredient" shop (I got no idea what they do there, maybe catering) or a goddess (Kun Yin) temple (the red thing):

Then just turn left, you would see some small bldgs, it's just a very short walk - max 5 mins u r done, but amongst there, you could find various small shops, cafes -

Then, check out one of the small lanes - you will find this little cafe Knockbox Coffee that only opens on Sat & Sun from 12:30-6:30 - and from what I gather, all they do is talk. haha....I mean talk about coffee, about making frenz, yet they are very serious about making coffee. I was even told that if you have good coffee beans, you could actually bring there for them to brew. I just tried their iced-dropped coffee which took them 8 hrs to brew and it tasted like whiskey to me - I was abit drunk (tipsy) for a little while. I am sure I will frequent there alot more from now on, as their coffee is indeed pretty good

 And it's a great place to know people who are just strolling and stopping for a cuppa. :))

if by any chance you walk by Soho, sheung wan, hollywood road, I highly recommend you to check it out, and just to feel - how such these few lanes take u away from the craziness of HK life.

 

Caveman theory

One of my ex-es : he said 2 things I agree with him 100%, other things NO, these 2 absolutely. :)

1st is - if science could perfect fertilization without the need of sperms, basically women r going to rule the world, men wud become obsolete.

2nd is - men are just cavemen.

Oh actually, of coz he has the 3rd, men r controlled by your dumbsticks.

OK, well, lately various things occurred that took me to rethink what he once said to me, of coz, I could expound more, he's just being man - keep it short. :) 

I am not a feminist, on the contrary, I find many woman behaviour is dumb and idiotic. I dont wish for women to rule the world - I think, we should get metrosexual men, the real kinds to rule the world.

Metrosexual men could be straight or gay - basically they are 2 in one, Man's mindset & physique with a touch of femininity.  When God created Adam, I am sure he felt it was alrite and he knew all the flaws in his creation - yes e.g. controlled by dumbsticks. In order for not creating - hybrids (I believe at that time, it shud be feasible) of human/animals , maybe a goatman or a snakeman coz all men have a need to shag and somehow to spread the seeds. The action is kinda involuntarily, so I am sure even perfected Adam would have such (flaw) need to use his tool - and later on it became dumbstick. :)))) - partially caveman theory developing now.

And lets now forget about Adam, as Adam already sounded more intelligent or learned. 

While, for cavemen, we would not be talking about bible time 5-7 thousand years ago, but we are talking about Neanderthals or so, and they needed to learn. I think from all the coloring books or maybe even caves - we could see men were supposed to hunt and women were supposed to gather crops + take care of children. So it's very clear why women like shopping - as we were once a gatherer....we gathered crops...:)))) So we gals have all excuses to shop becoz it's jusy inborn thing, ya know.

OK, for cavemen - why men r single minded towards a prey?  Why men r hunters? It's just a gene thing. Hunters need to be precise, as you have a whole family to feed - either killed by the (I believe it used to be gigantic) giant preys or hunt it. I am sure - even back then, men luved challenges, so bigger the better, more difficult to hunt the better.......translated into modern terms. hohoho.....U know what I am getting at by now for sure.

Now, if a woman ignores the man more, the man would be more precise wanting to hunt - as it seems everything is more delicious. OK, this is purely 100% non-metrosexual males. If the prey was near them or was just a tiny rabbit - they would just leave it and think - oh well, we got a chance later. Translated to modern terms???? Bingo....if a woman treats him well, nice, sweet - the more he walks away (I am still referring to 100% non-metrosexual males). 

That brings me to conclude one point and finally I am giving women some credits. I realized....men love to live in regrets (Ok , maybe it's hard to correlate what I have been bullshitting about above but this is my conclusion), while, women  live in the present.

yes, men live in regrets and women live in the present. How many men or even yourself - would find back their ex-es? While how many women would do that? Frankly - when a woman finishes gathering, they move on.....they move onto another crop, if the other crop is much better, they would not turn back to the previous field. While men? It's very strange. Even they may have caught a challenging prey, they would always mesmerize the previous rabbit -shit they wud think, why didnt I catch it as well???!?!?!??!?! 

hehe, it sounds like I am bullshitting about men. Yes it's true. No hard feeling, but some men just make me feel sad.....why they are so ridiculous?!?!?! But guess, as said....it's a gene thing and surely guyz still have the caveman in them. Period. :))

I should delete Facebook

No way.....haha. 

