Sometimes it takes a lifetime to get it, if U r lucky....

I am a man's gal, as someone says....it's true. I am indeed a man's gal. I practically have hard time talking to women....as they r petty, competitive (with no grounds)......and....etc etc. And someone shares with me......after a almost 2 decades of marriage, he finally realized that his ex spouse treated him like shits and the thing is....I said to him....it's fantastic U realized "u allowed her to treat u like shits". I dont un us. I dont un humans.

Why....we r so caught up with torture?! We love to be in pain......well, most I guess. All of U r going to disagree with me, but spend 3 days with me, tell me your stories, I can 100% be sure.....I am going to scoop out your pain! Many a time, we wud say - I am being responsible, I am just fulfilling duty, I am just being a good person......in this world, if one doesnt luv oneself, nobody is genuinely gonna luv u. I think all the merits are great, but........when we cud never get outta it (tell me, really? U cant? they cant? I cant? and why....why some pple can!?!?!?!), we r trapped in within.....I dare say, we dont deserve to be happy.

How many humans r happy??? We all know certain theories and thoughts.....but we r not happy. I am never a happy person, for many years when I was in my 20's, I always asked - what's happy? I dont un....really....how cud one say one is happy? I cud never say I was happy. But as gradually, I developed a high EQ persona - ah Q (from a chinese author's character), I gradually have been drawn closer to happiness, though, I still cant say I am happy person - but I am a hopeful person, with very good regenerating system as I explain to my frens.

 

Why I cud say I am a fairy tale gal?! As no matter how broken I have been, I always find ways to mend them back......I then wud keep on hving hope for the best, for the perfection. I think this is a superhero ability......hahahaha........I dunno how I cud be like this, but I believe I always see things from afar. When I was young in my 20's, I always consoled myself by telling me - hey after 10 years U looked back at this moment, U wud laugh at yourself. So do you want to laugh at yourself so much?! If no, then dont do it.......of coz I am not that rational, but it helps me to create this ah Q persona.

 

Then, I talked about compartmentalization to my fren again last nite, eventhis term was extracted from Alias the TV show, yet......in order to heal oneself faster, U need to develope compartmentalization. Imagine.....U r just using one brain, but..../now with 4 comparrtments, U r actually using 4 brains. So, if onebrain fails or broken.....use the other 3. U cud heal the damaged brain-part much faster.

Ok.....my freaking singer fragrance brand is awaiting me.../YUCK........../

HK Tally

Thanks to Bruce, he reminded me, what the heck!? No entry...?! since May 3rd....really? since so long.....why time flies so fast!??????? I always say, whoever says whatever I said "time flies so fast" is an idiot, so yes I am an idiot too. Coz time doesnt fly but speed us or fade us by.

It's been a really busy and emotional month, and when I was supposed to go home finish my 3 plans last nite - I decided I shud hv a drink with my fren. A gal.....who is indeed luving beauty with her being, all her cells. As I compare, I really dont coz I spend less than 5 mins in front of mirror most of the time in a day.......but I think knowing what U luv is so important, even it means U want to go do plastic surgery tastefully. yes that's the term - tastefully or just plain deliciously. Many galz or even guyz in Asia wud go for facial reconstruction - yet they wud just choose, no.1 eye lids, no.2 nose (guessed I mentioned before), to me IT HAS NO TASTE. Even U r darn pretty at the end from a horribly ugly being!! But do it tastefully means U just fine-tune some imperfection, then well, if that makes u happy, go do it.

So will I do it? Absolutely! Pple always ask me if I wud do any PS. Esp bf...dunno why they always ask if I wud like to have boob augmentation. Frankly.....mine aint that small for HK galz....And also I dont like big boobs, for few reasons.....from a practical and logical pt of views. E.g. 

