I am In Barcelona

Going to Spain was one on my list but now I am here, I feel nothing. Maybe it's coz it's a biz meeting, with some ass I am trying to find his loophole to....attack him....really. I hate him. I seldom hate but I am so good at faking smiles, hey brother, how r u doing? Everything OK on your side, blah. Anyways, just part of games one has to play in our lives anyways. This is my reality. Here, I am freaking honest, over the reality, I am trying to be as genuine, but I fake alot too....and sometimes I even seem ignorant. Anyways.

Yes BCN. Well, the weather is nice. Should hv some tour tmr or sthg. But it doesnt excite me alot. Frankly. And this place somehow reminds me of some melancholic moments I am experiencing - the forcing back to reality & giving up dreams. I mean I had a dream. I luv Out of Africa opening - I had a farm in Afirca. I always think, I want to start by saying - I had a dream in the alternate universe. :)

Yes BCN will forever remind me the drag & agony I am bringing with me. I hope it also means there will be renewal, revival of some sort within my soul or my heart.....embarking, ie what I am wishing for. I want to cry but I cant. I want to sleep but I cant. I want to drink but now wine makes me dizzy. I want to eat but food makes me want to throw up. (I am not pregnant....hehe)

 

Now I am no longer hoping to go to Spain, Prague....well, I will still go, but there are these few magical places I need to be...one day. I would see this as completing a dream someone drafts for me. And I luv the dream.......so, I want to put 2 songs here, both John Lennon. And I will write soon when I go back to HK or maybe tonite.....hehe.

Thanks for caring & stopping by. xoxo

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Love is feeling, feeling love,
Love is wanting to be loved.
Love is touch, touch is love,
Love is reaching, reaching love,
Love is asking to be loved.
Love is you,
You and me,
Love is knowing,
We can be.
Love is free, free is love,
Love is living, living love,
Love is needing to be loved.