No, sometimes on FB, U see many....nice pictures or good status from people, such as:

1. BABIESSSSSS

2. ENGAGED (yes a good fren golden diamond bachelor just got engaged - unbelievable!!!!)

3. Wedding, upon wedding pictures

4. Tripssssssss

5. Honeymoon tripppssssss

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

They make me want to
1. get pregnant

2. Get engaged but first of all I need a single bf 1st

3. Nah, it's OK....I had already

4. need me to expound?

5. ummmm........................it's OK, had also

LOL, no, I did think of having a baby for 2 months sometime ago....dunno why. Just that moment. Now, not really - first U need a dad and a mom, then they need to actively have sex before they could get a chance to let the fertilized egg to clutch onto the uterus wall. So, my wall has just been shed, hence.....this idea has thrown outta window.

And I dont hv a good back, I admire women x 10000 times that they could hold that gigantic belly for 9 months (ok, roughly 5 mths is that heavy).

Then, engaged. Not really also, but seeing people who are like quick sand doing it......I mean the next door pasture or bowl of rice smell better mentality.......i also want engaged. hahahahahaha......I want to feel the freaking heavy diamond ring on my finger or the surprised proposal....so fun. Actually, if that ring isnt real, I dun mind....I just want the thrill.

Honeymoon....do u know that honeymoon is usually not that honey!?!? As far as I know - couples tend to argue more during honeymoon. I think the best honeymoon is - to do nothing and sleep on the beach days and nites then nites and days, gazing the moon with a lemon honey iced on yr lips.

Wedding pics.....?! I want some really funny and stylish ones....if I ever need to take that. But isnt that supposed to leave a prettiest moment of the bride? Well, I got enough pretty pictures so I dont need more. Though - I just need to blow up mine to hang on my walls.

So all in all, I am back to where I am now.

Just blah blah with a tint of jealousy. Thats all.....sometimes hving some jealousy is good, as I am usually pretty cold hearted in that arena.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder?!?!

In my case, absence makes the heart grow further. 

Let me explain why both are true.

Fonder - well, if U fraking live together or spend hours a day or see each other like 6 days a week (minimum) and 8 days a week maximum, or sleep like cuddlin kittens every nite, well, yes that applies. Somehow, humans r supposed to be loner or an island - when the skin touches together too much or the aura of physical is too imminent - we human would start to repulse the opposite physical. So yes when it happens, this statement applies.

Further - when the above dont apply, then frankly distance & absence make 2 further. It's not about how much trust or love. We human feed on quality of a good time, the quantity of joyful time. Even though, it usually it's the first 15 seconds or intermittent some 30 second of moments that would leave burning memory, yet this needs time to breed the moment. It doesnt happen instantly. Even at times, we try to bring this to climax, it just doesnt work like that. A seed takes time to grow, let alone 2 people - humans r all so selfishly individualistic. 

I hope I can learn to be a bamboo. Bamboo is a very patient plant. or better still, I want to be a dragon egg as it can wait for 1000 years until it's right time to hatch (OK according to shows like Merlin & Games of Thrones I got such info....hehe). But Bamboo, if U plant a seed, U can never see it grow until 5 years later, as everything first grows underneath - it roots itself firmly and extensively before their boo see the real high sky. I think I have waited long enough for everything to sprout or to shoot.......pewh. It has to come. And I have to explode, shoot up like a rocket (as my teacher said once - I behave like a rocket).

Bamboo and Further = Fonder for myself and myself alone.

