I am a man's gal, as someone says....it's true. I am indeed a man's gal. I practically have hard time talking to women....as they r petty, competitive (with no grounds)......and....etc etc. And someone shares with me......after a almost 2 decades of marriage, he finally realized that his ex spouse treated him like shits and the thing is....I said to him....it's fantastic U realized "u allowed her to treat u like shits". I dont un us. I dont un humans.
Why....we r so caught up with torture?! We love to be in pain......well, most I guess. All of U r going to disagree with me, but spend 3 days with me, tell me your stories, I can 100% be sure.....I am going to scoop out your pain! Many a time, we wud say - I am being responsible, I am just fulfilling duty, I am just being a good person......in this world, if one doesnt luv oneself, nobody is genuinely gonna luv u. I think all the merits are great, but........when we cud never get outta it (tell me, really? U cant? they cant? I cant? and why....why some pple can!?!?!?!), we r trapped in within.....I dare say, we dont deserve to be happy.
How many humans r happy??? We all know certain theories and thoughts.....but we r not happy. I am never a happy person, for many years when I was in my 20's, I always asked - what's happy? I dont un....really....how cud one say one is happy? I cud never say I was happy. But as gradually, I developed a high EQ persona - ah Q (from a chinese author's character), I gradually have been drawn closer to happiness, though, I still cant say I am happy person - but I am a hopeful person, with very good regenerating system as I explain to my frens.
Why I cud say I am a fairy tale gal?! As no matter how broken I have been, I always find ways to mend them back......I then wud keep on hving hope for the best, for the perfection. I think this is a superhero ability......hahahaha........I dunno how I cud be like this, but I believe I always see things from afar. When I was young in my 20's, I always consoled myself by telling me - hey after 10 years U looked back at this moment, U wud laugh at yourself. So do you want to laugh at yourself so much?! If no, then dont do it.......of coz I am not that rational, but it helps me to create this ah Q persona.
Then, I talked about compartmentalization to my fren again last nite, eventhis term was extracted from Alias the TV show, yet......in order to heal oneself faster, U need to develope compartmentalization. Imagine.....U r just using one brain, but..../now with 4 comparrtments, U r actually using 4 brains. So, if onebrain fails or broken.....use the other 3. U cud heal the damaged brain-part much faster.
Ok.....my freaking singer fragrance brand is awaiting me.../YUCK........../
And I have to say....I am so deviated from my topics again.....hahaha....anyhows, pls note, if somewhat U cud get it U allow yrself in pain, this realization is already god-sent gift, as too many, way too many r still living in their zombie bodies. :))
ReplyDeleteYou have to get that brain-compartmentalization technique patented!! You can call it "Ah Cow" persona since cows have 4 stomach compartments (^^)
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ReplyDeleteA man’s fairy tale gal??? Conjures up interesting images – Can I design your superhero costume? You are certainly my superhero…. Thanks for the messages of hope and inspiration…
ReplyDeleteWhy do ppl like pain? Does it make them feel more alive???? More than happiness anyway – It begs the question what is happiness? Hopefully in the very near future, I will be able to compartmentalize this chapter of my life, and archive it in the back of my mind, along some other chapters of my life – heavy, lol. Anyway, in a few years time I could look back and assess the ‘happiness’ factor – it is all comparative anyway I think.
But if you wish to spend a few days to ‘scoop out my pain’, I would be interested to experience your technique, though I am not sure exactly what this may involve. It would certainly be more interesting than hours and hours and months of therapy, lol.
Now you could patent THAT as a technique. Show the shrinks how to do it, lol
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Frankly.....my ex did draw me like a superhero but it looks like catwoman, it's kinda....not as sexy as I thought. So feel free to do so. :)
ReplyDeleteI will have many patents one day....as according to my "feeling" and my life analystsssss, I shud be quite....rich and famous one day. haha