It's been a while.....

My mood & energy level have been really ups & downs as my work has taken toll on me badly. But in the midst of it, my brain was functioning, yet, I got no momentum to write or share. In the light of pre-weekend, I would like to write something, and I do hope, maybe some of you, who do check on me at times.....whatever I am going to say, well, I got no idea what I am going to say....would give u a smile or some lightning in your psyche.

First, I want to talk about HK. HK has been rioting about an education implementation - I assume it's rgd implementing national (china) education within our system. I dont have much problem with it.....but somehow most HK pple are afraid it's going to brainwash their kids. My question to them is......have they already been brainwashed!? Have they even taken the time to read the kids books nowadays? I dont understand why it's a problem....with the advancement of internet....no one is blocking us to compare notes. Though, I also wonder the standard of teachers nowadays......it depends how they educate the material. E.g. Japan wud teach the nationals (correct me if I am wrong) - Japan didnt commit bad mistakes during world war 2, etc.....(sorry, I am bad with history) - yet, I dont see most japanese deny it but it's just taboo to talk about it.

I actually support instilling some national education in us.....we sometimes dont even know who we are....the mockery is that they say " we are Honkie, We are not chinese", this kinda broadcast is worst than denial in history. We have no identity for so many decades, so we are lost. We are more so lost......it's fine to stand up against a system, a govt, I believe, but to deny one's identity - making the battle we fight shrink down to nothingness.

I feel fearful for our gen - 1. we have no identity, 2. we dont have wisdom & experience to govern even a company...at times.....I hvnt met many...I met maybe a handful wise people in HK, however, when I was working in china for just 1 year, at least, I met couple of very intelligent, wise, kind local chinese. I was deeply impressed......and vice versa, I know they were deeply impressed by me, as frankly - most chinese in mainland know what HK pple are made of.

Anyhows, whatever they have been doing lately, to me, it's just Rah Rah. We have become a Rah Rah city....what a shame, a rah rah city with no identity.....no wonder, somewhat I feel we are a pseudo sin city.......I hope I am an artist, so I could paint my image of HK on a canvas.

OK, talk abit about myself. Yes work.....tiring, crazy, squeezeful, stressful, making me breathless at times, and I can say, I have given my life to this company just for a decent salary. This is how we live....sadly....in a cosmopolitan city. But I know myself well, the notion is....if I can hide in a quiet village, having butterflies flying around me, hearing birds singing in the morning, sitting next to the little pond sipping coffee or just jumping into the sea, which is 5 steps from my home - yup seems supberb and heaven;y but I am a city gal....so this is my life and I am not going to complain about it.

And so.....what I feel excited about lately. First, re-decorating my home by buying some vintage CHANEL cut-out from old magazines from the States, I am going to mount them. yes, including my fren's kid & sis kids pictures....I am going to mount them. And then, I removed my sofa, donating to a church grp which would send off all the used furniture to kids in Africa....in replacement, I am going to make an arabic corner.....stuff like that takes time to collect and assemble, but these already male my days filled w excitement and imagination. 

While, I have always dedicated to change the world by my little way, esp when pple are rah rah outside, I feel - unlike what they yell nowadays - WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO YOUR CITY!?!? I would like to ask them silently - WHAT HAVE YOU DONE FOR YOURSELF AND PEOPLE AROUND YOU!? It's just a MLM (multi-level marketing) concept, if U change 1 person, in term U can change another 3. It's just a math.....HK people just want to change everything overnight, yet, we dont have the inner temperament to do so....wisdom, endurance....so, as for me, I am going to keep being myself. Changing world in my most effective way - people around me. Instill them the right attitude towards looking at one thing.....

I always like Bruce Wayne.....my dark knight.....non pretensious, dark, hv his own means & ways.......to change whatever he can.....accept & learn to know something is beyond him....just love Chris Nolan's depiction of Dark Knight.

Having all these BS, I come to think....it's great HK now has division, 2 groups...it's wonderful actually. One side is like me.....finding them stupid, the other side finds us ignorance indifference.....hehe, how one grows is by pruning, by arguing (internally or externally), by hving fever (so U can grow tall).............

Enough said, I think I am going to get a lomo camera....I want to capture the pseudo Sin city soon.:)

Have a great weekend.