IS THE BEST FEELING!!!!
Suddenly the world becomes transparent. The clarity within is extraordinary. When I die, can someone promise me that they will publish my emails, my blogs, my stories? O also my letters. I lost my diary.......which was depressingly genius written when I was in OZ.
To be very frank, after my last ex, my sex drive became subzero. I was proud of things about myself, now no more, but recently, thanks to a french, I got vindicated. Maybe I shouldnt say it here, but the feeling was fantastic when U are no longer in your own jail. I am like a prisoner in parol - trying to fit into the normal lifestyle, it's freaking difficult for me. I dunno if pple get my meaning. It's not abt my ex - it's about my family + my ex-es. But also, no....it's the bondage I put myself into. What the heck?
Actually, I am not that intelligent. I also got envious with people who have Einstein brain. I hate it to know I dont hv the mc square equation inovated.
As I said, in our lifetime or this era, we are moving so quick, so stuffed that we are actually living more than one lifetime. It's horrific, rite? But, as I was talking to a guy who turns 50 in few months. He dissect our life into 4 stages.
1. Learnt fr others - 0-20
2. learning by yourself - 20-40
3. Making people suffer 40-60
4. Redemption 60-80
I cant say I totally agree with the stages or definition but it has a grain of truth in it.
Treasure your life, Enjoy your moment, Stay sad if you need to but give yourself a timeframe (everyone has to feel pain, dont bury it at all, feel it before you move on), keep posiitve energy, smile more often, have a pet, kiss your lovers, hug your family.....................................
ok. thanks for listening to my bs again.
As I said, in our lifetime or this era, we are moving so quick, so stuffed that we are actually living more than one lifetime. It's horrific, rite? But, as I was talking to a guy who turns 50 in few months. He dissect our life into 4 stages.
1. Learnt fr others - 0-20
2. learning by yourself - 20-40
3. Making people suffer 40-60
4. Redemption 60-80
I cant say I totally agree with the stages or definition but it has a grain of truth in it.
Treasure your life, Enjoy your moment, Stay sad if you need to but give yourself a timeframe (everyone has to feel pain, dont bury it at all, feel it before you move on), keep posiitve energy, smile more often, have a pet, kiss your lovers, hug your family.....................................
ok. thanks for listening to my bs again.
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