Shits & Cantonese Swear Words

I wrote 2 entries today but somehow they got deleted. I am fucking agitated, of coz, on top of other dramas. All fucking hellish. But..........I feel just like my name - Dawn - It's just the darkest hours before sunrise. And......I am waiting for good news next week. Something is going to happen, and I am sure about it.

but today, what made me so fucking upset is......I experienced a pseudo abandonment. Yes pseudo....coz when u never get owned, how could there be abandonment, so everything is just illusion. Then another fraking co-incidence......just drama. OK, as I said before, I am used to it. But, well, sometimes, U just find it weird & kinky. All U can do is to laugh about it - and that reminds me - today my sense of humor is slightly back finally, at least I laughed at my chinese status on Facebook. Yup, trying to write some fucking cantonese status, as at times - it could express "The fuck" word in different formats endorsed with different intensity easier.

Maybe I could try to teach here - I cant say I am perfect, yeh!?

(to write - W) (to pronounce = P)

1. (W&P) Diu = Fuck

2. (W) Diu 7 nei , (P) Diu chuk nei = Fuck U (emphasize with the 7 sound....that;s all I think - super vulgar)

3. (W) Diu 9 nei, (P) Diu gouh nei = Fuck U hard (I think the 9 emphasize something like with a bunch, like fucking u with a bunch)

hehe....sorry, I am not very good at fuck word :P, who believes huh? But it's true....:))

tears falling inwardly into heart

I always love this song and hvnt listened to it for long time. The melancholic sentiment of losing love is....too spot on by Danny Chan, Too bad, he's dead.



眼淚在心裡流　此際　怎麼開口? (tears, falling deep inside my heart. At present, what can I say?)
前事在心裡飄浮　情意　令人太難受 (The past has swum into my hear. Loving sentiments - hard for one to endure)
眼淚在心裡流　請你開一開口(tears, falling deep inside my heart. Plz say something)
隨便一聲或隨便一句 (whatever a sound or phrase - just say something)
算是問候朋友　離別你 (as a hello to a friend. Since leaving you)
自離別你　心痛苦 (since leaving you. the pain inside my heart)
比處死更難受　靈魂已失 (is worse than death sentence. Is more unbearable than death. My soul is lost)
心彷彿死去　心死問誰可救 (My heart seems dead. A dead heart, who can revive it)
眼淚在心裡流　苦痛 (tears, falling deep inside my heart,. Pain)
問你知否?情是內心的交流 (Do you know? The sentiment is communicated through the souls)
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惟盼望情愛如舊　眼淚在心裡流 (just wish that the love could remain the same) (tears, falling deep inside my heart)
苦痛問怎麼休? (when will this agony of pain go away?)
琴鍵打開　亦無心奏 (I have no mood to play on the opened paino keyboard)
我現在似木偶　人像木偶 (I am now like a puppet. A person behaving like a puppet)
我人像木偶 (I am like a puppet)
只歎輕輕送走了時候 (I can only give out a slight sigh to farewell the time, the moment)
全忘餓與飽　心中空虛了 (forget hunger or full. Inside my heart, it's all empty)
衣襟淚痕濕透 (my clothes, my sleeves are soaked with tears)
眼淚在心裡流　苦痛 (tears, falling deep inside my heart, The agony of pain)
問你知否? 情是內心的交流(do u even know about it? My agony of pain. Loving sentiment is communicated through soul)
盼心曲再奏　情是內心的交流 (hope our songs will once be played again. Loving sentiment is communicated throiugh souls)
盼心曲再奏

Inferiority complex of HK local chinese

Well, not pinpointing anyone in particular, but on FB - my frenz, my relatives.....

In the street, strangers, old local ladies or men......or teenage boyz & galz - local

THEY ALL YELL - when things are not ok

for e.g. - someone shit in MTR or someone spit on the street or someone eats dog meat, or someone kills someone, or someone sells someone, or someone robs someone, or someone shits in someone's mouth.........

etc etc

They ALL yell - ACT of mainland chinese. I get realllllllllllllllllllllllllllly frustrated when I hear this. Well, pls be fair, man!! U HK locals (incld me) are really that good??!! Let me count..........

