Many men said I was too serious.....yet, in the very beginning, they liked my nonsense mind, filled w crazy ideas thoughts, intense conversation.......also my adorable demeanour. Yet, after a while, people would put what you think is merit and repackage to sound as if it's something bad. I often wonder, am I that serious? Am I that intense? Maybe, but I dont see anything wrong in that! The funny thing is.....I am a legless bird, I always look for ground, frankly - I am always dead serious about it. Then, I think many r attracted by my thoughts, deep Inquisition about life, humans.....but always in such, you flip the coin - really depends which side U think is better.
I think it's time....to know maybe this person doesnt indeed embrace you as much as u think they do. Or maybe we dont love or adore each other as much to a point that we can accept each inadequacy anymore. one thing led to another. It's saddening to know, it takes long time to break a seed open, u water it, and wish it would grow.....then, u realize U were dreaming it was growing and actually it actually didnt even sprout. Maybe it's how it is......
Then,next, I am fortunate enough to be a modern woman, a woman living in this free city whereby I am not bound by any traditional rules. I could date anyone I want, I could work any job I want, I could make any frenz I want, I could shag anyone I want or I could breakup/divorce anyone I want. No one would officially lawfully have the rights to stone me!
So my conclusion is....I am crazily serious and seriously crazy! U can love me or U can hate me, and it doesnt make much difference to me when I die. If things r not meant to be, it will go into the river of forgetfulness, gradually things will fade away, memories will be diluted; then other things will be renewed and reborn through this river. Strangely, from same river.....ie river of life or cycle of sucks?! :)
Anyhow, I am not depressed....not moody....not even melancholic. I think I am just realizing something and I am not going to fight against it anymore.
That is so damn accurate an observation! Totally agree! Also agree with the conclusion!
ReplyDelete"Maybe we dont love or adore each other as much to a point that we can accept each inadequacy anymore..."
Cliche isnt it - when ppl say that when you say you love a person it means loving "everything" about him or her?
But on the flipside, it's better to know they couldnt accept "everything" earlier than later...
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ReplyDeleteeverything is so general...indeed. thou sounds so nice.
but, when i indeed felt that luv, seriously - the flaw itself becomes adorable, the merit itself comes more oozes of adorability.
it's just hurdle after another, after the stage of infactuation. I evaluated myself alot during the pre- and post- of this stage.....if the conclusion is, flaws remain adorable (of coz, wud be slightly less than initial ) then = luv rather than just sweaty meaty passion. :)))
i guess ie why I am serious....hehe
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