My fate is somewhat going to be determinded by a conf call by a bunch of europeans. Isnt it cool????
Shit, I should be shitting myself freaking out now. But I am very calm like hte silent Space. I guess my last 2 years of training and many years training my EQ (from -ve EQ) from my neurotic, suspicious bossesssssss..........I learnt my lesson. The only way to combat this fear is to ignore it. Find more things to do. Ie why I have been sending out many many emails on proposing business co-operation.
What if it's bad news? Honestly, I will be happy too, as this gives me a direction. Finally, I can let go completely. Feel suck for sure. But I have done my best. I will work on something else. It's like a bad relationship. Getting out or staying put. It's never an easy way out. If someones makes the move, sometimes inside we are happy despite we may feel remorse toward them at the same time. Bittersweet is the sweetest of all.
If it's good news. Whoever is reading it, I will buy a drink when I see you! :)
i am experiencing the fear you mentioned here, i am so depressed and now trying to do all the things i can do, until someone or my boss tell me it's wrong, then a least i got an direction, totally agree!!
ReplyDeleteSweetie, you are just starting out. The stress & fear r just part of the deal. You did a splendid job in CN, I dun think U couldnt conquer the SEA region, next step it's to get the world to bow down to your feet. ^^
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