1. I like fashion......believe me, hving big boobs cant wear most fashion unless U hv very very slim long legs.

2. They r fucking heavy....wait till U have pre-menstrual syndrome, they are like 2 water melons

3. lets be realisitc too.....how many minutes a week I am going to be standing up naked!?!?! As u kniow....when u switch off light, all boobs look the same.

well.................

hving said that, I un why men like, coz they r all mommy boys. hahahahahaha

As for me, yes I would do sthg related to boobs....guess boobs augmenting pointnification. hagaahaha....................that's not even the right term. Frankly, I like my size,sometimes I wud look at myself and tell myself...."hey, caged bird, U r pretty great". But as age comes, we cant help but must admit......if U do hv boobs, U r gonna hv dropping boobs. And I find that to be super unsexy, so I want pointy boobs................hahahaah....pointnification.....:D

Actually, last nite I had a very gd inspiration but as my work crammed too much of my brain cells, so I totally forgot what I wanted to say, except there was an impression. So this morning, I woke up real early and while sitting in the toilet.....I recalled my impression, despite it's kinda abstract hazy - I just remembered, I praised myself again....hey u, U hv such a great mind. How could you come up w something but totally forgot about it and then mesmerize at your own impression of the lost inspiration.

Anyhow...I will keep up.....HK, do read me. :D

when it ceases meaning

Humans are strange creature. We secret all kinda hormones to stimulate our action and responses. Then, on the side, the mystical pheromones kinda drives U nuts by infatuating to someone or by falling off the wagon with someone. Then, that adrenaline....it is so powerful that at times, at that particular moment, U might even be able to move mountain. OK. next, its about brain waves.....that alpha, beta, delta.....do we radiate gamma?? hehe.....somehow they govern how we feel how we react and act.......how spiritual or calm rely somewhat on waves......

I dunno what makes a heart pain so much.....when today I woke up from a nitemare, or maybe lets be civil, call it a dream. I must be in my alternate universe.....I think I was someone trying to avoid a stalker or follower, or was I a cop? Very hazey.....next, it was abit similar to my current situation, but there was a 4th character. So from the 2 dynamic.....I realize, some forms of hormones have dissipated.....in real life. So I woke up lucikly not in sweats as it wud be too cliche to share......then I decided, to watch Buffy the Vampire Slayer and browsed ASOS. Never bought anything from there, but when I was in poverty last 3 years, I felt.....by browsing and choosing and saving the specific pieces soothe me alot, so I keepchossing, saving the pc I like......definitely when I go over the list, I might not really want to buy.

So what ceases meaning? I think our hormones......would gradually secrete less and less for a particular meaning.....say for apology, or a same form of conversation......today I feel it ceases meaning. 'I love u", "I miss u" ceases meaning when....U somehow miss being told to instead of listening to........

Oh yes, how's everyone? I hope U all have a great week, weekend is just a day away, and I hope U luv whatever U r doing rite now :ie reading here: hehe......

Additionally, I kept thinking where the wood is.....anyhow, guess U must be busy running ard, may I spend a bit of time here to wish u smooth sailing in whaDever U r doin!

Clearly....

I'm experiencing melancholic depression!! I'm depressed! I refuse to go home after work! I refuse to sleep! I refuse to care!!! Yet - I want to just stay home, I just want to sleep without waking up, and I just want to bother, to b obsessed with things I don't need to care!!! So, I know I'm hving a spring depression!!! I'm hungry to a pt I have terrible gastric pain yet I can't really eat! I don't remember what I put in my mouth!! No wonder my intestine is also complaining with strikes!! With blows! Why am I complaining!? It sucks! I want to crack some jokes here but my mind is clouded!! I can't crack a joke! Sorry! Later maybe if u care! Going round and round!! I don't want to go home as I'm afraid I may see my dog dead! Yes my old dog shadow seems abit slow, moody, tired.......I'm afraid she will die! I already rehearse in my head - I'm bk there, she doesn't come to greet me and then I check - oh no warmth, just frozen! N I'm going to call my sis and start crying - what shud I do with the body!? Shud I keep in fridge before sb cud pick up the corpse!? Or shud I act like my patents!? Just chucked our dead animal in a plastic bag and put in rubbish bin!! It's how old gen deals w dead animals!! So what shud I do!? Pple say I'm logical - actually no I'm just quite unnecessarily intellectual or dreamie - I like yo think of all possibilities and then rehearse in my head how I shud react or act!!! Anyways I will see if she's dead or not in 20 mins.... Sorry! My mind is clOuded!!

