Currency

I never understand currency and I honestly dont want to understand ever....except whatever I have is on the rise. My fren Bruce told me once, money is just fluid - basically there's no ever real money in the world. I contemplated this for long time.....kinda get it then also dun get it. :)

Then, today, I have a thought. Actually every part of our life is marked with the label of some form of currency. It doesnt have to be money. It could be time. It could be how much one is willing to offer or to take risk - for e.g. in an adventure. Or how much one is willing to give - for e.g. love.

I remember once, my ex told me - "I wish I met you first so I wouldnt have to marry my ex-wife (HAHAHAHAH - idiot). And lets see how we continue on, maybe I will marry U too" - Holy molly shitass idiotic mother+dad licking fucker. :) I think - he labelled luv with a conditional currency which - he wouldnt be willing to pay. I mean, it makes sense he says that, but you shouldnt put this currency - the reducing currency on the table. How could a relationship be "getting better" or "brighter" when conditions apply. 

Though, maybe he's right, it just doesnt rhyme with me at all. Hence the currency became negative. I mean at least, I never wanted to exchange with him at all.

And I started to understand my ex-boss - a s'porean - he always said, so how you justify, quantify the outcome. I mean at 1st I hated it - coz it's sp stressful to answer when I wasnt dealing with sales. But I learnt quickly  that - everything a boss expects has to be revenue striving - hence the quantification. I think it's totally fine, so from then on, I always try to enhance my quantifiable value in every aspect I can, coz I want to be valuable in my jobs. And hence I feel my currency level is higher than most as I understand the game better.

Then friendship - how to see the currency. Lately, I realize that some frenz who will do all out to be there. I experienced my shares, fortunately - that makes my life worth living, while, of coz to me, their currency value is high. I wont forsake them when they face troubles, or when they need me. This is a currency exchange chain - people need to get it and should never ask, why I got no one to be there for them. 

What I want to say is that my fren - I love her dearly - after seeing it, I even more swear to myself, one day - no matter how difficult I would protect her. She's always there for her frens - and clearly every week she has many people who would want to meet up with her. She's not 20's....in our 20's, people call U out becoz U r fun to be with, After 30's, people call U becoz U r a good fren to be with. I see the golden soul, crystal spirit in her - clean & spotless towards taking care and being there for others. Her currency is high and keeps on the rising - I bet hers will never drop, she will always have a buffer underneath her, despite how life could be torturing us out of random at times. 

Anyhow.........at the end, no matter how honest or genuine we think we are. Everything comes with a currency - and it's translated into efforts, time, love quantity, quality or a giant castle or bank account.......whatever it is, we say there's no way to measure - yet there's ALWAYS another form of currency. As for my blog......I appreciate those who read here occasionally - ie the currency you have given me - your brain juice & time. And on another more personal blog, that someone will read it everyday no matter how difficult it is - then he has offered me the currency of seriousness & me-important value.

Thanks U all.