My EQ is high but my black face never dies

Couple of years ago, I got record low EQ. I got discouraged all the time, I turned depressed all the time, I cried all the time - like my fren said - a typical crying bitch.

NOW?!

Wow, my EQ is pretty high. I dont feel "depressed" so easily, as I got too many things that worth my depression, yet I dont hv time to be depressed over them. However, when I am running a project, the client doesnt co-operate or get serious about it, I BLACK FACE. I used to blackface to my boss. Now, I blackface to my clients. I couldnt help it, in somewhat, I am a perfectionist. I hate it when people dont see well planning for e.g. opening a counter is important enough to reply some emails, make some phone calls to align.....etc etc. I hate it also, people think things will be smooth, BLINDLY believing it. Well, if you are not asking for something accurate or perfect, I guess it's totally cool. But, I really hate it also sometimes they think everything can be redone. The thing is - I hate the rework process. I trained my team before - THINK AHEAD to avoid the things you hated gutz - REWORK. It's time wastage, effort wastage. It's so not edifying. It's so not challenging. It's so freaking boring. So, I am pretty demanding when it comes to a project. But my motto is if you try your best beforehand, it doesnt come through - then U already WIN!! 

My fren Raine is right. Sometimes it's so tiring to work for bosses who are not actually hands-on & investing their time in the business enough. They think they do. They run around doing things, talking things, but they never spend time to look at internal problems. MAybe for e.g. for once seriously FIRE the uselss idiots. Or maybe pay better salary for a good candidate, rather hiring 5 uselss people. It's the new world, the fit survives. Let them die but build a strong co for himself or herself. 

Many people thing, they HAVE a business. Sorry, its a bad idea. It should be BUILD a business - constantly need building. Having it is easy, building it is difficult. Just like for working pals, job & career are two different things. Many people are working on a job but not building their career.

I honestly wanna die if I got just stuck in a job but not a career - that's my feeling in the past. Even I am still going through very very harsh time, I am content within as this is what I like - whatever I am doing, owning freedom yet building a business of my own.