No credit love affair

When you work, U want to get good pay and good praise, so U try harder and harder to please.......
hence, I hope I can quickllllllyyyyy get some biz off the ground asap, so I can quit on bosses again.
I guess, maybe ie what I need to learn, to be more focuzed more determinded.
these cud be my 2012 lessons.....after the 3 years darkest period

So, when we work, we want credit.

At home, whether u r stay home wife/husband or....U r the bread winner
U want merits too. U want to come home with a warmest smile and welcome
ideally, ur stayhome spouse or even maid wud welcome u with a bowl of hot stuff in winter, or a plate of ice-cream in summer......or if u care about weight, then a cascades of assorted fruits would be lovely.
Yet, it seems....all these only occur in movies or family tv., haha...my mom even wasnt so nice considering she was in a past conservative era

Yes, we toil, coz we want credit.

In love, even more. We love, We give, We tolerate.......we toil, we sweat (in bed or just running ard), we care.....then we cry, we try, we understand.......then, we pain, we luv, we toil once again.......dont u feel, U always have regrets in luv?!?! Who has ever said they got no regrets in any one love affair?!?! Either we regret we give too much or we give too less. The funny thing is....usually the real credits come after 2 are apart.....but that credits still mean anything at all?!?!?! Actually......according to my experience, it just feeds into my arrogance and on the other hand feed into my melancholy. So why love, when it seems credits are so stingily offered.......why humans r so mean to that person they love many a time? Or actually.....we dont really luv so we r stingy!?!?!

So, yes we luv coz we want credit.

Ultimately, humans live to earn credits, hence credit cards......appear, it's like someone telling u, without U actually earning it, we give u credits as WE TRUST THAT U WILL EARN THIS CREDIT!!! I dont use credit cards anymore, as I find it's such an evil genius. But think about it....this world move faster than b4........in some ways, I think credit cards have a role in it, as it pushes pple to work to use their mind more....on how to earn more credits.....

A Sunny Sunday

My mind is being taken to another plane from not far from the earth level. I think it's why I cant see clearly, the big picture, maybe I just refuse to float, to fly. Frankly, I am going to be very dark next couple of weeks, I will allow myself to continue to be depressed, miserable until....ok, target bday. Oh by the way, I have got a bday party plan already, abit less usual....still, just an excuse to gather frenz. Maybe some part, I will need Bruce to help, afterall he's the dark knight. :))

I really think I need to re-focus and its not something I was born with. Since young, my mind is like a waterfall.....just keep flowing w both genius and dumbest ideas. At one stage, by focusing on just books were a great, books cud be a good tool to train my mind. Now, I will need to force-train my mind again. And I cant think of how yet........guess it needs some form of combination locks.

Last week, I almost had episodes of strokes and heart attacks. It was a bad week, everyday some bad things happen....it was quite scary actually. And I just have maybe 10 hrs to clear my head, to re-stand once again.

I guess, I am quite tired now being alone and lonely. It's not a nice feeling anymore....it used to give me a sense of existence, now it just offers me drag. So.......I hope I can write more to describe something...yes something....what;s that something , I got no idea!!

I guess, at the end of the day.....maybe my frenz, maybe U here....after some years, and they come to tell me, hey gal, U have changed......to something....something.....I dont think a person needs to change to better for the world, maybe that change cud be worse for the world, yet.....if u change, u change it better for yourself (as in my case for myself)......it's a self merit.

Anyways, at this moment, my mind is very clouded. And I feel bloated too.....I need go to shit hopefully no more toxins in my body to further clouding my already clouded mind.

Statistic II

Previously, I was always curious about where my readers were from coz I had alot of USA page views and I was indeed curious how someone from there got to my link!! And these 2 weeks, it seems Russia has surpassed other cities n countries!! N I'm v excited and delighted!! Frankly my views are very bs but they are mostly genuinely pissed off by myself, by the world!! :)) I really hope some of you could leave a comment - be it trash me, or agree with me!! Of coz if trash too much, I wudnt show it!!!! Haha kidding!! :)) Anyways, thx so much for reading!!