1. My mom spit on the street. I remember vividly - as I asked her not to do that....I mean I dun fraking care she spit on the street or toilet.............JUST NEVER FUCKING SPIT in front of ME....I vomit when I hear the sound.

2. We once had the highest concentration of triads. Tell me, where all the gangster movies come from? Inspired by?? yes....inspired by us local dudes, man!

3. Shit in mtr? I saw local moms allowing kids to pee or shit on the street or anywhere if their kids felt like (ok, that was some decades ago, and I believe I DID THAT too.....klakakakaak....my mom asked me too......:P )

4. Not polite? No discipline?? Hey come on......only past 5 years I started seeing people queueing for MTR. I had been pusheddddddddddddddd away so fucking many times for men or women alike.

5. Ok, so if we are so well-educated. Why in MTR or bus, I dont really see people giving seats to pregnant ladies or old people????

6. If see handicapped or mentally challenged people - why run away???

We HK locals are from CHINA, we have chinese blood flowing in our veins. OK, yes mainland chinese are abit backward in their education, but the well-educated ones are going to change the world, and if we local keep this attitude, we wont even have a cut. I mean.....a cut from a gigantic ocean!! I dislike us HK locals....who pretend to be educated but without independant thinking, just follow-suit without any ideas.......the stupid politicans scream at chinese govt, they also do likewise, but why? Oh coz it's chinese govt, they are corrupted..............HEY...........we are also corrupted. If we are so smart or upright, we have already changed this fucking world. Yes, so chinese bribe, americans dont bribe? hahahaha....In a capitalistic world, the corruption is even more wide-spread and vast that no one can be pinpointed to be sentenced to death.

At least once in a while, we get to see few of those food chains get killed under chinese govt.

I again.....have to say....am not a political mindset person. I just prefer things to be fair.....and I hate people badmouthing in general term. OK, I am bad too, as I make it quite clear I am not v fond of americans & sporeans outloudly. Sorry. I dont mean it....but I really dun like most of them. Buttttttttttttttttt I would never say - see americans suck big time as they big mouth & big ass. :))

Sorry, dont hate me. If u have read it here more than once, u are neither a chinese nor american nor european or brit......but U r my fren, U r a human who may be interested in silly stuff like me. :))

Thanks U.

Movies watched....and recommended

Frankly, since I learnt how to use torrents, my world is always torrents. Tdy, I feel like stopping it.....I am totally addicted & obsessed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, few movies I watched lately and I find it may worth your time to watch:

1. Horrible Bosses - super fucking funny.

I never really like comedy as I cant really laugh with their jokes all the way, but this movie is the 2nd one I could. The first one was There's something about Mary.

2. Margin Call

Financial thriller - not exactly like the evil Wall Street I or II. But I find it worth watching despite I know squat about finance or stock market. no.1 coz the assembled cast is superb. Kevin Spacey vs Jeremy Iron. Demi Moore is surprisingly good. Of coz my favourite Sylar is there (Zachary Quinto). But the most outstanding actor to me is - Priest in Priest - Paul Bettany. He's awesome!!!! It's a more realistic portrayal of the reality, I feel.

3. Watched few turkish movies and find them to be decent & great.

3.1 Head On

3.2 Love like coincidences

3.3 Climate

Actually, I find turkish language sound very much like korean, also the sentiment seems quite similar as well. I esp like Climate even though it's a super slow movie - the actor was awesome.

4. Cashback

It's a fabulous movie. Funny, witty.