A week with no news and too much news

My ex- husband got married! It's a very weird feeling! On one hand, I always asked him to get married again soon last few yrs when we still kept in touch chatting every few mths! I was hoping he cud b happier, he cud b more excelled in his career! ESP I think his then gf was nice enough to accept out then situation! She must luv him alot!

He's the greatest man I have ever met in my life! He's great to me even I was and yes I have been an asshole always! He's the only one who was patient with me, tolerate with me, being there for me, saw me as who I was, never criticized me even I failed so many things in so many ways!! I think since after him, I have been tortured by karma! I was too young n wasn't willing to appreciate him n appreciate comradeship! Aso my damnest thing was I told him I didn't luv him bloody honestly!

I guess if u wud hv met him now! I wud never let him go but how cud we keep cuda shuda wuda!?

On the other hand yes I do admit I feel upset! Not coz he's married but somewhere in my head I still thought he was mine! Yes v silly but I don't deny my silliness! How cud one give up sb like that!? So yes I m slightly un rightfully upset!

Mayb I wud feel better if I aso hv a man with me, next to me hugging me when I saw their wedding picture on Facebook! But I was alone! While already experiencing a v depressive week!! News w bad news, news with no news! I then look from afar for my current situation! Why wud I dream on!? Believing in things I shudnt believe in! At least for now, let me hv no hope!!

I guess sb once said I might hv some psychic ability n I think this is it!!! Haha I was depressed whole week for aso reasons can't justify my depressive mood! I guess on some level I knew he wud get married but I just wasn't aware or informed! Anyhow....

I will let myself cry n depressed these 2 days for the "best" of sthg that I lost! Yet still sincerely I wish for very best of their life together! I did send him a MSG to congratulate him!

Anyways, just some sharing only!

Double Expresso

It's been second day I am breathing on caffeine. I couldnt have a space to think, then I have been chased from all sides. I remember.....I used to be very aggressive.....very devoted....always cud find ways to solve issues. But this time.....this co.....I feel dead with them.

My head is filling being pounded by all sides.......today, after long time recovery, I feel I want to fork myself with a real sharp fork. OK, sorry....as I repeated, this is my space, I can pollute the world anyhow I want. I dont need anyone to console me.....coz today I indeed feel out of breath. My liver toxin has been rising and I am upset that......things r rushing in like tsunami. Then......I am alone. U know. I am alone during holiday.........I was always OK to be alone, these 2 weeks were bad. 

Managing and handling loneliness and aloneness take long process and time. I did it most of the time but at times, cant I just fucking admit that I couldnt manage and handle anymore????? I dont want Mr A or B or C, tom button or jude carey. I want to be with someone who is out of the world.....haha....maybe who can indeed see me.

OK, OK...I have high expectation but so fucking what!? Why cant I have expectation? Which shit school of thoughts say we shall not expect? Damn ass idiot....I hate this no expectancy thing. Tell me, why U dont kill urslef now, rite now if you dont have hopes or dreams?! Why cant I dream? Why cant I have hopes? 

I seriously seriously need a break. I seriously and humanly benefiting the whole world.....Ineed a break. I need to go away, a trip to breathe fresh air, instead of breathing in expresso. I am like a dead soul who was once thriving!!! Shit, I hate this feeling......I want to stop whining so I can start living. renew my dream, god, renew my soul my souldust. I am gonna be dead from expresso.......

Easter

It's been a while I wrote something happy, but continuously I am abit moody. I just slept my holidays away, work is last thing on my mind and did abit of reflection. And then found my pic at young age and looked into her eyes.....it's kinda weird. I think she was very moody soul as well. And also, I wasnt as ugly as my adult family once said about me....I was lived under the terminology that I aint pretty and I was very stupid comment since....too young. 

Anyways.....then U grow up. U meet guys. They all think I am quite pretty and exceptionally smart, yet then they would replace with various comments.....they kinda haunted me till now. However, as I evaluate myself....I aint like that what they say.....I mean I am alil.....but not in their exaggerating context. For one, he said I used his money. Basically, until now from my re-collection....he used mine more than I used his. Many a time, I gave more than I received, unless he's much richer than me. Thou, I couldnt or I dont bother to defend any longer....if ie his or their impression, let them die with that. I always always believe......when one dies, they would have a moment to count back their regrets. I might not be their regrets but surely my face would come up......hehe, coz I am a nice gal with good heart. If being mis-interpreted, it's beyond my ability or intention to justify.

Then, I think......why people like to trash each other.? Incl me, ok...I trash too much. Dont we un it's a karma circle....at the end of the day, the more we see the "bad things" about the person, the more "we own their bad things"?! Then, lately I concluded that my jealousy gene is actually quite minimal as I tend to believe in greatness in people....always want the best out of them. I am not a great person.....but this is deep inside me wanting to see pple lashing out their best.....it's in me, nothing pretensious.....nothing fake......I guess I felt I had always been under-rated for too long.

Anyhow.....maybe, a lifting up message here.....enjoy urself, believe in yourself, and try to see through a person mask and extract the best out of them. It's very hard if he/she is your another half or gf, bf, bff, etc etc..........yet, if U cud see, U wud find something to fall back in luv with them, maybe; or.....maybe u see a better world out there through them, through their eyes.

bottomless pit analogy

Since childhood, I always have images of pit and cliff. Cliff is....I feel like I am always at the edge of cliff that I am gonna jump down. Pit is....I feel I have been suffocated. Since long time, I wasnt brought back to those 2 places. 

Yet, with my fren Bruce, sometimes we talked about our rp. Esp in the past......he once mentioned I had bottomless patience or compassion for others, esp men, and I would say, esp for useless men! And usually these are the people who told me I was impatient.......sigh....

somehow, I got an analogy today when pondering abt stuff, as the more deep a pit inside your psychi is, the more burial site hidden down there. I evaluate myself very often and I have to say - my childhood was a normal one, I wasnt raped, I didnt get beaten every day or I wasnt so poor that I gotta eat rubbish. I mean, everything was kinda normal. Yes, I got problematic dad or mom....or even sisters, aunties...etc etc....but they are still normal relatively speaking. So I got no idea where this is all from? Maybe I am sick, hehe.

I think and I hope, me likewise....we wont exploit pple kindness, love and patience. Everyone of it is hard to come by....if someone does love you, you are already not forgotten by god. If you have been kind or treated patiently - it means your past lives have done something good.

And I could feel I am pouring some cement into the pit of patience....as I am losing it.

Certain searches for a spotful mind

My mind is filled with pokkadot....pokkadot mind. 

crazy.

messy.

Screamy.

Yelly.

It;s meaningless to ask why.....or whatever. So I just shut up and let my mind be filled with pokkadots.

I dont like woman boss

I once swore I wudnt work under a woman boss. See I ate my word and now I suffered. haha

Well, actually....I feel beaten up as normally after a while, I get what a boss wants. If I could please him or her, then I can have freedom to hv many other things. Ie what I call...building trust and understanding the people above or below you. To me, it's critically important. But this one - I am abit at loss. I feel so stupid, how come after 3 mths I still dont get her. She doesnt seem like a complicated woman. Actually.....I realize, I could get complexity and complication rather than simplicity. Maybe....she's just a simple mind woman. Aiiii....I feel defeated, as I am always very proud of this part.

OK, I am determined, I must explore a way to "please" her enough so I could be free.

Quotation 3

Continue on from.....

http://birdwnolegs.blogspot.com/2011/09/quotation-2.html

1. This, I posted on FB.
Nothing is crazier than knowingly falling in love.

2. Humans need pattern of habits more than pattern of love.
So may I say, we are basically primitively caveman? And May I say, I am actually  a wild cat.

3. I study pattern so I dont actually live in pattern.

4. More I ponder, more I dont understand time.
Time numbs or heals a person depending how you look at it. But time also makes us think we have time......so I would say time is very dangerous adversary of human kinds.