5. OK, about TV series.

This one I always talk about it - But dexter season 6 is super amazing. I mean frankly - the robin hood styled serial killer thingy is getting draggy to me, but this season has new way of "demonstrating" the murdered victim.....I was just in awe. I dont think such crimes or knitted corpses have ever been found like that, but all in all - it was awesome. Must watch....:))

6. Alpha Sy-Fy channel

OK, it's abit like Heroes. However, Heroes should not be made into TV series, rather, they should be a collection of movies, then I think the whole gross will be better, and it wouldnt be ended so abruptly, my thinking. Alpha is more down-to-earth - about a group of superability normal people who dont really have higher goal like maybe Sylar to obtain all talents & power or like Peter wanting to be superman to save the world. Yet Alpha simplicity is quite attractive to me, as you see the characters becoming more mature and realistic...then U start to think, very very likely we do have some alphas walking around us. :))

OK....that's all for now....I watched way too many but since I already did my backup, I couldnt exactly recall which I watched. The sucked ones, I delete so quickly - e.g. Hangover II. I deleted it within a sec....:))

Leather

HK is getting cooler, and I for once cant wait but to get my leather jackets out to let them breathe abit on my balcony. I luv the smell of leather jackets, there's nothing to be more excited for a cooler winter to be able to wear leather jackets & boots all the time. I am yet to have 2-3 more leather jackets to be owned by me.....colors that I am looking for, creamy white, purple & green. I already have red, biker chick blk, some orangey, camel.....yes I need a long one as well. Actually I do have a purple one which is a think layer of leather....now thinking of it, I hope I still have it.

Then boots......I luv boots.............

Sometimes, I like v-neck as can show off my pseduo cleavage but I esp am fond of turtle neck which just hang themselves around my belly button. The length of it is important - it gives another form of sexiness. I mean of coz one cant have too big belly - which...I am semi-big....lol....but with rite pants, it's all fine. And one must have silhouette, which I gotta say - many HK galz dont really have it as they are too obsessed with being skinny. I frankly quite like my silhouette, hehe.....I think maybe more than one man did comment or compare me with greek statue - which are usually not at all skinny. heheheheheh.....while, one did want to turn me into those supergal superhero....so I say to myself, my silhouette must be not that bad!! :))

For some, different seasons have diff obsession. For me, summer only has one - me, and my air-conditioner. Sorry, I really cant say I like water sports that much. Though when I was young, I did.....nowadays, not really, and of coz, somehow some fortune teller or oracles or whatever did keep reminding me not to play w water much.....well, this idea fits me. But actually I do remember when I started having fear of water.....it was at a snorkeling in Thai or M'sia....couldnt recall..........as I was trying to snorkel even at shallow water, as I looked ahead to the ocean (under the ocean), I could sense a chilly force rushing to me (I never was afraid since I learnt swimming at young age by myself, but I am not a terrific swimmer, a manageable one only) - I felt scared so I quickly went back to the dryland......after all these years, I could still feel it.

So, I am so excited and happy that for few months, we dont need to endure the humidity & high tempearture...................but in replacement, we could keep showing off our leather skins....(we r a bunch of brutal humanss......LOLLLLLLLLLLLL) :P sollie

how can I not love more? (posted on Facebook)

How, can I not love my Lottie more than, maybe shadow? yes people would say I have favouritism.




Honestly, taking shadow in was a selfish act as I was missing my collie-BoBo too much, and also when I saw her - I knew she would be put to death by pet shop as no one would take her in at that time - when animal rights were even worse than now. (BoBo-Dog visited me in my dream and told me he became human- ie when I found release after months of his death.) Shadow came along and she was very detached dog - kinda like me, so when I cried, she never really care, except - wanting food & toy.

Now I have a second dog - Lottie - she has brightened up my days & nights simply  - she is opp to me & shadow. She's darling, loving, and she put her mama as her first priority. Not food nor toy. When I cry, she wud sit on my belly looking at me. Of coz both of them luv everyone who visit my home-Lottie always needs to do more to convince pple to luv her, becoz she seems more crazy and active. But once she quiets down, the whole world isnt about food or toys, but about U - me or my frenz. When shadow was sick, she would intentionally walk away from me so shadow could stick ard me. After desex, she didnt even bother to lick her wound which is something a dog wud normally do. She wud always prioritize going out with me to be more important than taking my treats (shadow is always opposite, food first). When she eats, I ask her to stop - she would obediently wait until I say OK without any sneering or anger.