5. if you study astrology, you would know we have water, earth, wind and fire sign.
Fire is the most non-dangerous sign, even it seems most invasive.
Water is the most dangerous sign as it can kill everything - earth, wind and fire.
And water is the only element that can change state - from ice to aqueous, from liquid to gaseous. Hence, if you are with a water sign, you could see that they could boil you or they could froze you. Yes, I am of water sign.....and so I do all sort of constructive and destructive things depending on my water state.

today isnt a good day so I vent

haha, I am crying at office....long time never did, and never really cried much, or maybe I cried too much. I have some epiphany. Of coz I am crying not coz someone scolded me or something. I think on some level, I feel really hurt by something....maybe it's just a trigger, but then snowballed from something knotted from the past, it's like uncontrollable.

Yesterday, I had this idea.....I am indeed hving some form of superwoman spirit. I want to save the world......or be nice.....or change people....I once did fantasise its my role on earth. However, even though my own metamorphosis has been pretty drastic, I always feel I am not perfected enough....I dont hv the skill to do it. So I decided .... maybe by influencing others in little ways, I could make the world better. Just by changing pple mindset....in little ways, maybe I could change the world's thinking system. So I am seriously quite dedicted to do it. Maybe abit on blog, abit on FB, abit on close encounters......etc etc.

Then, sometimes I feel pple who are close to me, at the end somewhat.....I know they have changed. Chnaged to better, maybe stronger......my ex-es....all same...I let them go from my palms once I know they r in their own frame, the rite direction. Not that I will lead them, but more...sometimes a step better makes life slightly easier. Actually one at times had anxiety attack.....I was there. Then another one, becoming more intune with himself, etc etc. Though, I am a nutcase.....I sometimes want someone to be there to see the best in me and to indeed uncover it......Yet....all of them appreciate me with negative comments....all wud say I am arrogant, insensitive, impatient, crazy, imbalance.........at the end

I think I have always carried such wounds w me....I mean I am not a saint, yes I am indeed all of the comments they comment about me.....hhahahaa....but I wudnt expect that as parting gifts.

And yes about yesterday.............I did my own little angel work by interviewing 2 little galz. I have so much compassion for people...I dunno...how I wish they could be all under my wings so I can help them according to each personality. I indeed want to raise a sharp army somewhat....anyways, at the end, one said...(esp the one I said...sorry, this jobs doesnt suit u),,,,thank you so much as no one has been so nice in interview and thanks for sharing with me your view and suggestion.

Guess at times, certain things are destined, then it's destiny.

Anyhow, yes I am just bullshitting. It's absolutely boring......sorry.

A bad morning in 2012

Actually it's 2nd morning I feel worse these 3 months, I think it's lucky sign. In almost 90 days, I didnt feel like going to work....really today I dont want to, as it's getting obvious I dont like managing bottomline by someone else....haha....anyways

Just want to blablah as really I feel abit sucky now. I re-evaluate myself.....I think I am doing a pretty good job, though yes maybe I could hv done more preparation but it wasnt enough basis for me to do anything, so now....I feel abit stuck. Anyways.....I hope after 2 buffs, I will be fine.

Life, part of the deals, no rainbows everyday or sunshine every morning. But I wont lose hope.....In btw, really....I was just thinking, in HK, we dont get to see birds migrating or rainbows anymore....when I was young, I would see that pretty often. When stuck in office always like more than 12 hrs a day, at times, I wud wonder if outside does hv other living thing or not.

Anyways....

Love in the PUFF

I got the chance to see the premier, and I gotta say.....Love in A Puff was like all love story sweet and romantic. Then the 2nd one - Love in THE puff, it's more realistic. And the 2 movies are so local with so much cantonese swearing.....it's a must watch if U want a laugh while learning how to swear in cantonese.

The song inside. Sweet......luv it.