And now I luv her more day after day, as every nite esp, she is like my guardian angel always checking on me. Not that I dun luv shadow, but sometimes I think luv needs to be earned. U couldnt sit there and wait for luv. People, or dogs, or cats could luv u without reasons, but yet U need to earn to make them luv u continuously. It's a realistic world - no one can be dead fish in practice and yet gain everything.

So, no, I luv both of my dogs but I do have my fav, yes Lottie has been my fav since long time, as she makes me feel - being a mom or master has some rewards, has some luv in return not coz I could give her food or make her happy, but simply becoz she just adores me, and she works hard to adore me.

I luv u, Lottie....kisssssss

Last night I had a strangest dream

Hvnt been able to write much nowadays as my mind has been clouded, not by iphone iCloud, but literally clouded. So, as I was running through Youtube, some songs I want to share - from my favourite duo, introduced by my Aunt - who shared with me a loving story how "Bridge over trouble water" came about - I immediately fell in love with them, of coz they have the most amazing voice.

"click at the youtube show - it has lyrics. :)) "

Last night I had the strangest dream

I used to love to sing this, as it sounds so happy. Now, the tune is happy but I am old enough to know - if what they say happens, it means it's the end of the world. :))

Wednesday 3am

I always find this song....abit sad, and I always tell myself I wont kill, I wont steal. :))

Leaves that are green

I love this song too, as it makes me understand another form of melancholy. - TIME.

Flowers never bend with rainfall (REALLY??? - I need to walk around during rainfall....haha)

Through the corridors of sleep
Past the shadows dark and deep
My mind dances and leaps in confusion.
I don't know what is real,
I can't touch what I feel
And I hide behind the shield of my illusion.

So I'll continue to continue to pretend
My life will never end,
And flowers never bend
With the rainfall.
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/s/simon+and+garfunkel/flowers+never+bend+with+the+rainfall_20124734.html ]
The mirror on my wall
Casts an image dark and small
But I'm not sure at all it's my reflection.
I am blinded by the light
Of God and truth and right
And I wander in the night without direction.

So I'll continue to continue to pretend
My life will never end,
And flowers never bend
With the rainfall.

It's no matter if you're born
To play the King or pawn
For the line is thinly drawn 'tween joy and sorrow,
So my fantasy
Becomes reality,
And I must be what I must be and face tomorrow.

So I'll continue to continue to pretend
My life will never end,
And flowers never bend
With the rainfall.

Leaves that are green 

Ancients & random thoughts

I am always interested in ancient civilization, esp the myths about Atlantis or Lemuria. Well, I do believe in Plato. So lately, I have been watching this series Ancient Aliens - I cant say I agree with everything they put on there, but just by seeing all the mysterious ancient megaliths or monuments or civilization - that alone already make me high. I remember my life aim when I was young was to be either be an astronaut or archeologist. 

However, I am disappointed with one of the representatives of the theologians, she said - people at biblical time wrote stuff and we couldnt take it literally, as they used symbols to represent their thinking. Frankly, I totally disagree with her from a bible point of view. If that;'s the case, then she's indirectly admitting that God is not really god but something that they didnt know, so they just put Yewah there for the sake of "symbolising"??!! 

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Frankly seeing mysterious carving into stone signifying a doorway to another plane - frankly it intrigues me. Really??!!?!?!? Who would do such? Except, maybe.....some grain of truth?!?! To me, I believe in stargate actually or vortex or portal, esp wormhole, of coz.

Anyways, going to Peru is a must for me some day, now not confined just machu Piccu. :))

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Then, before I woke up from a dream - just some scattered visions -I came to have an idea how to escape Tsunami, and then if lets say Altantian was indeed highly technological advanced, I assumed they should have what I imagined in my head-glass house shut down upon touching water. hahaahahah.......in my head, the image was pretty cool and awesome and I did see the flood.

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I am thinking of one thing. For me, I dont have much requirement for a lover or something. except, the person I could really fall in love with is basically - I could bullshit anything and he has to love whatever I write. And of coz, he has to be abit odd & crazy so I can love the weirdness & oddity of another polarity too., :))

And the best match of sociopath is actually psychopath. :D