When minutes become hours
When days become years
And I dont know where you are
Color seems so dull without you

Have we lost our minds
What have we done
But it all doesnt seem to matter anymore

When you kissed me on that street I kissed you back
You held me in your arms I held you in mine
You picked me up to lay me down
When I look into your eyes
I can hear you cry for a little bit more of you and I
Im drenched in your love
Im no longer able to hold it back

Is it too late to ask for love
Is it wrong to feel right
When the world is winding down
Thoughts of you linger around

Have we lost our minds
What have we done
But it all doesnt seem to matter anymore

When you kissed me on that street I kissed you back
You held me in your arms I held you in mine
You picked me up to lay me down
When I look into your eyes
I can hear you cry for a little bit more of you and I
Im drenched in your love
Im no longer able to hold it back

WorkLife

I have been working daily.......since last Sunday........so including next 5 days of the week, I could say I have been working nonstop 14 days......Well, I have no complaint though. Anyways, I realize I am an aggressive person with responsible mindset together with the attitiude on disgusting with "rework" - I hence rather work like a slave. And by achieving, it will soon give me the room to run the side projects I want.....And by reminding myself daily.....I am happily as if sleeping on a cloud. 

OK, back to work......and hope to catch you all soon!!!!!

In btw, I hv watched over 10 movies last week.....even I didnt hv enough sleep. I hope you could find the pleasure or hobbies that U wud rather go without sleep for. For me, I know what!

sex, work and movies

:)

Blank vote

There was a discussion about going to cast the blank vote. As mentioned on FB, I am totally hating those advocating such idea. We have become a city with the mindset to OURNEXTGEN.....whatever we are unhappy or dissatisfied, GIVEUP HOPE! Cast blank vote is a way to protest?????? Normally is......but....to HK population NO. As we always cast blank vote anyways.

Wow.....I am fucking traitor I know. haha

But trully. I dont dislike mainland.............I dont expect them to change overnight, I dont expect them to be non-communistic in 2 years, and I dont expect we will lose democracy at all.

So....why not being positiive and hope for the best. treat the new dude as new CEO....never know, maybe he cud rise upon all odds. hehe.....

unpolitical mind to talk abt politics

Well, I am not into politics.Basically, I dont read news, good or bad. It's so tainted anyways....by the unskilled journalists or commentators. I have no idea why all HK pple are so against everything....they follow on the news or focuz on just one tiny flaw....And yet, I feel....the scary thing isnt CN govt has chosen who to be the head of HK. To me, the scariest thing is how HK people have shifted sides so easily, so following on some ideas without some individulistic mind. I am not exactly saying.....that who or whom is better, rather, I hv no opinion coz I havent been responsible as a citizen anyways. hehe....the Q all HK pple shud ask.....hv they been responsible? They cared now who is the head......but hv they ever really cared??? I think if they really do, they feel upset is fine. Yet.....

It's so ridiculous....to me that they even asked if we ever had a choice to choose!? hahahaah....since being the colony of UK, hv we ever had choice??? Maybe we shud be glad....long long long time ago, we were without choice being cut from the mainland, then governed by another grp of unknown britain pple.......and our lifeline started from there. So now, asked if we ever got a choice? The first dude back in 1997....there was no even any 100o votes. After over 10 years, now in somewhat.....there were some 1000 votes.

And to my opinion. HK pple are not equipped to make votes anyways. few reasons....first we dont think in collective terms and we got no individual mindset. Is being governed by china so bad afterall? Frankly.....my opinion is NO. Second, we dont hv the education to develop a group of great politicians anyways.....we dont hv that vast mind & brain......so, it's fine to protest, but pls protest with some brain cells. I am totally against follow-suit attitude!

At times I feel we are so froggy under the bottom of the pit. And we just know how to make froggy noise. And I dont feel sad whether Leung or Tong has been elected. I feel sad for our population!!!!! What do HK really have anyways!? I would wish HK and CN could work closely and not hating each other......and then everyone has a job with a decent flat to live in. Isnt it what HK pple always ask for, hv food in mouth and a roof for head?

Anyhows, I am not political....and I dont really care. All I care is just me....and my loved ones. As long as we continue to live in this free society......I am pretty fine. So I am sorry....I disagree with HK this time!